CrezNcc Rawks

2011-11-02T01:30:00.002+08:00

back to blogging.. back to loneliness.. decided that this is the best outlet for loners lyk me.. no harm done to anyone.. no expectations.. no disappointments.. no one's gonna see my blog much too.. no one to question me.. no one for me to apologise to.. well.. bored.. frustrated.. disturbed.. will blog in detail soon.. but if any loner happens to read my blog.. juz remember one thing.. life as a loner rawks a lot more than life with a friend!!!!! trust me!! no hurt.. no disappointments.. no expectations.. no arguments.. no fights.. so enjoy loners!!

2009-04-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

i m juz so damn bored rite nw.. life is so monotonous.. no excitements.. all only disappointments.. so sick of it.. even though my A levels r over, i cant take a bloody break.. all the time studying.. preparing for entrance exams.. 13 more to go.. hope to get thru by merit.. aiyah.. dunno la.. while doing O levels, they said "juz a few more months.. n then u'll all be free..".. n then started jc 1.. then they said "wait till u all finish A levels.. n then u ll all be free.." now a levels r over.. nw they're saying "wait till u finish all ur entrance exams and u get into a professional course.. n then u ll all be free..".. then they'll say "wait till u finish ur bachelors n then u ll all be free.." then post graduation then job then stabilisation then work then earn enuf then bring up ur kids then settle them in life n on and on it goes.. so basically, we'll never get our damn break.. muz be studying and working all the time.. haiz.. all humans have become like robotd.. all of us are running after money.. what a mechanical life we're all living.. no time to take a peaceful walk.. no time to relax and listen to the song of the morning birds, to see the flowers blooming.. to see the treesshedding their leaves..to enjoy the beauty of nature.. to live life the way we want.. haiz.. let's hope for a more relaxed, peaceful life..

2009-01-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

Yoz!! Asha has come to stay with us cuz her parents have gone to india.. Last night, me, asha n nikil were playing catching around the whole house.. at 2 am.. it was sooo fun mann.. i was reviving my childhood..altho i was busy studying, it was nice to take such breaks.. her stay here is appreciable.. well.. going to my bro's wedding sooon.. sooo excited.. finally i can go to india.. after 2 years..cant wait.. that's all for now..
tata.
nivy.

2008-12-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

hey bloggie.. was juz pondering over yesterday's comments... well.. if my genuine care n concern turns in to a great joke, there is no point in being nice to ppl.. so i told myself.. to juz stop giving a bloody damn abt them.. that doesnt mean i will be rude to them or anth lidat... i will juz nt bother.. that's all.. let me see hw long i can keep up this 'dun-care' attitude.. it is very hard u know?? arghh!!

anyways..juz saw a little girl fall down on my way back home.. i badly wanted to help her.. but like wat cat said.. i muznt be too nice to ppl.. they wud think i m a nut case then.. so many ppl saw her falling down n nobody went to help her.. so dis-heartening.. i m still in a dilemma whether to stretch out a helping hand to strangers as well as acquaintances voluntarily, without them asking me.. i used to be doing that till yesterday, till i heard those comments.. well.. anw, i juz dun feel lyk i m myself.. this change for a day has made me feel as if i m living in a stranger's body, with a different heart and a different soul which don't belong to me.. i feel so lonely within myself.. an empty feeling..i m so disturbed.. i m juz waiting to regain my self..

life is full of ups and downs.. i hv been wandering into my past very often.. my child hood days.. my days with varun.. those 6 years of my life were the most memorable, most luvly, most carefree life.. at that time, i badly wanted to grow up fast, looking at all the grown-ups around me.. now i know how brutally wrong that is.. i wish i were still a kid.. haiz.. i can only cherish my childhood memories cuz i know that i can nvr become a kid again.. i badly wanna meet varun and tok to him for a very looooong tym, about our child hood..abt hw each n everyday went past like a fairy tale..how poetic those days were.. like a fantastic dream.. we used to be so fascinated with each other... with every single thing we did.. varun luvd me unconditionally, when we were kids.. i luvd him a lot too.. we were always found together.. whether we fight or we play or we sleep.. we fight among ourselves, pull each other's hair.. n then we will put our arms across eacth other's shoulders n start playing.. a kid's life is so wonderful.. no cunningness.. no holding personal grudges.. i dunno what kinda affection that was.. a very innocent, pure, brotherly-sisterly, friendly, genuine care, concern n passion for each other.. it was like listening to mozart's violin and piano sonata.. music by the moon light.. sitting by the candle light.. haiz.. the last time i met varun was 3 years back.. i was surprised to hear the exact same thots, sentiments n emotions out of varun's mouth.. i din know our days together were so close to his heart.. in fact, a lot more than that of mine.. i m blessed to have such wonderful ppl around me.. i thank god for every thing that he has given me.. all i ask for is that i want all ppl around me to luv me a lot n treat me as their trust worthy friend, whom they can turn to wheneva they r in nid of help.. that's all..

life is full of contradictions.. cruelty.. ungratefulness.. distrust..
the battle between mind and heart continues..

2008-12-17T19:08:00.002+08:00

hey.. has bin a year since i updated my bloggiee.. well.. a 12th grader's life sux.. but i guess i hv got used to it.. a few more months n i ll be outta this monotony..

well.. life's fine.. with loadsa frenz.. but u knw wat?? ppl say i m too nice to them n that makes them feel weird.. well.. i cant help it.. many ppl like me for hu i m.. n they giv me the freedom of expressing myself in my individual way.. they noe that i dunno hw to act in front of others n do smth else behind their baks.. i say wat i feel n i do what i feel is right. i hv bin trying to be as perfect a human as possible.. but ppl feel that it is too idealistic and they dun lyk that.. i hv forgotten how to be selfish, rude, mean n heck care kiond.. i care for evry one i know n pray for their well being and luv evry one i know... n ever since i came outta crez, ppl know me as the perfect human being.. they noe that i either luv them totally, or like them to a certain extent or am neutral towards them.. i can nvr hate any one.. not even the ones hu hv troubled me soo much, back stabbed me, hypocrites, or anyone hu has made my life miserable so far.. in fact, inside my heart, i thank them for doing such things cuz it has moulded me into a strong character but with a heart.. i know how it feels to be hurt by sum 1 n so i try my bez not to do it.. mebbe i hv hurt a few without my knowledge, but come on... i m a human after all..

i dun care wat they think abt me.. i will continue to be hu i am.. i will be nice to every one, as usual.. n if they feel weird, too bad.. i m juz lidat.. i cannot be mean to them or care any less abt themm..
ppl lyk my dear soulmate peng ke, my wonderful frend kenneth, hong han, chin sian, my sweetie cat, dorothy, and the most of all, varun, are the ones hu know me really well.. they have given me full freedom to be hu i m.. they nvr mistake me for any reason.. n i know that they r always there for me.. i m really blessed to hv such ppl in my life.. in fact, i m blessed with so many ppl arnd me, whether they like me or not... i luv all of themm.. that's all i know.. i want nothing but frendship in return to my luv, care n concern.. but if ppl r nt willing to open up their world to me, it is ok.. it is their own decision..

well.. i really miss my krss life.. my wonderful peng ke n all the tchrs there.. Life in giis is not bad.. at least, not as bad as i expected.. n krss classmates, the ppl of 4E6 2006 are the most wonderful, most mature ppl of my age hu i hv met.. human heart always realises the true value of smth when it isnt there.. but.. haiz.. it has bin a long tym since i had decided to follow god's plan for me, without questioning my faith in god.. so.. i guess there is a very exciting life waiting ahead of me.. i hv not even thot of harming othrs.. so i m sure god will not let me down at any point in time.. i hv bin telling myself every day that tomorrow will be a better day.. n i muz stop worrying about small issues.. today is the tomorrow that i worried about yesterday.. n there is always a tomorrow.. so there wont be any end to my worrying.. well.. i guess that's all for now.. me busy with mock exams n stuff.. so may not update frequently.. tc ppl.. all the best to every one.. i will pray for every one's well being.. n i will pray for world peace.. long liv humanity!!

2007-04-30T15:35:00.000+08:00

Hello! It has been more than a month since i blogged..well..i juz wanted to say a few things abt the ICC Cricket World Cup that has juz been over..

FIRST OF ALL, MY HEARTY CONGRATULATIONS TO THE UNBEATABLE AUSTRALIAN TEAM FOR WINNING THE WORLD CUP!!!!!

well..recently, i have got crazy over cricket...n i have been supporting the Australian Cricket team led by Captain Ricky Ponting.Although Indian team was out of the world cup right at the first round, i was still interested in watching the world cup...Really, the australian team seems unbeatable...so far, in the last three world cups, that is; 1999, 2003 and 2007, Australia has lost 0 matches if i m not wrong..what a strong team mann! i was really inspired by this team..what a great amount of effort they should have put in to stand where they are today! n i guess being a captain of a team of 11 people or more and training them in the right direction is a very tough job..i shd say Ricky Ponting has been doing his job very diligently to bring his team to such a standard..yet, he was so humble when he was interviewed at the closing ceremony..he said that the individual members of the australian cricket team had been challenging themselves with higher goals and improving themselves..i guess the past 2 captains of this team have been very efficient in leading the team...this includes Ponting as well as Steve Vaugh..

well..i have become an ardent Fan of Ricky Ponting...haha..my sis too! she says he looks very keeewt! haha..true enough..i feel so empty after the world cup's ending..i liked the feeling of the world cup fever..well..may be that was why i developed fever last week..haha..lame me..

oh..a few more things abt some other players of the Australian Team...Glenn McGrath ended his One-Day-International (ODI) career day before yesterday..he gained the title "player of the tournament"..i think he took 25 wickets in 10 innings or something like that..the team shd indeed be proud of his talent...what a great player!

heard a few nice stuff about Adam Gilchrist from dad...dad told me Gilchrist donated some amount of money to a few orphanages in Calcutta, India..dad said he is a nice human being..haha..i was pleased to hear that...oh..and gilchrist was the "Man of the match" for the finals held on Saturday against Sri Lanka...woow! fantastic playing..all the batsmen struggled to reach at least 40 runs, including Hayden, Ponting, Symonds and Clarke...but Gilchrist scored 149 Runs in 70+ balls or something lidat..great mann! wonder how he did it...Sri Lankan Captain, Jayawardene said that his team was trying very hard to keep up with the Australian team but in the end, was helpless...well..Sri lankans put up a tough fight as well..i shd say their standard of playing was very good...

Anyway...enjoyed myself watching the world cup...i had a great time..i really miss watching it, staying awake late at night and doing something other than studying... had a good break n time to get back to serious business now..but i have got an extra wish added to my wish list...i wanna meet Gilchrist and Ponting..i wanna congratulate them for the reward they have gotten as a result of their hard work..the australian team has won the world cup consecutively for the third time..it was ponting's 4th world cup that he was participating in...the team will remain as a legend forever in the history of Cricket..

Waiting Eagerly for World Cup 2011!! (looooong way to go)
BYEE!

2007-03-26T09:09:00.000+08:00

hello! it has been a looong tym indeed since i updated my bloggie...

first..birthdays:-
March 12 - farzanah
march 17 - selina
march 19 - minee!
march 20 - kenneth
march 22 - nazrin

these r the ones i can rmb rite nw..sry if i left out anybody..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U ALL!

hmm..well..life's really damn boring nw..how i wish i had school..haiz..miss all the fun i had in KRSS..now..stay at home, staring at the 4 walls around me..indulge my head into my books..aiyoh..looking forward to june..when i can start sch..on the other hand..i m anxious abt my new schooling environment..wonder whether i can catch-up..wonder whether the people there can understand my english...i hope that evrything wld be fine..

went to watch a movie with family..recently, hv been going to theatres a lot with my family...watched deepavali, yest was sabari..then when i went with my higher tamil classmates, we watched pachai kili muthu charam...and the most recent movies i hv watched over CDs are: thaamirabharani, pokkiri, friends...oh..n azagai irukkirai bayamai irukkirathu, athu oru kanaakaalam, aasai aasaiyaai..tt's all i can rmb..

well..nth much to say..shall update when i feel like...
bubbyeee!

2007-02-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

hellooo evryone! it has been almost 2 months since i updated my blog..have been really busy these days..

well..time to update:
after dec 14th(my last entry):
27 dec - my sis went back to s'pore..we cried a lot the night before..not wanting to be separated from one another..we have never been apart since the moment my sis was born..
3rd jan- my sis's birthday..called her n wished her..
14 jan - had the pongal festival(harvesting festival)..went to my paternal uncle's hse..they presented me with a set of punjabi suit..
27 jan- my dad's birthday..wished him too..

then had some unpleasant moments as well as joyous times during these two months..well..i juz noe that NOBODY in this world, has treated me like my parents n sis have..or rather, i hv not met one who wld treat me in such a nice way...humans always realise the value of things when they dun have it..it is not human's fault..it is nature's fault..nobody can be blamed..

now, anxiously waiting for my O level results to be released..hopefully, they wld be released after i reach s'pore.. i wanna receive my results myself personally..not ask my parents to go n collect dem..cuz i badly wanna c my classmates..

shd be going to s'pore soon..eagerly waiting to c my parents, sis, teachers, friends n everyone there!

anw, have bought my jac 1 bks here in india..i hv started studying them..i guess i wld be able to manage the indian syllabus..juz tt in nid to memorise a lotta stuff...hope i can do it..

ttfn
~nivy...

2006-12-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

helloo! yaaay! got in to a jc which i tot i wld never get into...SAJC! i tot my prelim results were not good enuff for such a jc..well..it is all by god's grace..thankyou my lord!

went out with uncle, sis n cousin today..went to spencer's plaza...den to pondy bazaar..den to da saidapet office...our own company...wah..such a big, high class office..anw, enjoyed myself today!

yup..bubbyee

2006-12-13T14:00:00.000+08:00

Hi..

juz missing my classmates loads...dey r da ppl who brightened up my sec sch life.. da ppl whom i will nvr forget in my entire lifetym... n of all da class pics taken in my various schs in s'pore, i only brought my kentridge class pics...class photots of 4E6! miss u guys! i m very fortunate to hv met u all guys! altho i din really hang out with u all tt much, i still enjoyed ur presence...i enjoyed being with u all for 2 years...my 2 years in crescent tot me lessons for life...2 years in kent ridge gave me friends for life..i m glad my parents made a sudden decision on dec 23rd 2004, to transfer me frm crescent to kent ridge...if not for tt decision, i wld have suffered for anthr 2 yrs.. n wld hv lost my academic talents...not say, i do very well in studies...but at least da ability to study like an average student... i can confidently say i m not below average...hopefully i wld remain dis way..

anw, i m glad i at least got da opportunity to go out with a few of u guys during da last few weeks b4 Os...all da craziness, laughter, joy, scoldings, tests, exams, lessons n naggings tt we have gone thru...will definitely hold a very special place in our hearts...n wld always keep us close together...a special bond wld bond us in some way throughout our life...i jz wish i can bring u guys wherever i go...i wish i can stay with u guys forever..but i hv to open up to reality... life has to move on...even tho we r not physically close nw, i will forever be emotionally attached to u guys! u ppl rawk my world!

Ainul, Falaha, Rachael, Shu Xin, Tabitha, Hwee Ying, Dorothy, Nicolette, Pearlyn, Peng Ke, Priya, Roshini, Surbhi(migrated), Shu Xian, Desiree, Alex, Derick, Kenneth, Wei Xin, Marcus, Wei Min, Jace, Yuen Poh, Hong Han, Jian Loong, Wenyan, Wei Hao, Daniel, Sharath, Chin Sian, Joel, Ivan...

Woow...i rmb all of dem according to deir index no..haha..miss u all ppl!
hope to c u guys soon!
nivy..

2006-12-08T16:44:00.000+08:00

hi..feeling very bored nw...jz read my previous posts..holidays r getting more n more boring as da days pass by..things tt i hv bin expecting to happen, have not been happening..of cuz, if wadeva we want to happen happens, den life wud not hv da thrill..bt it is so sickening to realise tt da thing i hv bin praying for, for 3 yrs, shows no signs of coming true..it has jz bin 2 wks since i came to india..initially, i had a lot of things to entertain myself with..listening to music, playing keyboard, self-learning guitar, playing with cousins, attending bajans, browsing da net, watching tv, going out with aunts n grand ma, visiting my relatives n so on..bt nw, i hv had enuff of dese..i dun feel lyk slacking anymore.. n i cant get myself to read a bk cuz i left all my best bks in singapore..in fact, nw i feel lyk studying..can study without stress, at my own pace..miss my bio, phy n chem bks..i had so many new things to learn, but there was a lack of tym..nw, i hv a shortage of bks n entertainers..or rather, i hv had too much of dem..haiz..dunno wad i m blabbering abt...

anw, i hv attended 2 weddings since i came to india..has bin 3 yrs since i attended indian weddings..well..anw, it was my maternal uncle's b'dae yest n paternal uncle's b'dae today..wished dem happy b'dae..well..nw, i hv got nth to look forward to.. u noe i hv dis bad habit of only moving on with life if i hv smth to look forward to..haiz..dunno hw i developed dis habit..when Os were going on, i was looking forward to my trip to india...nw, i can only look forward to da entrance exam i hv in feb..dis exam wld be da one which determines whether i can enter da best sch here called D.A.V...well, hope i can get thru..planning to start studying frm jan 3rd..kkz..let's not tok abt exams again.. i hv become so allergic to dat word..

My close relative said she wud be visiting me today...waiting for her nw..n tmr, my one n only older cousin sis is coming to stay with me for 2 days..i m quite close to her..has been more dan 5 yrs since i saw her..i last saw her during my maternal uncle's wedding in 2001 Jan..so, yea..nw, i hv gotten so bored listening to songs n playing da guitar..n even browsing da net...dese feelings occur very rarely..i always have enjoyed music..aiyoz..i snd more like under stress..i snd worse dan i did during Os...kkk...i cant stop myself frm toking abt Os...well..i shall stop chattering away for nw..i better go n do some physical activity nw..hv bin sitting in front of da com for 3 hrs...bubbyee!

2006-12-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

hi!!! Happy Birth Day my Dear MANGO! It has been 3 years since i hv known ur existence! May you Live a Long life n may u prosper! All the best in all your future endeavours! May god guide you in reaching ur goals! but pls reach certain impt ppl in ur life at da right tym...without delay..
Praying god for ur good health..
Nivy...
*ppl reading dis, pls dun be confused or puzzled n pls dun waste ur tym figuring out what today's post is all abt..it is jz for me to noe..bowzzz*

2006-12-03T15:42:00.000+08:00

hello! dunno y...feeling so possessive ovr certain ppl...i can't stand myself..argh!!! my negative points are that i m overly possessive, have very low self-esteem, not confident of myself..easily annoyed, highly irritable..not trusting ppl too easily..craving extremely for life-long frenz...sum tymz i get soo frustrated with myself for hving dese traits u noe?

n i m still searching for sum one whom i can hv for myself exclusively...peng ke is the first one in that list...but i hv bin separated frm her..haiz..so unfortunate..

anw, hols in india is not tt bad...playing key board, self-learning guitar, browsing da net, playing with my 3 cousins, out of which one is a 4-mth old infant...so keeeewt! den i hv bin updating my personal diary...anw, hv bin hving a few prayers constantly..

dey r:

- i shd c "mango" very soon(my close frends might understand)
- i muz become a paediatrician successfully
- nicolette-kenneth friendship shd stay this close and strong forever.. [it is very very hard to find such frends u noe? i shd say nic is very lucky to hv ken's frenship n ken is very lucky to hv nic's frenship]
- my frenship with peng ke shd last forever...[i shd say it is hard to find a fren like peng ke too! altho she is not very much inclined towards studies, she makes a very good emotional support! altho i only noe her for a year, we hv gotten damn close la..*our frenship started on sept 3 2005, during yellow ribbon walk*]
- everyone i noe shd live a long healthy life n shd stay close to my heart forever!

this is all i hv bin asking god..well..yup..i better sign off nw..bubbyee!

2006-11-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

helloo!!!!!!!! finaaalllllyyyy! o levels are over!!!!!! freedom till dec 30th! haiz..da long awaited break...my suffereings n struggles for 2 whole years have finally come to an end...lemme take a break before i start working again next yr...kk..let's not tk abt working again..

i felt like doing so many things after Os when i had my exams going on...but nw i feel lyk i hv gt nth to do..so weird sia..dunno wadda do...toooo free...n i dun feel like blogging any more...so i'll jz visit my blog like once a week or smth lidat..anw, nt many ppl read my blog..so it dsnt really matter when i update..it is jz for my own outlet..well..tt's all for nw..jz no idea hw to express my relief..well..c u soon blog!

2006-08-31T18:14:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! I m so happy today! ohohoh...b4 i 4get...HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
Guys, u noe wad? i really feel that i m da happiest n luckiest person on earth!

okies..lemme go thru today's happenings...went to sch at 7..changed into pe attire n went dwn to hall for aces day workout..it was raining..so we had da mass dance in da hall..me n peng ke cldnt find another 2 ppl to form a grp of 4..so we decided to do da dance by ourselves...den pearlyn n mrs tan joined us..wow..i can tell u tt mrs tan is juz so cute mann! she had plaited her hair on both sides, like a small little kid..she seriously looked like an over-grown 12-year-old..she was so cute..den we danced together, having fun n evrything..she was so blur cuz she din noe da steps..den we taught her how to do da dance..n yea..i was enjoying myself..i seriously forgot abt my surroundings n i was enjoying the presence of my loved ones dere..4E6 rawks mann! u guys r juz so impressive n unique..

den we went to class for physics..ms chow was telling us abt our prelimz..den, we went dwn outside da hall again, to meet our 3 science teachers..u now wad? my class is juz so damn cute mann...we gave our teachers, a kiddy wear each..with the words "we love you! ~ 4E6" written on it..n we all said we r encouraging dem to give birth soon! hehe..so naughty sia..den we requested dem to carry it where ever dey go juz for today..they were vvv happy..n dey really did carry it with dem all along! i passed my greeting cards to da respective teachers.. den went back to class for geog..den we had an hour break..i was having my mood swing then..i suddenly became v depressed..i oso dunno why..haiz, certain emotions do not hv explanations...

well..den we went back to da hall for the concert..it was abt an hour or so.. we sat rightin front of da stage, with so many photographers dere..so weird sia..den i was sitting juz beside da teachers...gosh..teachers r juz so amusing n cute when dey r demselves...hehe..ms jaime lim was playing with my hair, swinging it frm side to side..den ms chow n mrs tan were oso dere, with the kiddish wears tt we had given dem..mrs tan was telling me notta stone dwn dere but i muz swing accordin to da rhythm of the music being performed..den she gave such keeeeewt expressions! den we were having fun dere with our teachers la..n i think da activities this year for teachers' day were quite impressive n it involved most of da school's participation..rather dan juz concerts...den i distributed da remaining teachers' day cards...

n den what happened? lemme think...oh ya..i boarded 189 togetehr with pinky, tabby n hwee hwee..i was squeezed to the steps at da entrance...gosh, it was so crowded mann..den we got off at da interchange..i followed da rest to da hawkers' n i made one big big round to get back to my pri sch..i reached da sch at 2 pm..i was soo damn surprised to c aish, dinuraj n ganesan dere at da pedestrian..dey asked me whether i was going to c my pri sch teachers n i nodded...den dey said dey were juz returning frm there n that our tamil teacher, mrs bala, wld only be available at 2.30...so we went for a drink..den we happily chatted n caught with the missed key events..den we headed towards our pri sch..we met chandru dere...den we had to wait until 2.35 to c our teacher.. so in da mean time, we went to explore da new sch building(we were in da holding sch when we were in pri 5 n 6, while da new sch building was beign built)..den when we finally saw mrs bala, she said i still look like a small kid n that i have not changed at all...so i guess my growth period hasn't started YET..

den we wished mrs bala n gave her our presents..sad to say my form tchr, mrs chua, has left da sch for good..so i cldnt c her...den we had a loooong good chat w mrs bala for abt one and a half hrs...we were glad to hear her say that we are the best batch of students with excellent PSLE results that she has ever had..she also told us tt during da tchr's meeting, our principal praised our batch a lot..esp da tamil students, for havin 95.6% QUALITY passes, with only one student getting a B..so glad to hear tt sia..den we invited mrs bala to join us for lunch but she said she already had her food waiting for her on her table...so we said goodbye to her and went to KFC to talk to one another after such a long tym, reminding one another abt da sweet memories n experiences we had together when we were in P5 n P6...we reached KFC at 4.30 pm n we chipped in some money to buy one pop-corn chickenn one set of cheese fries for all of us to share..our main aim was notta eat but to tok..yea...den we shared our sec sch experiences with one another...goodness, i juz realised HOW MUCH we had to share sia.. n we were so free with each other emotionally cuz we were friends frm young..we cherished one another's presence...n i m so glad to day tt i realised i have sooo many ppl hu cherish my friendship! including my dearest classmates of 4E6!

unfortunately, aish had to leave at 5 for her tuition..so all of us left for interchange at 5..we bid farewell to aish at da mrt station while me n da 3 others proceeded to da interchange...we toked for some time while waiting for our buses...den i saw 285 approaching..so ganesan n i left, leaving dinuraj n chandru behind..we said goodbye to one another, after promising tt we wld have a 2002 batch tamil students' re-union after O levels..yea..den ganesan got off one stop b4 mine..i returned hme at 5.30, feeling very satisfied n happy! u noe i din feel hunger pangs or gastric pain at all today despite being empty-stomached from mornig 5 am all da way to 4.30 pm? mebbe cuz happiness n satisfaction filled my stomach entirely!

i m so happy with myself for earning such great friends n such wonderful ppl hu really care abt me, hu cherish my friendship! thankyou guys! i heartily wish u all great success in all ur future endeavours! this wish is to all the ppl whom i have met so far in my life! n who really appreciate my presence! i seriously think i m da happiest n luckiest person on earth! i have got wonderful parents hu understand me well! i have got great teachers who believe in me! i have got trust-worthy friends hu care abt me n appreciate my friendship! n i have got great relativees hu believe in me n hu love me with their hearts n souls! goodness! god has given me everything that i have asked for n even those which i have not asked for..so i shd do my part to sustain my happiness by studying harder n keeping myself happy forever! so nw i shall go n study to make up for da 4 hours which i have relaxed..so i need to work for 8 hrs altogether! great! prelimz r juz around da corner...n i m having a graduation night un my higher tamil centre dis sat! i have got all my clothes ready for tt! Life rawks mann! 4E6 rawks! 2002 batch clementi pri sch tamil students rawk too! it was a goog re-union after 4 years, altho there were a few ppl from our batch missing...ppl like andril, baradhi, farzanah, amir, siraj n so on..but well, i had an enjoyable tym...okies...tt's all i have gotta say!gotta go n pick up my sis frm child care..
bubbyeee!

2006-08-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday India! Bharath Mataki Jay! Vante Mataram! Jai Hind!
May you prosper! Let poverty get out of u! let economy develop! may you achieve the position of one of the best countries in the world! u r the best country, to me..but u shd be admired by all other countries in the world! I am there for u...n i shall bring up my sis juz as loyal and patriotic as me towards INDIA! We Love INDIA! Hamara Desh, we will never let you n your pride down!
with lotsa love,
Nivetha!

2006-06-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

hey guys! i m back frm india..rite nw at hme, straight after htl n tamil lit lessons..my trip was enjoyable as well as memorable..

HAPPY NCC DAY TO ALL CADETS! MEMORABLE NCC DAY FOR MY DEAREST PLATOONMATES IN CRESCENT! IT IS YOUR LAST NCC DAY IN CRESCENT...I AM SURE YOU ALL WOULD NEVER FORGET THIS DAY! well...i saw 3 crescent ncc cadets in da mrt...looked like sec 1s.. well..i recognise dem as crescent ncc cadets... but obviously dey wun recognise me as their senior or as an x-crescent ncc cadet.. well..I MISS NCC! . AIYAH..I WILL LIVE WITH THE SWEET MEMORIES I HAD IN NCC FOR 2 WHOLE YEARS IN MY LIFE...well...i might go n be a medic in the INA (Indian National Army) for abt a year or so to show my patriotism and to contribute my part to my country...if i cant go dere, i wld probably do my part by serving the poor in my country as a doctor..but all i wish for is..i shd not get a chance to serve da poor in india..u noe y? cuz i want poverty to get out of india before i finish my higher studies... i wun wry tt i din get a chance to serve da poor..i can find another way to do my part..but, poverty shd be chased out of india..dere shd not be a single beggar...

Jai Hind!
Bharat Mata Ki Jay!
Indian,
Nivetha!

2006-06-19T19:07:00.000+08:00

hey guys!

This entry is all about my childhood memories and the most enjoyable time i have had in my life so far...da important character in this entry is my cousin, friend, well-wisher, philosopher, n everything, Varun!

our friendship started when he was born,on september 2nd 1992, when i was 1 and a half years old..since den, we stayed in da same house..we slept together, went to da same school, we ate together, we played together, enjoying each other's company; every morning, i used to drop him in his class before going to my class...we went out together..he was stuck to me n i was stuck to him...we used to run around da coconut tree in front of our house, playing catching...n we had da same hobby, pulling each other's hair..dere was not a single day we din fight..

when varun came to India this tym, i realised he has changed so much..his appearance as well as behaviour...well, it might be very obvious tt these would change as one grows up..but, i can't digest da fact tt he has changed so much..however, da core has not changed...i was surprised to noe tt he shares da same sentiments as me..i expected him to have forgotten everything cuz most of da ppl who go away frm their relatives, dey might forget da times they had spent with them..but he still remembers our childhood days, da days which we were together all da tym..we never parted with each other for seven whole years...until february 1997...da day my peace and happiness collapsed as well as my cousin left for USA..

i juz looked thru all our childhood pictures...dere is even a picture of me pulling his hair, sitting on shiva's walker...gd evidence for all our fights..he is da one n only guy in my life so far, who i m so close to. da very first friendship, partnership i hv got in my life, right from 1 year old. n at tt tym, he was da only relationship i treasured n appreciated. i din understand da value of any other relationship then...not even da value of my parents...i was too young 4 tt i guess... we fought all da tym..but i guess all those kiddish quarrels juz bonded us more tightly...helping us to overcome all da inhibitions we would have had if we had been nice to each other right frm young..

anw, sry for boring u with my own sad stories..well...i juz hope our friendship lasts 4 ever! i might juz break down on his shoulders when i leave this friday...haiz..da second most impactful separation in my life..first tym was when his parents separated us unintentionally when they left for USA in 1997...second tym is gonna be dis friday...da last tym when i came, we fought often n so it din have tt much impact on me..but dis friday's separation is gonna be very impactful on me cuz we din fight at all...in fact, we got so much more closer..miss u loads da varun!

well, his youth seems to be as equally enjoyable as our childhood..but for me, my childhood is the most enjoyable tym..my youth is a struggle...well...at least, let him enjoy his youth!

ok den, c u guys soon!

2006-06-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

hey guys!
I m currently in my uncle's hse.."enjoying myself"...well..the main part of my journey is approaching soon..my other uncle together with his family and my grandma r coming here tmr..n abt 30 others from our extended family and 4th circle of family members are coming to visit us one by one in da next 5 days..well..having fun..but feeling guilty of not studying as intensively as i used to study in s'pore..haiz..well..i m consoling myself finally that life is not all abt studies (look who is toking)...like what ms fahizah says, muz take breaks in between too! muz move 2 steps backwards to move one step forward..at least my progress in not stagnated..it is slow but not still..haiz..i hope to achieve my dreams one fine day! how nice would it be if i wake up one fine morning with a degree behind my name! oh well..it can happen it fantasy but not in reality..

oh..n one more thing..da moment i stepped onto my motherland, out of the flight, i felt a sudden sense of satisfaction and security..after 3 whole years of deadly struggle, i have managed to feel the warmth of my mother INDIA! n guess what, it is really hot here! da last tym when i came here, da temp was 40 degrees celcius..this tym was 35 degrees celcius..not as bad but it is still very hot..but despite da heat outside, emotionally, i have cooled down..i hope to stay as calm as a saint especially during my exams..

before da flight's take off in singapore, i called peng ke n spoke to her for a few minutes..da day before i left, she played the piano, a song dedicated to me, symbolically wishing me Bon Voyage! well..den i was dreaming abt meeting all my long-lost friends and relatives here throughout da tym i was in da plane..how i wish this precious and memorable tym can stay with me forever..how i wish time stops running at this minute! wow! NO O LEVELS THEN! haiz..i know tt would never happen.. "Men May Come And Men May Go But Time And Tide Waits For No Man!" said a great man...it is very very true..well..now i shall stop my nonsense here..n shall meet u guys in my next entry with interesting news again!

C U!
Enjoy ur hols dear classmates and friends! But dun forget to do ur homework n self-revision!
bubbye!

2006-05-25T18:33:00.000+08:00

harlow! i juz realised how much i luv kids! u noe wad..i was feeling all down, upset n moody...on my way back home, i saw this lady on the foot path with a small little infant..den when da lady saw me, she raised the infant so that it can see me..den she held the baby's hand n waved to me..when i waved back n smiled at the baby, it smiled back to me! oh my god! u noe tt smile seemed to have a thousand expressions...i cld c da innocence n cuteness...

da innocence cannot be seen in any adult's face, not even adolescents...oh my god! the baby brightened up my day, or rather, my evening! how i wish i wld live in a hse full of infants n i can keep looking at their innocent faces throughout my life! i had no heart to leave the place u noe...some might find it irritating when babies cry...but when u change ur view point, it is juz so wonderful! i feel as if god is trying to convey some message to me through the baby..we hindus, believe that babies r equivalent to god...yep..well...i luv innocent kids, especially infants...

n i shd thank god for offering me the golden opportunity to c my sister grow, from birth till today...for 6 years...da things tt happen r juz so beautiful...well..my life then has a meaning after all..i shall become a paediatrician n look at kids the whole day long...omg! i m so in luv with infants! i wld say only kids are innocent..i agree even i m not innocent..although i wld luv to be one..once a person noes what he or she is doing, one is not innocent...n i can say peng ke has an innocent face...well...nth much den..c ya!
thanks cute little baby!
n thank you god!
bubbye!

2006-05-24T17:07:00.000+08:00

hey guys! it has been almost 3 months since i blogged..well...what can i say nw..erm..was very busy with exams..exams have driven me mad..nw exams r over but i m not relieved from my burden..i m quite disappointed with myself, i mean my results..when i gt back my results, i almost cried..i became mad over myself..

as for you-know-who, i hvnt got to tok to tt person for quite some time...has been almost a month since we had da tym to tok to each other..da last tym i toked to tt person was da day before my exams, 27 april..haiz..so my other support oso gone..left with only peng ke to tok to..who i think is da best person for me to tok to..budden i cant use da phone for long...n we don sit beside each other any more...so it is like i only get to even look at her face 3 times a day, for 25 mins each tym..morning before lessons, recess, n lunch.. we go home by different means of transport.. i ride hme n she takes da bus..n we oso dun sit beside each other in assembly..haiz..

i m going mad! i feel like studying summore to feel more confident, budden when i open my book n sit in front of it, my heart sinks, i start feeling restless...

dere is only one difference between an alcoholic n a workaholic..an alcoholic starts developing withdrawal symptoms when he stops drinking alcohol.. .a workaholic however, develops withdrawal symptoms like feeling restless n going mad when he starts doing work after a short break for 3 days..he needs some time to slowly develop his pace again in working...like wise, i have lost my pace in my 3 days break, n i cant get back to da speed i had juz before da exams..which means i have to build up my stamina right from square one..haiz..

thanks to peng ke for persuading me to watch "Chronicles of Narnia" screened in da library today..it was nice..n went to discovery centre today..so enjoyed myself today..budden muz go n study nw, to make up for da day spent with out studying...

okies..gtg..bubbyee..

2006-03-08T15:56:00.000+08:00

hey guys! nth has been going very wrong..neither has everything been going right.. so i hv got nth much to say.. well...i will juz have to live with the tides of the ocean called life.. however, even a small stone being thrown at me, many ripples and waves of disturbances will be caused...my ocean will never be calm since in some way or another, something has been disturbing me one after the other..i find it very hard to find peace...my heart is suffering from great unrest and chaos, as bad as a post-war situation..there is uncertainty within myself..n i m unsure of how to get over it..haiz..anw, for my own satisfaction, n to cheer myself up, let me list down how many tests i have survived through the whole of this term....:

3/1/06-physics surprise test
4/1/06-chem surprise test
9/1/06-amaths test
12/1/06-emaths test
13/1/06-physics test
17/1/06-bio test
18/1/06-chem test
19/1/06-ss test
20/1/06-emaths class test + tamil literature test
25/1/06-emaths common test 1
26/1/06-english compre common test 1
27/1/06-Tamil literature test
31/1/06-English Summary Common Test 1
2/2/06-SS common test 1
3/2/06-A maths common test 1 + Tamil Literature test + chem practical test
7/2/06-Geography common test 1 + SS drill test + Higher Tamil common test 1..Paper 1
10/2/06-Tamil Literature common test 1
14/2/06-Bio practical test + Higher Tamil Common Test 1..Paper 2
15/2/06-Chemistry test
17/2/06-Tamil Literature test
24/2/06-E Maths Test
27/2/06-Physics Common Test 1
1/3/06-Chem Common Test 2
2/3/06-SS common test 2
6/3/06-Physics Common Test 2
7/3/06-Geog common Test 2
8/3/06-E Maths Common Test 2
9/3/06-Bio Common Test 2 + English Common Test2 - Compre
10/3/06-A Maths Common Test 2 + English Common Test2-Summary + Tamil Literature Test
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After term 1:

15/3/06-SS Drill Test [during the march hols]
24/3/06-Chem Test

Including Upcoming Tests, There are 40 tests altogether...haiz..ok lar..not so bad..38 tests in {(10*5)-3(public holidays) =} 47 days (term 1).... so tt means
{38/47 * 100% =}80.9% (to 3 s.f.) of test days... that's a lot mann!

ok..c u all sum tym later..
byee

2006-01-25T18:56:00.000+08:00

hi guys! i think i can't update my blog tt often(yar, like i update evryday lidat..lk at da gap between da dates tt i update.) i m quite busy dese days..my schedule is so0 packed..i wun blog unless i feel i need to let out smth that is really exciting or smth which i think i need to share with some one...yep yep..ok lor..den ...i gt nth to say..bubbye!

2006-01-19T18:44:00.000+08:00

hey ppl! today was a neutral, infact quite a happy day for me...had a maths.. differentiation..i dunno y i was so daring todae u noe..i volunteered to go and present the solution for my question on the board! i dun remember doing this ever in my lifetime..den had bio..We made miss fahizah so angry...or rathere, disappointed...i cld c da disappointment in her face..i have heard that making elders feel disappointed is far worse dan making dem angry..On da behalf of my class, i apologise miss fahizah..we are really sorry..but u noe what? tt was all my class needed..that drive to work..tt is da only thing they lack..if dey attain dis too, we wld be da perfect class!

aftr bio was recess..den had briefing by mr koh abt da structured programme frm next week..den had english, hadta write an essay abt INTERNET..aftr tt was social studies..

den after sch, had social studies drill test..it was 50 mins..i am da ss rep.. den i hadta take care of da class...i felt so responsible for my class pupils at tt point of tym..it was da same feeling i had when i was da IC in ncc for activities..tt was 2 unforgettable years ago..

den went for choir..wah lao..i m so unfortunate leh! it is only evry fridays tt dey sing songs and practise..on thursdays, dey only do vocal training..so i dun get to sing my FAVOURITE SONG, WHEN YOU BELIEVE! it is so touching..da song..da tone creates dis sense of undescribable emotional feeling in me..i remember all my sweetest memories which i dun get to experience any more..so i hv told ms wong n she said she wld do smth abt it..but anw, i have my dear class..i luv da tym i spend w dem..i hv dis sudden sense of belonging to my class mann..for da past 4 days..i oso dunno y..haiz, certain things in life cannot be explained..life is not chemistry..chemistry has many hidden reasons behind every fact that we learn..n mrs tan is soooo strong in chemistry..i m so jealous of her.. i loan my head to get tt much brains oso i can't get her brains.. ok..nw why did i go to chemistry? haiz..nvm.. i m not myself dese few days..something is really going wrong with me..

oh, coming back to my class decoration..(got diverted and went such a big round)..in da tym tt we had gone for choir, my class pupils had started da decorations! n when we went baq to class, at 5.10 pm, dey had da red packets all on da boards... n u noe what? i discovered smth..i had always thought that kenneth could do anything but be serious..he is so hilarious! he can make me laugh my heads off mann! all his actions..haha.. n i din noe he cld be such a GREAT LEADER! until he came, not many things had happened..but once he stepped in to da class, he got into serious business! he took responsibility of the decorations...n he has a WONDERFUL CONTROL over my class! da plan was all done! he planned when certain stuff shd be finished! things got in to such great shape! n he assigned some of us to buy things..me, peng ke, and hwee ying went to buy certain items as well.. i really dunno hw to explain.. but i can tell u smth..KENNETH! You Rawk mann!!! HATS OFF TO YOU! no wonder you are da council president, choir president n ex auriga hse captain(i guess dey shd hv changed da captains for dis yr rite?)! i hv dis sudden surge of repect for him! i think if he uses his power to educate our class a bit more on certain things tt we lack, we wld please all our teachers.. he shd spend more time with my class and advising them.. n i shd learn some leadership tactics from him! u really rawk kenneth! i dunno what technique u hv in controlling our class..haha..okies..i wish for u to become a great leader in future! ur leadership qualities are really very impressive!..and it is amazing tt i din noe abt dis for one whole year! n 30 mins is enough for me to judge people..or rather, for anyone, 30 mins shd be enough.. i realise u hv da true leadership potential kenneth! go for it!

and one final thing.. 3E6 05', 4E6 06' rawks my world! by the end of dis yr, i hope to have my class in shape..n i hope da teachers will really feel tt we deserve to stay in their hearts even after we part with kent ridge!

byee!

2006-01-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

hey ppl! has bin such a long tym since i updated my blog..din feel like..more over, who has da tym? well, juz tt nw i need to relax...i hv bin stuck to my bks for the past 1 yr..even during my hols.. yea..

well, what can i say? had a nice new year dinner on dec 31..den had our harvesting festival two days ago..went to my cousin's hse..

on fri da 13th, i had a long n bad day mann..doing stuuf frm da tym i woke to da tym i went to bed.. da pevious night, i slept at 1 n woke up at 5 due to my physics test da next day...den i had lessons until 1.30 pm on fri.. actually supposed to end at 12.40 but was prolonged by my physics test..den i had to rush hme, put my bag n bicycle, n rush for htl..den we had sum pongal(harvesting festival) celebrations.. den wrote down my test dates for tamil lit which is this week. den rushed hme for tuition..well, i din get a cab aftr waiting for 25 mins...frm serangoon rd to clementi..den hadta take mrt n bus..den reaches hme late and was late for tuition...den tuition was until 10.30.. den had my dinner, did my hw, studied, and den slept at 12 midnight..wahh life is so horrible..

well, let me list down all da tests i hv had frm da beginning of da yr till next week..
3/1/06-physics surprise test
4/1/06-chem surprise test
9/1/06-amaths test
12/1/06-emaths test
13/1/06-physics test
17/1/06-bio test
18/1/06-chem test
19/1/06-ss test
20/1/06-emaths class test + tamil literature test
25/1/06-emaths common test 1

c what i mean? so many tests!!!!
haiz...anw, gtg n do my werk..gt loads of work to do!
byee!

2005-10-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

hey guys! juz had my tamil Os, paper one today...it was quite tough i guess..anw, all my exams are over, except for tamil Os, paper two...i m not so free even now...wah lao..sec 3 is not like sec 2 mann...after sec 2, we juz hadta do our holiday homewerk...but after exams in sec 3 oso, muz study n prepare for next year...wah lao eh...damn stressed sia..i hvnt touched my books for serious studying after my exams until now...i cant get myself werking on...well..i shd get baq to serious business soon..haiz...no break mann..i seriously think i deserve a break..i hv been working dog hard through out this year...but i dun get what i deserve..

haiz...mebbe after my Os next year i can have a break..haiz..anw, i gtg n have my head buried in my chem or bio book..haiz..

byee guys!

2005-09-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

hey ppl..
dun hv da tym to blog now...busy w exams...i wun be able to blog until 4th nov (end of tamil O levels.) so c u guys soon! and good luck to everyone for the upcoming waves of exams.
bye!

2005-08-25T18:44:00.000+08:00

hey guys..has bin over 10 days since i blogged...well..wad can i say...i hv binvery very busy with my common tests that i hv not been relaxing for the past 3 weeks...as if i m a person who noes hw to relax lidat..u noe ah...evry time i feel like relaxing, i juz dunno hw to..n i dun feel like..i juz go ahead with my academic work..even blogging dsnt provide me with relaxation...i juz get more guilty, feeling tt i can spend my blogging tym on my studies...even if i try n console myself tt i shd relax...i juz cant get myself to relax..i cant get myself to tok my hearts out to any one..i dun feel like trusting any one..NOT EVEN myself...i hv bin bottling up all mi feelings to myself..haiz...may god bless me n my studies...tt's all i want in my life...da only thing i hope to achieve in life, get into M _ _ I _ _ N _ in S'p and an _.B._.S or an _.D (this is not for anyone to noe but juz for me to noe..a form of pouring out wadeva i feel like)..even dis is not da place where i can be myself..even if i maintain a personal, hand-written diary, i cant guarantee tt no one wld c it...haiz...world is evil..or rather, i take it to be evil..well...dere might be sum one out dere for me (although a lot of ppl act like dey care for me n do bad stuff behind my baq)..but dere might be a person who truly cares for me..if dere is not a single soul who loves me n cares for me, only den da worls is really EVIL...nth much to say la...juz too pissed off, hurt n restless to say or do anth...btw ppl reading dis, pls dun get offended...i really dunno y i m pissed off..but i noe i m pissed....i feel as if some one or smth is being snatched away frm me...n i feel very restless...an usettling heart, mind body and soul...i oso feel v inferior n stupid..haiz...
bye den..

2005-08-13T12:48:00.000+08:00

hey guys...juzz peeped to wish my home land, an advanced Happy 58th Independence Day!
HAPPY 58TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST INDIA! mother india is turning 58 on august 15..after 250 horrible years of slave-life of indians under the british rule, india, my INDIA got independence on August 15 1947...i shd thank the great Mahatma Gandhi Ji! he was a great leader and he was the main person who fought for independence...having salt marching...fasting...he is reknowned for non-violence...it was dis non-violent way of protesting against da colonial rule, tt gradually changed the british masters' minds...mahatma gandhi ji's original name is mohandas karamchand gandhi...n if i m not wrong, he was born in Gujarat, Porbandhar...on october 2..i dunno da year tt he was born in...he was shot dead by a betrayer in 1948...he was given the title "mahatma" which stands for maha+atma...maha means great and atma means soul, in a language called sanskrit...so he is the great soul! he is also known as The father of Nation by Indians...

of course dere were many other leaders who fought for independence...Netaji Subash Chandra Bose, Jawaharlal Nehru (1st Prime minister of India) and many others...i thank you all for fighting for OUR COUNTRY'S INDEPENDENCE! SARE JAHAN SE ACHA! HINDUSTAN HAMARA!

My respect and dedication to my country:

Our national Anthem:(composed by nobel laureate rabindranath tagore)

Jaana Gaana Maana Adhinayaka Jayehe
Bharata bhagya vidhata;
Punjaba Sindhu Gujarata Maratha,
Dravida Utkala Banga,
Vindhya, Himachala, Jamuna, Ganga,
Ucchhala Jaladhitaranga;
Taba Shubha Naame Jaage
Taba Shubha Ashish Maage
Gaye taba jaya gaatha.
Jaana Gaana Mangala Dhaayakha Jayahe
Bharata bhagya vidhata;
Jaya he Jaye he
Jaya Jaya Jaya Jaya he!

The english translation:

Thou art the ruler of the minds of all people,
Dispenser of India's destiny.
Thy name rouses the hearts of the Punjab,
Sind, Gujarat, and Maratha,
Of the Dravid, and Orissa and Bengal.
It echoes in the hills of Vindhyas and,
Himalayas, mingles in the music of the
Jamuna and the Ganges and is chanted by
the waves of the Indian sea.
The pray for the blessings,
and sing by the praise,
The saving of all people
waits in thy hand.
Thou dispenser of India's destiny,
Victory, victory, victory to thee.

National Song: (Shree Aurobindo)

Sanskrit Version:

Vande Mataram Sujalam Suphalam

Malayaja Shitalam Shasyashyamalamm

Mataram !

Shubharajyothsna Pulakitayaminim

Phullakusumita drumadala

Shobinim Suhasinim Sumadhura

Bhasinim Sujhadam varadam

Mataram!

English Version:

bow to the Mother, Richly watered, richly fruited

Cool with the winds of the South, Dark with the crops of the harvests,

The Mother!

Her nights rejoicing in the Glory of the moonlight

Her hands clothed beautifully with her trees in flowering bloom

Sweet of laughter, sweet of speech

The Mother, giver of boons,giver of Bliss.
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Long live my country INDIA! I LOVE YOU INDIA! YOU ARE MY BREATH, HEART, MIND, BODY AND SOUL! YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING! MAY YOU PROSPER AND OVERCOME ALL OBSTACLES, TO ACHIEVE AN OUTSTANDING POSITION IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD! MY DREAM OF YOU IS TO BE THE PERFECT COUNTRY EVER! YOU SHOULD BE THE PERFECT PLACE TO LIVE IN...YOU SHOULD BEAR CITIZENS WHO ARE PATRIOTIC TOWARDS YOU! MOTHER INDIA'S CHILDREN MUST BE LOYAL TO THEIR COUNTRY!

and here, i pledge to be loyal and patriotic to you and only to you! you gave birth to me! you provided me with a place to live in...you gave me the right to be your citizen! i thankyou for that! i m hoping to see you develop...more and more as days pass by...beyond all odds! success is never a destination! it is a journey! i pray for my india's road to success to be smooth! i vow that i will make a difference to the current india! i will help you! i m there for you! if not for others, you have me, Nivetha, an indian citizen there for you! i m sure my fellow brothers and sisters who are indian citizens are there for you anytime you need us to help you develop! i will thus try my best, to uphold my nation's values and morals! i will bring pride to my country!

General Pledge:

India is my country. All Indians are my brothers and sisters.

I Love my country. I am proud of its rich and varied culture. I shall always strive to be worthy of it.

I shall love and respect my parents, teachers and elders.

To my country and my people I pledge my devotion

National Integration Pledge:

I solemnly pledge to work with dedication to preserve and strengthen the freedom and integrity of the nation.

I further affirm that I shall never resort to violence and that all differences and disputes relating to religion, language, region or other political or economic grievances should be settled by peaceful and constitutional means.

In their well being and prosperity alone lies my happiness.

Long live my india! bless you!

your true and loyal citizen, child, well wisher,
nivetha

2005-08-03T15:06:00.000+08:00

hey guys..i m in a damn bad bad mood today...so sucky mann my results...so bloody pissed off w myself...anw, da day started off well...had p.e fer an hr...had fun..we played soccer...nic, ainul, me, shuxin, shuxian, rachael n desiree we in 1 team... had all da fun n den had all da bad news in da rest of da day in order to overwhelm da fun i had...damn it! i suck at physics, chem n a maths...n i still have to mug 5 poems for my tamil lit test which is on dis friday at 4.45 pm...

i oso hv htl test on dis fri at 2.45 pm..muz prepare for tt too...life so sux...filled w test...stil hv chem surprise tests evry week..but in a way it is gd to hv tests...serves as a practise...but it is only good if it is not included in da damn C.A...haiz...so dis fri i hv abt 4 hrs of tests continuously...i still hv da bio project thesis to write..it must be at least 10,000 words...damn...hw m i gonna finish up evrything? i oso hv 2 english assignments to hand in next friday..one is a report on a newspaper article taken frm da forum section..another one is a argumentative essay which we hv bin doing fer a month or so, side by side learning the parts of an argumentative essay..den gt phy test on 23rd august and bio test on 18 august...n on my dear india's independence day which is on aug 15th, i m hving my tamil prelimz..haiz..anw, gtg nw..in it lab for it enrichment's second session..bye den...

2005-07-27T14:25:00.000+08:00

yoz yoz! gt back bio prac common test paper and ang common test paper...results were as expected, as usual, low...erm..not satisfied of cuz..but parents r..i m NOT..i better work harder..yet to get baq e maths, a maths n physics prac. papers..hving chem test dis fri...nw we r learning da chp on moles...so confusing mann..luckily we din have it for mid yr..if not..i would have bin DEAD! so little tym to revise da chp tt dey taught juz b4 exams..such as acids,bases n salts..but i m glad tt dey skipped chp 8 & 9 first...

anw, nth interestnig in life...juz tt my classmates have given me a new name, WHICH i shan't mention here..haha...so bored..life is so boring without any entertainment..i dunno y i cant get myself to relax..i cant get myself to start having entertainments...all i can think about in every single moment of my life is STUDIES STUDIES N MORE STUDIES>> is it me da one hu is pressurising me or is it my parents? i oso dunno..haha..anw, in comp lab now... for IT course(STUPID LAH...IT IS DA SAME THING TT I DID WHEN I WAS IN CREZ...DA ONE ON ADOBE PHOTOSHOP..n i m attending da same course again, waste my money sia..)...gtg den..c ya..

2005-07-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

hey guys! has bin a long tym since i blogged..almost 2 mths..

btw..HAPPIE RACIAL HARMONY DAY!

haiz..tmr i hv eng common test and on friday i hv a maths common test...so sick of tests oredi mann..nw i understand da burden of my snrs in crez..haiz./...so damn sickening mann..i used to wonder what on earth dey wld b doin in class fer such a long tym..nw i can understand..dey used to have lessons until 5 on mondays if i m not wrong..

anw, i m so freaked out by todays series of events..firstly, morning when i was on my way to sch on my bicycle, i saw a pedestrian in front of me n so i wanted to give way..so when i swayed to my left, i din c dere was a tree's trunk tt protruded in da path way..so i had no space to move..i was stuck in between da pedestrian trying to hit neither of my obstacles...cuz if i hit da pedestrian even accidentally, i wld b in deep trouble cuz she was frm kent ridge too..if i hit da tree, my hands would become injured..so i tot it is better if my hand gets cut rather dan me getting into trouble...small cut wldnt kill me..unfortunately, i din c dere was a crack on da pavement...n i had heavy bks in the basket attached to da front of my bicycle..so dere was a small degree tt i turned n i slipped onto da mud cuz of da crack..i fell flat on da ground..like a captured soldier which i learnt in ncc..my head was facing down n my palms were facing da sky..haiz..i was sooo shaken by da incident..i hurt both my knees n my left elbow..my knees were bleeding... n damn it..i got my shirt dirtied..summore it was wet from da rain..so all da dirt was on my shirt..den was so embarrassed when i went to sch..luckily i had some bks in my hands..n i concealed da dirt w dem..i went to da toilet to get my shirt clean n dry..den rushed for morning assembly...

next trauma to me was....CHEM SURPRISE TEST!!!!!!!! mrs tan suddenly gave us a test..n she said tt dere wld be surprise tests evry week...wah lao eh...i m sure to lose at least 6 marks mann...da paper was only for 15 marks n yet i cldnt do it...arghhhh!!!!

i m soooo stressed up!!!! i hv bio hw..em hw..am corrections..ss project..eng arguementative essay...htl hw..OH MY GOSH!!! i cant stand it anymore...hw i wish i wld be back in my sweet home land...altho da standard of living is poor dere..i had a peaceful life...but choy la...i better complete my studies here n den go dere to have fun...i muz tahan for anthr 3 n a half yrs at least...

mebbe i m sooo stressed up cuz i m too ambitious?!?! i dunno..anw, everything is in my hands nw..whether i want to hv a bright future or a tiring future..whether i shdnt mind da stress n do well 4 studies or complain abt da stress n decline in my results...whether i shd make up my mind n continue to werk hard or whether i shd start slacking...well..i think i wld go for da positive one...anw, life is short..muz learn as much as possible..before i die..hu noes whether i will be alive da next minute? anything can happen at any time...so i better not change my track...cuz i hv my sister...hu is an ardent fan of me..hu admires me a lot...(according to what my mum says..) so my parents, my sister and i r like da compartments of a train...even if one compartment of da train is faulty or changes track, da whole train would change track too, or even worse, da train would collapse...so y shd i be the cause for my family train to collapse? i shdnt be selfish n start slacking cuz of my own emotions and desires...i shd think of my family too...

so now i have
made up my mind
to werk harder
to achieve my goals..

here i m
taking my oath
that i will never
become a stray coach..

thus i declare
i will be loyal
to my family
n friends
n make a difference
in all deir lives

i shall improve on
everything i can find
n be da guide light
for all to shine

i shall grope thru da dark
forgetting my worries
work considerately
and achieve completely..

anw, i wun be able to blog for da next few days cuz of my common tests..
so until den..it's farewell frm nivy!
byee!

2005-05-16T09:57:00.000+08:00

hey guys! has bin quite a looooooooooooooooong tym since i blogged..a month n 2 days..haha..anw, my examz r over!!!!! yaaaaayyyy! juz finished dem today...budden, said rite..i fell sick on friday...n dis is da first sch tt i hv seen having CME exams...n dey need our EZ-Link cards to be kept on our table fer attendance taking.. deir exams procedures all like university exams lidat...n my nose was troubling me mann! i was having a bad running nose and cough n sore throat..n hv bin hving exams fer almost 2 weeks..or 2 n a 1/2 weeks..started on april 29 n ended today...n my exams evryday ended quite fast n i came home like abt 12 or 11...den fer da past one week, hv bin coming home at 9 or 10 am...cuz last week all only one exams per day.. n last last week was two exmas a day..anw, nw i m done w dose horrible stuff!!!!yaay!!! but u c ah...god dsnt like me to be happy for even a single day...today dere was an announcement saying tt we wld b getting back our exam papers starting frm tmr..i normally hv lessons until 3 evry mondays n tuesdays.. so tmr i m gonna go thru exams papers until 3 pm...wah lao eh..

anw, i hv done OKAY fer all exams except fer physics n a maths...sux mann! kk..i gtg..c ya l8r! byee!

2005-04-14T15:29:00.000+08:00

hey guys! happy tamil new year to my dear tamil frenz!
ENATHU INIYA TAMIZH PUTHAANDU NALVAAZHTHUKKAL! n oso HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY! i wld like to make many more frenz!

on a happy day, a sad thing, wad an irony mann..my sec 4 choir snrs r stepping dwn nxt week..our president rawks mann! our vice president oso rawks mann! miss dem..dey were very nice to me..so sad rite..a human being, in life, muz suffer sooo many separations..n dis is hw humans gain experience..nvm..i shall be optimistic..dis is anthr chance to show my strong heart to tolerate things and a kind of traning for me to control my emotions..

anw, i realise smth u noe. i hv nvr stayed in one sch fer more than 2 yrs.;.. hahaha..k1 n k2 in one sch..P1 6 mths in athr sch..so 2 n a 1/2 yrs of schooling in india..den malaysia 1 yr, P2..den baq in india ion anthr sch P3 6 mths den in s'pore da rest of 6 mths of P3, den baq to india fer P4 in anthr sch..n den studied 3 mths of P5 in da same sch.. den came to s'pore fer P5 n P6...den sec one n sec 2 in crez..n nw sec 3 in kent ridge..sec 4 oso shd be here...den again if i go to jc, my jc 1 n 2 in one of da JCs here...wah lao eh..my life is so adventurous mann... changing sch evry nw n den..it is gd exposure to me anw... n i learnt to adapt to new environments faster..haha..like i took 2 mths to adapt to kent ridge..

n den during lunch hor..my dear classmates..hu r juz like dose of 2s3 04', treated me like a small kid, esp cuz i m 1 yr younger dan all of dem..n den dey were feeding me food, den dey were doing sum thing to my hair n were looking aftr me like a small child lidat.haha..so sweet isnt it? anw, i hv made quite a no of frenz...n todae we had a game for international friendship day..so during assembly we were in class, playing games...mann it was funn! i was asked to draw taj mahal on da board..juz a brief sketch..n since my art suckz..i tot my drawing was horrible..n guess wad? in da whole class only me n my othr class mate whu was in my cme project grp, had passed our art last yr..haha..so dey all said our drawings were very nice..haha..den went to water our plants in da sch nursery tt we as bio students n as part of da bio project, hv started to maintain..sch is getting fun mann..juz tt Mid Yr exams r arnd da corner..

haiz..
ok..
gtg
byee

2005-04-13T15:30:00.000+08:00

yoz ppl!

today was quite a fun day w a lotta events..

morning i was in class b4 dey locked da class! LAME..den..had bio...my class bullied our bio tchr to sing a song related to light n spectrum..n her voice was nice..den gt e maths lesson..i understood evrything we did today finally! den had health check-up todae...so missed physics! den was recess..had fun w my classmates mann..dey were fooling arnd bullying each othr..haha..den was chem..had a short surprise test..nxt was e maths again...n we did more n more graphs..so da day was full of triple sci maths..den had lunch n went fer my bio project..

we planted trees as my sch wants a nursery too..so we, bio students, r making different products like medicated oil n stuff lidat..we r inventing new stuff..n side by side, we grow da herbs n we get our ingredients fer our products frm our own plants..fun mann!

n one more thing...MY GRAND MA IS COMING DIS SAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!yaaaaaaaaaaayyyy!miss her loads mann!

anw, gtg nw..
byeeez

2005-04-07T15:27:00.000+08:00

hey guys..
has bin quite a long tym since i blogged..abt 2 weeks...haha..anw, sch has bin pressurising as usual...w tests almost evryday...mann..triple sci double math n tamil lit on top of dis together w ss n geog elect n of cuz w english is not an easy combi to cope with...quite stressful tho..budden, muz werk hard nw so tt can enjoy life later...hv bin doin quite OK fer my tests...my e maths seems to hv lesser prob dan da bloody a maths...wth mann..so pissing off lor..n yest i was so darn happy juz cuz i understood all tt my teacher tot in a maths yest..haha..so lame me...

anw, choir, we had syf on last mon, 4 apr n we gt silver..no improvement mann..last tym oso dey gt silver..anw, let's put tt aside fer a while..no choir until mid yr exam..me preparing fer mid yr by cracking my heads off n studying n understanding n cramming all my bio stuff into my pi-brain..my brains r so bloody saturated nw mann..still gt 2 chp to go in bio..3 chp fer physics..2 chp fer a maths, 3 chp fer e maths, 2 chp fer ss, 3 chp fer geog..2 chp of tamil lit novel n 2 chp in htl n 2 chp fer english...all dese muz add on in to my oredi-saturated brain...god bless mua!

juz finished my bio test todae..not bad la..was easier dan my prev test...

anw, gtg nw...gt loads of e maths, a maths, tamil lit, bio n chem n phy hw to do..

buaizzzzzzz....

2005-03-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

hey guys!
spent my b'dae doing 17 continuous hrs of hol hw on sat...i started on 19 03 2005 3 pm n finished my werk non-stop...at 9 am 20 03 2005...which is da next day...no sleep no toilet break...no meals...no nothin...juz home werk..i dunno y i had dis sudden determination...and as u guys noe, if i wanna do smth, i wun stop until i finish it...

dorothy, roshni n priya bought me a prezzie! thz dears! n so many ppl wished me happy b'dae...din noe i was loved by so many ppl! anw, today i m done w all my hw n i hv da whole 3 days to study n notta do hw! yay! ok den...my common test 2 was pretty ok...maitaining same grades as ct 1...so no diff la..

ok den... nth much to say la..gtg k..byee..

2005-03-18T19:03:00.000+08:00

hey guys!

went to watch da master parade todae..well..wad hv i gotta say? i dunno..i m dumb founded w all my memories in ncc..i wonder y on earth did ncc ever intrude in my life or why did i ever cum across crescent? n y were all my 3 sets of ncos, part a, b n c ncos...y were dey sooo nice n y did dey instill da sense of belonging to crez nc in us? n y was i one of dose hu was very committed to ncc? becuz of all dese reasons...it is very hard fer me to forget abt my memories n it is harder dan when i was in crez, to concentrate in my studies..i m constantly reminded of my memories in crez n in nc..i feel like crying wheneva i think of dese...todae when i saw my dear pltnmates, i was on da verge of crying..n when i saw my nco receiving da ranks frm maam cheng, i really did cry..i dunno y i became sooo emotional...when i was abt to leave...i asked staff sam if i cld juz tell a few things to my pltnamtes...n she stopped dem frm marching...n den i was half crying..but sum hw trying to stop my tears frm rolling dwn..n i juz said "well...gd luck to u all..tc..n ya..c ya all.."..den dey said "gd bye nivetha".. n i rushed outta crez b4 i started crying n embarrass myself...my ncos gave me n yee lyn da contingent shirt n staff returned my collar ping as a memory too..i guess our dear pltnmates chipped in money n paid fer us..thankyou all! thz fer being dere! when i saw u all, all da sweet memories juz flashed across in my mind...i wld nvr forget u all my dearz! bravo 04 rawks mann!

i saw floren, yu ting n su min in frnt of G.O. n dey asked me abt my new sch..den da more i was reminded of 2S3 04' n i hurried outta crez..

den i went fer my grp meeting at daniels hse..mann, no wonder daniel so lean n thin...his hse is like on a hill summit lidat...we climbed so many stairs lor..wonder hw he climbs so many stairs evry day...discussion was fine...we were da only two gals in our grp..my self n shu xin..da rest of da members were wei xin, our grp leader (also class chair person), jian looong (who looks more like mr lee kuan yew, n he is da maitenance head of 3E6), daniel (IT rep), wei min (class treasurer), shu xin is da cme rep n i m in class discipline committee(discipline again, in crez student council, i was in discipline com too!) n me n shu xin r da designers fer our product as we r da only ones in our grp who passed our art last yr..haha..yep..den came hme n nw blogging..

last yr march 19, i was in part b camp...my pltnmates sung b'dae song fer me..altho i was sick :(..i m sooo reminded of tt..da previous yr, tt is in yr 2003, i was supposed to go fer part a camp budden i had spoiled my ankle (frm tt day onwards my injury has bin permanent) n i was limping at hme, i slipped inside da toilet n fell n my injury got worse...dat was my 12th b'dae..dis yr, my 14th b'dae...time is so fast..i rem juz telling snr ari ovr da phone tt i cld not go fer part a camp..n so fast i m outta crez n in sec 3...n outta nc..far far away frm my dear pltnmates n snrs n specs...haiz...like my blog heading says..."men may come n men may go..but time n tide waits fer no man"

tc guys!
byee(gonna indulge my head into da ten yr series to do hw)

2005-03-14T16:49:00.000+08:00

hey guys! loong tym nvr blog..k..got nth much to say tho..i hv bin crammed w stuff evrydae until i hv not ym to even think of da werd "enjoy" or "relax"...evrydae cum hme like 7+...monday gt grp meetings n extra lessons..my official lessons end at 3 *no lunch break in between, only recess...:(* on mondays n tuesdays...den tuesday gt htl...i reach hme at 8.30 as usual..den wed gt house practise..it ends at 6.30..n it is compulsory..den thursday gt choir until 6.30...fri gt htl n tamil lit lessons...htl lesson frm 2.45 - 4.30 n tamil lit lesson frm 4.45 - 6.30...so again i reach hme only at 8.30...den sat gt tuition at boon lay...frm 11 to 2..n den sunday muz do n finish all hme werk..so practically evryday i sleep at 2 am or 3 am n wake up at 6 am...n summore gt so many tests..can u believe tt i had 1 set of class tests n 2 common tests in 1 term? i was so crammed lor..

den hols at least i tot can relax budden gt loads of hmwk..gt physics 4 chp in tys..den a msths n e maths, hv tys 3 chp each..summore hv dese two maths booklets full of sums..muz finish dem oso...den gt bio tys 5 chp..den gt htl n tamil lit hw..muz write 100 werds in tamil vocab bk...den gt english hw..gt geog elect hw too..muz do work book 2 chp..den gt bio test on enzymes n nutrition...n da test is on da monday right aftr da hols...so muz study fer tt oso..

i dun wan mar 19!!!! da unluckiest day...nth has bin goin rite ovr here...evrything is juz da opposite of wad i expect to happen...evry one is starting to scream at me, regardless of my own self-esteem being pushed dwn...i try my best to boost it up n ppl juz insult me in frnt of so many othrs fer no reason n i end up hving my self-esteem n self-respect being lowered...n i m oso getting pissed off very easily..i hv becum more violent..as in..when i m pissed off la..i hv started to throw thing n i broke things fer da first tym..i mean..hw much can a human being tolerate? unless dey wan me to keep evry thing bottled up to myself n burst one final day outta pressure n if dey wanna c a person die of pressure at da youngest age ever...

i m being pressurised by ppl to werk harder n score higher *which i think is totally ridiculous*..nah..hu cares..i will do my best n in da end i will not hv any regrets..

i wonder why
da earth existed
i wonder why
me, of all ppl
was born
i wonder why
i m considered
so useless
i wonder why
i m pressurised
n lastly
i wonder when
i'm cuming to an end...
-nivy-

2005-02-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

sry peepzz! da reservation of tickets 4 da choir concert has bin closed...so pls dun cum on tt day n expect da tickets to b sold dere...all tickts r reserved b4 da concert n not sold on tt day..if any last minute reservations, can tell me by 21/2/05 (t0day) by 10 pm..thankyou guys!

2005-02-16T15:15:00.000+08:00

hie...

gong xi fa cai anw..erm..a bit too late tho..

my deep condolences fer smth tt happened to sum one..i was shocked when i heard tt news..i feel so sry fer u...try ur best to manage w out tt person..i m always dere 4 u..if u feel like u wanna tok smth out, u can always tok to me..

cuming to da more pissing off one..dey juz noe me fer 6 bloody weeks n dey muz start deir bloody match-maker business..cant dey juz mind deir own business n not any how spread rumours abt ppl? dey hv not only spread rumours but consequently hv also spoilt all my hard-earned reputation..n i have oredi made it so clear to dose bloody idiots tt my reputation is da most impt thing to me dan anth else in my life..n i hv oso told dem a billion times tt i wld not tolerate such nonsense..despite all dese, dey dared to go n tell da whole class abt da story tt dey made up abt me...bloody hell..wad da hell do dey think dey r doing? bloody toots..mebbe dey r juz indicating to me tt dey r not fit to be mixed arnd w n r not suitable to be befriended..i m nvr gonna mix w dem any more...n dey shall face da consequences... i m definitely gonna complain abt dis non-sensical tradition of mixed schs..

2005-02-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

hey guys! pls do me a favour k..kent ridge sec is having it's choir concert! we r having CHOIR CONCERT ON 25 FEB, FRIDAY, AT 8 PM, AT VICTORIA CONCERT HALL..TICKETS ARE SOLD AT 10 BUCKS...pls do cum and support us k? can? i can bet u all da songs r very nice n i m performing in it too.. i wld encourage everybody to cum n join in da pleasant concert tt wld make u all feel peaceful n relaxed...i wld b eager to meet all my crescentians! after all, i WAS a crescentian too...haiz..k..wad m i toking?
yah..ppl, pls cum fer our concert k? thankyou!

2005-02-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

hey! got average grades fer my tests...not bad la..anw, guess wad?! i saw sgt yong hui at outram mrt station! tt few moments of unexpected shock n surprise n joy! i can nvr 4get tt...anw, i hv bin missing all my snrs! n specs! n clts!n of cuz, my dear pltnmates! i was happy to c sgt yh as i wanted to c at least one spec fer a very long tym...so da sight of her has satisfied my longing to meet all my othr specs...dis wld last me fer anthr 2 weeks...den i wld long fer dem again..so..i hope sgt yh dsnt mistake me fer feeling dis way..i m sry sgt...haha..okay...pls 4get all my crapp...i hope i can tok freely w her again...

humph! (turns away face) now cums my pissed off part...i was happy rite? y mus u make me dwn by saying wadeva u said ah? cant sleep w out maiking me feel sad is it? wah lao eh...i was so happy to c tt...den u said dun feel happy n 4 get abt tt..hw wld i feel...u think wad u can treat my feelings ah? hu gave u da right to? hu gave u da permission to do so? go n die la u..so sickening..i shall nvr turn to u again! i shall nvr express my feelings to u again! i hate u! i hate u 4eva! happy?! u asked me to feel so towards u...den l8r dun feel sad tt i hate u ok? wad is done is done! i hate u means i hate u! wah lao eh..i m so mad at u! so angry w u! fine la..dun acknowledge me.. anw i liked da way u behaved..budden u dun wan me to like u wad...so ot my prob lor...as if u r da only person in dis werl tt can be liked..i hv so many othr ppl! fine lor! gd bye to u!

2005-01-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

hie..
HAPPY REPUBLIC DAY MY DEAREST INDIA! MUACKZ! LOVE U 4EVA!

k..has bin damn busy...n today i gt pissed off fer da first tym aftr comin to dis sch..wad happened was...

my eng teacher has a dif way of teaching...it is in a work shop style..so we r supposed to take turns and teach da lesson in evry mongth fer 3 weeks n he wld teach fer one week...den tell us ways to improve...so my grp was da first one to present todae...3 of us were in a grp..myself, falaha, n roshni...falaha n roshni did a pwr pt presentation in a diskette n i did one separately...den roshni edited deir presentation n gave me...i compiled both in to a very gd presentation...;our topic was on instant messaging..

den i went n bought rewards for da q&a session tt we planned to hv..den i photocopied 33 of da passage in my own cost(we r sup to spend our own money n divide it w in da grp...each grp will do tt), i printed out all myt pwr pt slides in case smth cork up..den i assigned falaha to juz send a copy of our materials thru e-mail to my eng tchr..(we were told to do so by our tchr) den until da mom we were abt to present, falaha nvr remembered..n we gt into bloody deep shit..da tchr called me n scolded me of all ppl..den i reminded him tt i wasnt da only one in da grp n dere were two more ppl...den i went n called dem..n he told us he wasnt gonna bring up his laptop fer us to do our pwr pt presentation juz becuz tt falaha din send da materials to him..we hadta manage w da white board n marker...luckily i had printed out my slides...so were not tt unprepared...n he embarrassed us in frnt of da whole class can? n da worst thing is...frm da mom of preparation, to da mom of presentation, he wld b grading us...n my grp proved to him tt we din deserve gd grades...dis is 60%of our CA can? n we got 14 upon 30 can?

n luckily i had bought da rewards n i had planned a summary..basically da presentation was all i prepared one...he told us if we hadnt had had these, we wld hv gotten only 5 or 6...n he sum what complemented me fer taking initiative(thz to crez ncc!)to do all da werk n lead da grp...i apologised to him on da behalf of my grp..haiz..i was so bloody pissed off w her lor...our presentation had da standard of getting at least a 22 upon 30...haiz..as farz says, "wad is done is done n cannot be undone"...true..

hats off to all my crescentians whose grp i have bin so far! i nvr had such situation in crez, altho my PBL wasnt tt gd due to mrs gam's expectations..

so nw i hv completed my E maths class test, geog common test, n biology common test..tmr hv chem, fri hv e-maths common test, monday hv eng ct, tues hv phy n ss, wed hv a maths...wah lao eh...muz go n study fer chem nw..haha..okie...bye guys! wish ya all gd luck fer upcoming tests!

miss ya!
LCP Nivetha

2005-01-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

hie ppl..

k..sch has started n it has bin squeezing me out..taking triple is not an easy task..gd luck all dose tking triple out dere! luckily my sch dsnt hv eng lit..so i m free of one load..budden, da tym table is in such a way tt it covers at least 6 subs per day..so i hv to carry all da heavy heavy thick thick bks..n i m gonna grow shorter mann..oredi i m so "tall"..haiz..n i hv to walk da dist frm cgs to red hill mrt..w dose bks..i wonder hw da sec 3s n sec 4s managed..esp da ones taking triple...anw, my subs r : bio, physics, chemistry, a maths, e maths, ss+geog elective, eng, htl, n tamil lit...anw, i hv a teacher like miss azinar..she is my form teacher n bio tchr..her name is miss fahizah...den i hv anthr teacher like mrs lim..she is my geog elective tchrs..den my chem tchr is da strictest...she wun teach but we r supposed to teach her, pretending tt she dsnt noe anth abt chem..it is actually a gd way to learn..as we learn more while we teach..

n my cca is choir..i m going fer my first choir prac tmr..n my class is sup to be da best class in da level..cuz it is da only tiple sci class...my class is 3E6.. n dere r 33 of us in it..so my sec 3 life has started..i shall werk hard n achieve wad i want..

oh..btw..i hv a classmate called qing xian..n anthr one called huey ying..i hv anthr classmate called FAlaha..n guess wad..i din noe tt a gal called peng ke existed in my pri sch in em1..nw she is my classmate sitting behind me..n she asked me if i knew meily frm cgs..den iw as like.."eh..u r frm clementi pri?" den she said yes....she said "i was in 6/6" 6/6 was da only em1 class..n i said "hey i was in 6/2" haha..so lame we din noe each othr despite being in da same sch..haha..no wonder da name sounded so familiar..

n i oso saw a gal called madeline..da name sounded v familar too..she was like "hey nivetha! hw cum u r in dis sch? remember me?" den i said "erm..sry i dun rem hu u r..but u look v familiar" den she said...she was in da same class as me in p3..only den i recognised her..she has changed so much mann...

okie..getting more n more busy dese days..so i might not b able to blog tt often or cum online tt often..mebbe i wld b gin online only during week ends..

so ppl..gd luck fer da yr ahead!

byee

2004-12-30T15:04:00.000+08:00

hey guys..

all dese days i cldnt blog..blogger had sum prob i guess..yep...had a nice tripl to malaysia..i went to penang, langkawi, melaka n kl...luckily da tsunami occurred da day aftr we left frm dere..we went to da coastal areas mann..i saw da ocean n was commenting tt it was so calm..n da nxt day it had proved me wrong..haiz..usually, da pacific ocean dsnt hv waves..if it was my fate to die dere, our trip wld hv bin extended fer anthr day...luckily we din get da train ticket fer da next day..if we had gotten, i wld hv bin swallowed by da tsunami...anw, let's hv a minute of silence fer da poor souls hu longed to live but cldnt..

SILENCE....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

k..dad's plannin to donate to da relief fund..

k..me transferring sch cuz kent ridge is offering me triple sci...n luckily da sch has no lit..haha..relieved! n nw i m in choir..k..n i guess my morale wld be boosted up..

wad's ur bloody prob if i transfer sch ah? it is my wish to do wad i wan..dun gimme tt kinda reaction..anw, u r nvr gonna obstruct my way anymore..i m glad u gt lost frm my sight...i wun b seeing u anymore...bloody hell...

kk..muz cool dwn..
k bye

2004-12-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

hie ppl!

firstly, i m gettin baq my collar pin as a memory! i was longing fer it n i m gonna get it..what my mum says is true..my will power is gd..whateva i long fer, i wld get it..mebbe i wasnt willing myself tt much to get into triple or stay in nc, possibly b cause i tot dere wld b an alternative, tho i wanted it as much as i wanted my collar pin...dunno what went wrong..k..no point crying over spilt milk..i will make sure da milk dsnt spill again...

secondly, me going malaysia fer anthr 5 days..so wun b blogging(duh)..haha..anw, i guess i m goin langkawi...den mebbe kl..might b visiting my old apartment block dere...in petaling jaya...n wld b recollecting sweet memories i had dere..might b visiting a few relatives dere too..yea..so..c ya soon ppl..me soo excited..gonna visit a place tt i erallie peacefully enjoyed in my childhood..it was a wonderful life dere, juz like da one in my home land..haha.yep..soo..happy hols anw ppl! or rather enjoy what is left of it..haha..okie..merry christmas n a happ new yr too!

wld be leaving at 8 pm todae i guess..goin by train..haha..k..byee

byee

2004-12-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

hie ppl..

had a fun tym during da week end..went to orchard to c da lightings..wsas marvellous mann..saw my childhood elderly frenz hu took care of me until 3 yrs old..haha..yea..n nth much la..n i dunno hw to delete dose stoopid messages saying "error" in my tagboard..cuz farz inserted da tag board fer me..n i dunno wad account she used..n summore she nt in town..she has gone to malaysia i guess..yea..so i can only delete dem aftr she cums baq..anw, me hving sore eyes, cough flu n sore throat..n i m trying to finish da stoopid hw..kk i gtg
bubbye..

2004-12-13T15:44:00.000+08:00

Hie ppl

first of all, sry fer nt bloggin all dese days as in my comp, blogger gt prob..dis entry was typed by me in ms word..so ya..

Recap:

Wednesday

Had part outing..at pasir ris park..hired bicycle fer 2 hrs n happily rode dem frm one end to da othr..fengy v cute la..she was touching practically everything on da shore..dead crabs n dead fish..haha..da water was heavily polluted..poor dead organisms..den dey played captain’s ball..i played one game as da captain..den dey played card games n I watched dem too..oggy v cute la..as blur as me..hehe..gd company..den ate our fills..ha a nice tym..thz a lot dear pltnmates fer organising such a nice outing n fer calling me to join in! hv a fun tym ahead…hehe..

Thursday

Went to sch to return nc uniforms..saw staff sam n went to her…sgt zur came to help too..dey collected my no.3 n no.4 uniform…den I asked if I shd return my collar pin..n dey said yes..i took off my soul, my life, my dedication, frm my collar n handed it over to dem..I CRIED! Tears juz rolled dwn…I felt like my soul was being sucked out of my body..when m I gonna wear da prestigious uniform again? Hw many girls r lucky enuff to wear tt uniform? Da pride I had in wearin my collar pin, was all gone frm me..all I hv nw is da small hole created in my sch uniform by my collar pin., n sweet n unforgettable memories frm nc…when m I gonna march again? When m I gonna sing “bang bang left foot..”, “purple light”, “arnd da bush”,”we r da members of da NCC”, “dwn by da river”? n many othr cheers? When m I gonna b part of water parade, saying da core values, nc pledge n nc song? When m I gonna do 5BX? When m I gonna shoot?when m I gonna b recognised as a CREZ NC cadet? When m I gonna be a guard of honour? When m I gonna b part of da team tt is gonna organise da quest? When m I gonna wear no.4 uniform n do cca recruitment? I felt it..da pain in my heart..i m half dead…being half dead is worse dan being dead u noe…

Den staff n sgt gave me a black piece of paper, w deir message in it..i consider it as a recognition fer my dedication n commitment as an nc cadet..thankyou staff n sgt! n I thank all othr snrs n specs once again! Da only thing I m satisfied w is tt I was a strongly committed and dedicated cadet of crez nc…although not so physically committed, mentally I was ready to do anth..all dese days, I was in nc, goin against my parents…n earning a bad name frm ppl tt I dun obey my parents..but I din care..nw I really cldnt manage w my leg, n da doc strongly advised me to quit nc…nw I m no more in nc…I hv given evry single thing tt sybolised tt I m frm nc..i dun like to wear my sch uniform oredi…looks so plain…my love, life, soul, heart, breath…everything has been taken away frm me…my honour as an nc cadet..my dignity as a person frm da best cca of da best sch..

Smth tt staff n sgt had written: character is like a tree n reputation like its shadow. Shadow is what we think of, but the tree is da real thing.

Such a nice philosophy n definition of character n reputation..den I went to da toilet n cried my hearts out…den wanted to c mrs khan to join chess club..heard tt she wasn’t dere…den I walk here walk dere, so pre-occupied…den I got lost in my own sch..i finally found my way out of da sch..i din hv da heart to go out at all…dere was a magnetic effect frm da nc rm tt was pulling me towards it…my uniform…I kept goin in tt direction..haiz..i m outta nc as a LANCECORPORAL…I hv lost all da respect..frm my jnrs…all da luv as a pltnmate..nw I m a third person to bravo 04..i m not part of it anymore…all da care n concern my snrs had fer me…I came hme n cried summore…my grand ma cried too, seeing me cry so much…she was also a teacher fer 40 yrs n was incharge of all da uniformed grps in her sch together w my late grand dad…so she was v proud of me when I told her I was in nc..nw all da pride has gone..my closely related aunt was in nc n passed out w da highest rank in india..n me? Outta nc juz lidat…

Haiz..

Signing off w a broken heart,
LCP Nivetha.

2004-12-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

alo ppl..

cldnt blog fer a few days cuz blogger got prob le.. anw, nth much dese few days la..juz starting to miss my classmates n a few other people..haiz..juz doin hw hw n more hw..hv 1 more news paper article, 1/2 a session's a.maths brid. course hw, d.maths hw, read a story, n phrase book entry..i m gettin bored at hme..haiz..sick of being pissed off by ppl, sick of being nagged at by ppl, sick of being scolded fer mistakes tt r not committed by me..sick of hvin headache every day..all in all, i m not enjoying my hols partly cuz of da bloody hw n by PPL's pissing off acts..

anw, my granny goin to india on 24 dec..she has bin here fer 11 mths...i m gonna miss her mann! she is da only person hu is supportive..ppl out dere hu hv deir granny w dem at hme or at accessible dist! attention pls! pls treasure ur grand parents n bear da v minor trouble if dey give u any..dey r da true trasure..my granny's gonna go baq to india..i will survive here w my sister..as sum of u might noe, managin my sis is a very hard thing to do..yeap..haiz..

k, i shall go nw..c ya soon..bubbye!

2004-11-29T11:00:00.000+08:00

Hie ppl

Friday

cldnt go fer nc cuz dad din allow..n so din go sch..aish helped me c what class I got in to..went to farz’s hse..had fun..

Saturday

My last ncc activity..haiz..had fun learning combat fighting..finish learning oredi…da only thing I m not satisfied is tt my othr nco, sgt Samantha, wasn’t dere..haiz..i m unofficially outta nc..official transfer of cca wld b in jan..i might join chess club or com club..i wanted lib budden dey say no more vacancy..hw ever it is very hard fer me to accept da fact tt I m not gonna b in nc anymore..n so I dunno if I wld b loyal to my new cca..well..i shd learn to be loyal…it wld take sum tym fer me to adapt to it...well..i wanted triple sci but I gt double..i wanted part b nco but I m not gonna b in nc anymore…I hv failed to achieve to impt goals…well, I m unfortunate enuff to taste da bitterness of failure..haiz..

My farewell messages to:

Snr ari n snr xiao yun:

Thankyou so much snrs! Fer letting me hv an experience of nc life..i m so much indebted to u snrs!

Snr su ngin n snr huey ying:

Both of u were wonderful part b ncos snrs! We were so fortunate to hv u as our ncos! My gratitude to u snrs!

Sgt zuraidah n sgt samantha:

In dese 3 mths, I realise u hv no choice but to b strict sgts…but u noe when to hv fun n when to b strict sgts! Tt’s smth gr8 sgts!thankyou sgts!

To all snrs n specs:

Thankyou very much fer guidin us thru! Da 3 restricted werds n strict sentences were said fer our own gd it did help us a lot to improve! Thankyou!

To my dearest platoon mates:
Treasure ur nc life as u all r very fortunate to b in nc..i m damn unfortunate as I m forced to quit nc by my health conditions n by my parents…I m sry fer all da trouble I caused..anw, dose misunderstandings helped us to bond more..anw, my behaviour was due to certain circumstances..haiz…no pt toking abt da past..anw, my apologies fer everything…whether I was wrong or not…anw, nw I m not gonna b in nc…so lesser trouble fer u all..anw, our pltn is gonna break da record as we hv da smallest strength..14 ppl…but pls dun let ppl underestimate u all b cuz of da strength..rpove to dem tt being da smallest pltn ever, u all can do much better dan many othr pltns w more strength…u can do it! All da best n hv a nice n adventurous tym ahead..gd luck fer getting ur desired ranks! 4 get me not “, gd bye!

Sunday

Went shoppin w mum n granny

Monday

Went to appeal fer 3C2..ppl wish me gd luck! hahaz..den was doin hw..

Tuesday

Hw hw n more hw

Wednesday

Did HW n now blogging…anw, I finished c’wealth essay n one newspaper article..n a maths course hw, hv one more session’s werk..da rest I hvnt touched..fer d maths, da worst thing is, I did all da sums in 2b maths bk b4 exam…I did it in rough bk n threw dem away..so I hv to do 2 sets of hw all ovr again…nvm..revision..hahaz..kk..gtg..bubbyee…

2004-11-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..

recap:

tuesday

went fer band concert...met aish at clementi mrt n den went to raffles..we din noe da way to vict. concert hall...we walk here walk dere den dunno hw to go..so i called amira n met her at raffles mrt..den she passed me her council uniform cuz mine was to small fer me..den we walk here walk dere n we got lost..gr8! den we called shermin n finally we were at da hall at 4.20...den went fer ushering briefing...den went to change in to uniform..den had dinner..den da concert began at 7.30 n we went to watch at 8, i guess...ya..gd performance...had an enjoyable time..except fer da stoopid shoes w such high heels...me nt used to wearing high heels... so had a hard tym walkin baq to raffles mrt..den we gt lost again cuz it was nite tym n we cldnt recognise da places...den met my mum at clementi mrt n she brought aish n myself to macs n bought us a burger each..so sweet! =) den came hme n bathed n den slept...

wednesday

went to sch to c ms tay..den brought grand ma along cuz she wanted to c my sch..den gave her a sch tour..hahaz. den came hme..she says me damn fortunate to study in cgs..hahaz.true..it was my dream school..hehe

thursday/todae

went w aish n isabel to watch bride n prejudice..not a bad movie..nt a gd movie..hahaz..ok la..aish felt tt it was a waste of money..but since i hv seen worse movies, it is ok..hahaz..it was more of a bollywood movie dan an english movie..but da hero was quite cute..n most of all, since my dear AISHWARYA RAI ji acted in it, da movie was excellent! hehe.dhanyavaadh aish n isabel fer accompanying me!

tmr, gonna go to sch fer nc n den c da class i m gettin in to nxt yr..den go n buy bks..den go to farzanah's hse fer hari raya gathering..

ok guys..gtg..bubbyee!

2004-11-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

yoz ppl!

me baq frm class chalet..first day, we had 7 of us sleepin over...me, kelly, fayanne, tess, lin yi fang, ai zhen n rui ling...tt day, we juz play card games..explore da shops...go food court, eat...den watch chinese shows den sleep..den second day, dere were 26 of us dere...squeezing into one room...hahaz..poor ai zhen n yi fang...ai zhen gt hurt by a piece of burning charcoal tt dropped on to her feet...take care aizhen!..den yi fang's toe nail cracked into two...poor thing...take care too yf! i was in frnt of da bbq pit fer 2 hrs, fannin, makin da fire stay...n sum tymz, when butter dropped into da fire, dere were huge flames...me n clarissa had to put it out...yea...den when fay was bathing, da mirror turned misty(obviously) n fay saw dis written on da mirror, "anme rox"...when none of us dere had written it...so most of us believed tt da chalet was haunted...den we were saying ghost stories n freaking ourselves out...hahaz...

den we were supposed to hv 16 of us sleeping ovr tt night..den end up, sum hadta go to sch da nxt day...so dey went...den sum believed tt da chalet was haunted...so dey went... sum othrs tot 16 ppl in 4 beds will b stuffy...so dey went...end up only 3 of us stayed lorh...hahaz..me, kel n fay..den da last day, we all me n fay woke up at 10.20...our form teacher had told us tt we had to check out by 12.00...so we dilly dally pack our stuff...den da attendant dere said tt we hadto check out by 10.30...wah lao eh..den we all hurry up pack evrything n when we were abt to leave, kel realised she had lost her walet..den we searched until it became 11.30...den we decided to go n report to da chalet's house keeping members...den we went to KFC to hv break-fast...only den did kel realise she had left her wallet dere at KFC da previous day...den we asked da ppl at da counter n finally kel found her wallet...hahaz...me happy fer her!

had a nice tym...den da day b4 deepavali, when i was lighting up fire crackers, i burnt my fingers lorh....wad happened was, i had 4 fire crackers on my left hand n one lighted one on da right...den dere was dis spark dat caused da middle of all da 4 fire crackers on my left hand...den da fire came back-wards n i cldnt drop dem dwn immediately...cuz i had a whole row of ppl standing in front of me...esp my sis...she was right in front of me..i din want her feet to get burnt...so b4 i cld turn behind n drop dem, my fingers gt burnt...n i celebrated deepavali in pain....cldnt put henna too...haiz...at least i gt harmed n nt my sis...if it was her, she wld hv suffered more...dere was sum one hvin an evil eye ovr my family...so da evil harmed me n it is ovr...not my sis...i m glad..

so nw my fingers hv two bubble like thingy...dey look filled w water n puss...hahaz..n i poss cant do anth w my left hand...nvm...

kk..gtg...bubbyee

2004-11-03T15:01:00.000+08:00

arghhh!

cant da sch b more caring n considerate? go n give us so much hw to do! i used to luv hw..but nw i totally lost interest in doin hw..haiz...lemme recap wad else i hv to do...

- arrange bk shelf
- repair tube light
- repair head phone
- arrange wardrobe
- finish a maths bridgin course hw
- finish da stoopid long list of eng n lit hw which oso consists of
* at least 50 new words/expression fer each category in da phrase bk...which is approx 250 words altogether
* 10 newspaper articles
* muz read non-fiction bks to tok abt next yr
* type out da c'wealth competition essay
* one more i cant rem..
- den muz finish a whole list of d.maths hw (i dunno where is my list...die liaoz)
- clean hse fer deepavali
- pack bag fer class chalet
- improve no.4 uniform's standard fer ifc test (i din go last sat, was sick)
- give letter to ncos fer absence on saturday
- my own hw
- werk given by my parents
- do deepavali shopping
- help prepare deepavali sweets n savouries

ok...i think tt's it..haiz..my goodness lorh..CAN I HV 48 HRS PER DAY PLS!?!?!??!?!?!?!?! hw to finish dese lorh..n hw many days of hols wld i b free lorh...on da average, one maths sum wld take at least 10 mins to b solved...cuz a maths seems more advanced...n da a maths bk has abt 40 pages w 4 sums per page...so approx 160 sums...n tym is 160 * 10 = 1600 mins = 27 hrs haiz..den one news paper article takes at least 30 mins...10 will take 10 * 30 = 300 mins = 5 hrs... den arranging bk shelf wld take 5 hrs... den arranging my wardrobe wld take 3 hrs... packing bag will b abt 30 mins..den no.4 uniform will be 3 hrs.. cleaning hse wld take 3 hrs...deepavali shopping mebbe 3 hrs...preparation of sweets n savouries wld b anthr 3 hrs... meddling w my tubelight wld take up anthr 30 mins... typing out essay-anthr 30 mins...reading non-fiction bk w min 150 pages wld take me at least 15 hrs (so boring)... d.maths hw is abt 5 ex. each ex is abt 30 sums...n one sum may take 10 mins oso...so 10 * 30 * 5 = 1500 mins = 25 hrs... altogether... n den da phrase bks is 250 entries...finding out one werd frm story bk may take 10 mins... 250 entries, writing dem dwn , may take 250 * 10 + 15 = 2515 mins = 42 hrs... 27 + 5 + 5 + 3 + 1/2 + 3 + 3 + 3 + 3 + 1/2 + 1/2 + 15 + 25 + 42 = 93 1/2 + 42 hrs = 135 1/2 hrs ...n obviously i cant b doin werk all da tym..i needta sleep, rest, enjoy, relax...ya...136 hrs is abt 6 days... n aftr all dese extra relaxations i may finish den in 2 weeks...wah lao eh...den summore gt dad's hw n my own hw which wld b 5 hrs per day...haiz...

kk...v tired aftr all da calculations...bubbyee...

2004-11-02T15:33:00.000+08:00

aloo ppl...

hvin a mths bridgin course fer da past 2 days..n it is until 4 nov..den got class chalet frm 8 2 10 nov..i told dem i can go n i hv paid...budden i may hv to stay at hme at da last min..cuz of smth...so i still nt sure if i m going...haiz..anw, da bridgin course is fun...doin maths is fun wad...tt's y..so interestin useing da "complete da sq" n "formula" method to solve an equation such as ax sq + bx + c = 0...n da formula is, if i'm nt wrong.... ( - b (+ or -)route of b sq - 4ac ) divided by 2a...okay..ya...den wad else...oh..my malaysia trip is either on 20 nov or 24 nov or 25 nov or 26 nov...my dad still plannin accordin to his schedule...den i dunno when we will be baq.

den da rest of da tym muz stay at hme, read finish da harry potter fifth bk...den muz help clean da hse...den muz arrange my wardrobe which is like sooo messy? ya...once u open da door, u wld b drowned by a pool of clothes...i m not a disorganised person...but sum hw, my wardrobe n my bk shelf get messed up...mebbe cuz i was busy w exams... but othr wise, i hate da sight of all dese untidy stuff...ooh...tt reminds me..i muz clean my bk shelf...den da tube-light fixed to my bk shelf is nt werking...muz check tt...den muz clear away all my extra papers in my shelf...den muz arrange my sec 2 bks into da card-board box in which i hv my bks frm P5...den my water my plant... hmm... lemme think..wad else?ooh...den muz repair my comp's head phone..me unable to listen to songs cuz of tt...haiz..err...den..muz update my port folio.. den..ya..l8r muz pack fer class chalet.....yeah...i think tt's it..

ok..bubbyee

2004-11-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE B'DAE AISHWARYA RAI JI!
pranaam didi!

i hv bin admiring aish ji since i was in primary two...she is so glamourous...mann...n i cant believe she is 31(if i m not wrong) soo fast mann... mujhe tumse pyAr hai...mai kamI ThIka tumhe. hv an unforgettable n memorable b dae ji...wen u get married, i shall tell ur partner tt he is blardie lucky n he shd tc of u vvvv well...okaes...in my happiness, i realli dunno watta sae...mai nahi malum..(hope all my hindi phrases r rite..long tym since i spoke hindi..)

n my new idol...shahrukh ji...advance HAPPIE B'DAE! hahaz...me nt as crazy ovr u as i m ovr aishu ji...anw, ya..hv a wonderful b'dae...heard frm sum one tt u gonna celebrate ur b'dae fer one week..hv a nice tym hope u r fine..n i juz sorta liked u frm da tym when i was in primary 6...n i guess u r juz 2 yrs older dan my dad...hahaz...born in 1965...n my dad born in 1963...hahaz...okies..

bubbyee...

2004-10-29T15:10:00.000+08:00

hie..

officially sch ovr todae....so sad..hui min leavin liaoz...i miss my class so fast mann...i cldnt tahan when last week i nvr c dem fer 1 whole week...cuz of council camp, mc, n da wk shop...haiz...altho can c dem nxt yr, not da same la...i miss dem sooo much mann! ok...ifc test post poned liaoz...tmr..muz go n improve on da standard of my uniform...ok..gtg
bubbyee...

2004-10-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

alo...

todae...took charge of house-cleaning...den played my bharathanatyam dance performance n mentally revised my steps n moves...wah lao...i felt so tempted to dance n so i tried to dance fer abt 5 mins...den my knee n ankle started to ache...haiz...i m unfortunate...unlucky...tt's all i noe...i m forced to stop practising my dance tt is equal to my breath...haiz...I WANT TO DANCE!!!!!!haiz...

l8r muz prepare no 4 uniform...i dunno hw i m gonna do ifc tmr..allergic to grass liaoz...den hv to start doin maths hol hw...den muz do finish dad's hw, a compre passage taken frm newspaper...haiz...den my search fer my medical records...den muz record my council port folio...wad else arh...oh ya..l8r aftr parents cum hme, muz get sign in report bk, consent form n da option form...

anw, yest gotta chat w sum one hu i had wanted to chat w, fer ages...so happie! hahaaz....tt person oso v happie to chat w me liaoz...

btw, dunno if i said here earlier...me plannin to take physics, chemistry, english, A maths, D maths, social studies+literature elective, geography, higher tamil....yea...hahaz...

ok...gtg
bubbyee

2004-10-27T17:27:00.000+08:00

hi ppl....sry cldnt blog cuz was dwn w fever flu cough sorethroat n head ache.... oh yea...council camp was fun...evry thing was fun...except fer my stoopid leg n my flu...n sum n mon i was sick...mon was on mc n tues hadta go fer a clean n green env werkshop which mrs neo put me dwn fer...me nicole n lynette went...had a nice tym...was quite useful anw...n we hv to do a 40 min presentation to da whole sch next yr can? haiz....den...todae went to sch...rot in class...got report bks...den ya...nth much la..i v lazy to type la...ok...bubbyee

2004-10-19T17:40:00.000+08:00

kanavenbathu kaRpanaiyalla
kaRpanaiyenbathu kanavalla

kanavu kaRpanaiyaanathu
poi meiyyaanathu
aasai niraasaiyaanathu

manampol vaazha ninaithaen
vithipol vaazha veNdum
angeegaaram pera virumbinaen
niraagarikkappattuvittaen

veRRiyadaiya ninaithaen
tholviyuRRu thalak kuninthaen
madhippu pera virumbinaen
dhuchchamaagak karuthappadugiraen

pukazh pera virumbinaen, igazhap padukiraen
iRaivanai nambinaen, nambavaithu kazhuthaRuthaan
vaazhkkai eduthukkaattaaga virumbinaen
aanaal, keLvikkuRiyaakivittathu

aasigaLenna, vaazhthukkaLenna
neramenna, muyaRchiyenna
uzhaipputhaan enna

tholvi tholviyae
avamaanam avamaanamae
manavaRutham aaRaathae
thalaikkunivu needikkumae

iRaivanengae?
karuNaiyengae?
irakkamengae?
theriyavillai...

sabathameduppaen
veRRi peRuvaen
pukazh peRuvaen
mathippu peRuvaen

vaNangamaattaen iraivanai
thodamaattaen avanai
saathithapin poojippaenae
illaiyenin karuthuvaenae
iraiyenbavan kallae...

-nivy-

2004-10-18T20:05:00.000+08:00

arlowz.....

a lotta say..wed saw day aftr tmr...da movie was nice la..den thurs had movie called quill..quite nice oso la...den fri i was da sec 2 co-ordinator...i was supposed to see if da charades (sec 2 post exam activity) was goin on smoothly n i was supposed to collect all da scoresheets..so morning 8.30 to 9.30 am, was rottin in da fitness corner..den 9.30 to 10.00 was hvin recess..den 10.00 to 11.00, i was rottin in da study pavillion..den ms tay saw me rottin, den asked me to go fer a patrol w her..so i went, we caught a grp of 4 ppl not doin deir werk n were playing basketball...so ms tay asked me to bk dem..n i did so...den i had a nice chat w ms tay n ms lim...i dinnoe ms lim was frm NCC! yea...den collected da scores n den went to da hall to give ms tay...den came hme..eh..i dunno leh..i think had nc liaoz...i think i went fer nc..i cant rem..went to temple n den attended a traditional musical concert...darn nice mann!

den sat went fer ncc...mum came w me..den she toked to mr chan, mrs lee, my ncos...n dunno hw many othr ppl she tok to mann...den mr chan asked me to go hme...so i came hme...den aftr noon, i went to a hse fer pooja..da dasserah, 10 days festivals...north indians call it durga pooja..so i went to my mum's fren'z hse..sang a few songs...dey praised my voice...said it wasnt nasal at all..dey said i was so blssed to hv naturally nice voice for indian carnatic music... my voice may not suit othr type of songs...but it only suits indian traditional music.

den came hme n prep fer sundae...spent tym w family... todae went to sch.. stoopid la...dey gave a comp to do even aftr exam, fer commonwealth competition...i went out of class to hv sum inspiration to write da compo...den i saw so many ppl doin stuff tt pissed me off...lost my inspiration to write liaoz...den went baq to class n rotted...finally finished my compo...last thing to piss me off was da news tt dey weren't givin us our papers todae...wah lao eh...den had nc aftr sch...did arm drills...quite fun la...den toked w ncos...

hw dare dey lose respect...we shall werk together to gain baq our respect...hw can one second lose respect one? we earned it so hard...we shall gain it baq...UNITY IS STRENGTH! BRAVO! veryhard to earn a gd name n respect...but it juz takes a second to lose all tt u hv earned...lesson learnt...we shall build it up! i shall do my best n contribute as much as i can! we can do it BRAVO!

okies...gtg n prepare no 3 uniform n show ncos tmr..so, bubbyee...

2004-10-13T21:01:00.000+08:00

arlowz....

too many shocks n surprises, pleasant n unpleasant n confusin, todae... saw mum when returnin frm htl centre..saw dad in da mrt...saw sgt zel at da interchange...den went to tuition, last class i wld b goin fer dis yr....had a shock cum surprise dere...den, cum hme, was tokin to aish ovr da phone n den end up steppin on a diseased lizard....n i din realise it until my grandma stopped me frm tokin n told me...den i jumped up n dwn in disgust...i was squirmin so uncomfortably....i nvr even purposely killed an ant n i had stepped on a LIZARD!!!!! yeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wah lao eh..too much stuff until tk boleh tahan sia...haiz..haiz...haiz...

however, i m clear in my decisions to a few of dese shocks n surprises....in other werds, i m confused but clear...haiz..juz felt lyk pourin out a bit of stuff here...n i hv done so...so nw i m goin..

gd bye..

2004-10-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

hi ppl...

anw forgotta tell y'all...fridae went to aish's hse to watch movie, w isabel, ginette, farz, kairiya, eunice n of cuz aish....we watched exorcist..not as scary as i expected it to b...i think da village was much better...budden it was still a bit scary la..me n eunice were grippin each other's hand in fright n coverin our eyes n ears w pillows...budden da village was worse la...i cried out of fright cuz it was my first tym watchin horror movie...budden..i mean..dere was no story, but da creature was quite scary...but exorcist was so fake...da make-up n da settin & atmosphere was not tt freaky tho it was a bit...

aftr exorcist, we all watched A Walk To Remember... it wasnt tt bad la..n i juz nw did a foolish thin...i wanted to take a bottle of ice water frm da fridge..den i accidentally spilt a whole box of rice-flour...i had a hard tym cleanin it up mann...

anw, i dunno y, last nite i had a dream...it was science exam da next day..i was readn my science text book on da chapter of atoms n molecules..den i was practisin da calculations on voltage, current, power n resistance...den i went mad aftr practisin evrything...

i oso dunno y it seems like it has bin ages since exams hv bin over when it has bin only 4 days...anw, i m still anxious fer my results..nah..nvm...lemme enjoy fer a few days..i hv bin doin nothin but watchin movies n readin harry potter's fifth bk which i had left unread fer da hols...anw, i hv gotten a new fren..a potted flowerin plant...i hv bin tokin to it fer hrs like a lunatic person...but i luv tokin to plants...i mean even plants need love, care n concern...hahaz...i noe it is lame..but i believe in it...yeah..

n tml muz go n check htl papers...i muz rem to return mua library bk..it has bin ages since my htl class borrowed it..but i guess none of 'em hv returned it...dey said da papers wun b shown to dose hu hvnt returned deir lib bk..

gtg liaoz...
byee.

2004-10-08T18:05:00.000+08:00

hey guys! looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong tym nooo c! no tok! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaz

i m goin crazy mann! free frm EXAMS! anw....i met my pri sch fren hui qiong... she reminds me of hwee boon...she lks exactly like her lorh...da cheeks, da way she walks, toks, ht....all da same...juzz tt she has long her..she will look like hb hvin long hair...yarh...

anw, i m so bored...so sad cant go fer nc tmr..muz go out w parents n spend tym w dem...anw in a way it is gd la....cuz i nvr tok to dem fer a long tym...i feel as if i m lost...dunno wad's happenin at hmw...nvr c my parenst fer a long tym...had bin concentratin on studies...n EXAM...since nw it is ovr..i can go out w dem..

yarh...i dunno wad else to sae leh....okies...c y all l8r...byee

2004-09-24T18:23:00.000+08:00

alo...

long tym nvr blog..one outta 7 days of exams has bin ovr..a lot of things hv bin happening..but too lazy n v long to write here..anw i din noe mrs gam had such a sad side of her life..i pity her..all her temper n tantrums r forgiven..it is resonable fer her to have dun so la..i can understand hw hard it is..i m glad she dsnt torture othr classes n takes rites w us n shows all her temper on us..nvm...let her b tt way...i shall b nice to leave her to let out her anger, sadness n frustration on us..i shall tolerate dem..

eng exam is dun w..compre was horrible...summary was equally horrendous.. haiz..but compo n report i think i hv dun much better dan da othr tests n exams...haiyoah..i feel so stressed! i hv revised all my othr subs like 5 tymz?! n i hv bin revisin regularly evrydae..n i still dun feel confident lorh! wo pu zhi tau! i dunno! i really really dunno watta sae leh...haiz..

nvm..i got no mood to blog oredi..so sian..i feel so useless...juz rottin dwn here..no mood to study oso...n last nite was practisin writin essays until 11 n had dinner at 11.15 pm..den practised a bit more n read up sum vocab phrases..den went to bed at 12...den until one i cldnt sleep...so i came back out of da rm n set up my study table to study again...i studied until 4.30 am... altogether, i wld hv written abt 10 dif types of essays n wld hv read up 2 bks of gd phrases...still din feel sleepy...den forced myself to sleep as tt day was examination day...den slept frm 4.30 to 5.30 am...n den got ready fer school..until nw, hv bin surviving w 1 hr of sleep..haiz....dunno hw many more days i will hv to suffer frm temporary insomnia..mebbe until exams r ovr..but i dun think i can sleep aftr tt cuz i will b worried abt my results...haiz..

ok..nivy relax....dun b so stressed n tensed up..evry one goes thru da same thing as u do.. dun think too much n dun wry too much..leave evrything to god...can get wad u want..b confident...mebbe revise evrything 2 more tymz.. practise doin more exercises...practise makes perfect...hv determination to make a few ppl lose face n get gd results..when dere is a will, dere is a way... n dun always think u wld do badly...expect da unexpected..u can do it! JIA YOU NIVY!

2004-09-18T12:35:00.000+08:00

alo..

at hme..resting..in one of my subdued moments..still feeling da same...i juz measured temp n it is 37.8...cough n sorethroat gettin worse..my sis watchin da video of my family, taken in 2001...mann i tell ya i'll cherish tt every moment mann...was hvin a peaceful life..altho had exam stress n i was in P5 since it was my first year of singapore studies...it was hardta catch up w da syllabus.. budden compared to da stress rite nw, tt one was much better n bearable..my family was close-knitted...ok..correction..it is still close-knitted..juz tt i dun spend much tym w dem i i feel so lost..

when i cum hme, i either study or do hw n projects...den i eat n den i go to sleep...n summore my dad has taken up a course n he is doin part-time..da rest of da day, he will b in his office..he cumz hme da earliest is 11 pm..my mum is doin full time PhD, research on west nile virus n she oso cumz hme at 10.30 only...by tt tym i will b very sleepy n i will b gettin ready to go to bed..

when i was in P5 i can afford to be awake until 12+ in da midnight oso...cuz my sch was aftrnoon session...nw i cant afford to b awake so late(altho sum of my werk drags my tym n keeps me awake until 12+, 1+)cuz hv to wake up at 5 am...haiz..n tt tym, i was so petted n pampered, so innocent n i was not exposed to the outside of my hse...so did not noe abt da unreasonable side of da werl...at tt tym , my werl was only my family...nw i m more exposed to da werl...n at dis tym, my parents r not free...

hw i wish i was in india....hvin da peaceful life...a routine life..everyday wake up at 7 am..den play skippin fer 30 mins..den rest fer 5 mins den go n bathe..cum outta da rest rm aftr 20 mins..den get dressed in my sch uniform, eat n den leave fer sch at 8.30 am...sch starts at 9 am..sch is a 2 minute walk frm hme..can c my sch frm my terrace...it shares our compound wall..juz tt we hv to go aroung the wall n dere is my school...

den aftrnoon cum hme fer lunch...lunch break is fer 45 mins...othr pupils will bring food frm hme to sch to hv lunch dere...den go baq to sch n return hme at 5 pm..den evy alt days got dance class n da remaning days got music class...so cum hme, hv a bath den change in to my dance uniform n go fer dance class which is 5 min walk frm my hse..class is fer 2 hrs...den cum hme at 8+ den bathe again...den start doin my hw frm 8.30 pm...n it will last me until 10 pm...den i watch tv until 10.30 n den sleep...it is da same when i hv music class...my grandma or one of our maids will bring me to da class n dey will either wait dere or cum hme n cum baq to pick me up...

n summore had v little stress dere as i will mostly b da 1st or 2nd in my class...n da rule in my sch is tt da person hu gets 1st in class will b da class leader(wat u call chairperson here)n dey will b given two badges, "First Rank" and "Class Leader"...n da person hu gets second will b da class' assistant leader(wad u all vice chair person here) n will b given a badge "Second Rank"...n da one hu usually competes w me will b a girl called Ranjini...she will foreva treat me as her 'enemy' n i will do so too...she was my only rival dere...

haiz...baq to reality..past is past...present is present...fate is fate..not say i dun like to live in s'pore...juz tt dere is too much stress here...if dere is da same amt of stress as much as in india..mann...dis will b my gr8est part of my life...haiz...enough of flash baq..

2004-09-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

at hme..temp is abt 37.8 degree celsius..now...i juz dun understand y ppl cant accept me as i m n dey expect to b perfect..dey r not perfect n dey think wad, dey hv da guts to argue w me..i can juz feel my head ache n temp rising...pls get dis in to ur brains tt u r not perfect..u jolly well stop criticisin me..u r not fit to criticise me..u look at urslef first b4 commentin abt others...juz cuz dere r 15 of dem hu support u, n a few more, it dsnt mean tt u r perfect...n u urself agreed tt 15 of dem say i shd change...but u dunno hw many others r happy w me as i m..dey r called true frenz..

anw, as i hv said, my parents luv me nw, my sis is tailin behind me all da tym, my grandma and all my relatives r v compassionate towards me..n dey hv many dreams abt me...so i dun care wad u all say, i will b like dis n not change anymore..i cant change my wholeself juz fer da sake of 15 ppl...my character got prob den it is my own prob la..i noe i ask u all...u all juz ans tt n juz shut up n not a word more dan dat, juz like hw u all expect me to b(shuttin up n listening to ppl is wad u all call not being defensive...hidin all ur health probs, not makin dem obvious n spoilin ur health is wad u all call endurance..ok la mebbe u all r born fit, i m not...it is in my genes n i cant change my genes...)so i wanna make my relatives' dreams cum true..n my attitude n character is accepted by dem...so i m not gonna concentrate in all dese useless things anymore..i realise i hv wasted a lotta tym in dis useless thing...i cld hv dun much better things...dis is nvr gonna help me as much as my studies help me in my future life...n i dun think many of u r gonna stay w me thruout my entire life...i bet u all give an excuse tt my character is bad n u all will juz forget me aftr 2 or 3 yrs aftr sec 4...

n anw, i dun think i will b stayin in singapore thruout my whole life...so..y bother? well..u all can juz waste ur tym criticisin me n finding faults w me when i finish askin u all abt my probs a long tym b4...n u all can juz ignore me or forget it...i will juz b hurt..but d u all care abt it? NO..so y shd i care when u all dun care abt my own feelings?

dere is a sayin in tamil nalla maattukku oru soodo, nalla peNNirku oru vaarthai..

it means tt a cow will start pullin a cart aftr bein beaten once...in da same way, a girl shd noe tt she is beyond her limits aftr being told once...

i noe i m not at fault..my gd frenz n relatives noe tt too...u all can call me wadeva u want..but all dese sins is nvr gonna let u all...nvm, i shant say...so far, all dose hu hv given me troubs hv nvr bin in a gd position...pls dun get urselves into deep shit...if u still wanna continue n prove urself to b worse dan a cow, u can carry on by all means..tt's all i can say

2004-09-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

alo..

in comp lab hvin cs again..not feeling well..hving fever cough n i lost my voice too...still deciding if must go fer htl or not..haiz..fer da past 3 or 4 days, i hv bin surviving with only 2,3 and 4 hrs of sleep lorh...very hardta concentrate in class...but i got no choice wad..hadta do the sana practical assignments, den had hist hw, den sci theory bk, den tamil hol hw which was to write a 10 weeks' journal entry..the teacher so ridiculous lorh..outta nth ask us to pass up our non-existent journal bk..we din even noe we had to hv one..den he say it is da htl centre's hand book..n he said, "i want 10 week's entries in it"...wad is dis lorh...so hadta do tt...den my parent's hw fer me, my tuition hw, den my own personal assignments...wah lao eh..so end up todae fever cough n sore throat...i m so loaded up w werk lorh...cant teachers understand that we have exams approachin n we hv to study? cant dey juz stop loadin hw like dis on us? y r dey so heartless?haiz..if dey think that we will only study if we do hw, not all of dem r lidat..dere r people hu study on top of deir hw...haiyoz...when r dey gonna understand? i oso dunno..

heard frm apurva that those takin htl will hv to take normal tamil durin our free periods nxt yr...haiz...so pointless..mebbe it is cuz we r takin our mtl o level nxt yr..

n forgotta tell u all guys that i m on mc fer 2 mths, August 24 to october 24...haiz...hopeless mann...

gtg rite nw..
i think i m not gonna go fer htl..
i m gettin worse..
bubbye..

2004-09-13T19:20:00.000+08:00

alo..

my comp is baq..i m glad it wasnt at hme during the hols...if it was, i wldnt hv managed to finish my hol werk n part of revision..i wld hv spent my tym in frnt of da comp..hahaz..no la...even if it had bin at hme, i wld still do my werk, juz tt i wld hv a bit of difficulty restrictin myself..hahaz..

anw, sana corse wasnt as interestin n fun as i tot it wld b, frm wad i heard frm ppl...dey said it was fun...have so many prac assignments to do...so hard to get da badge man..early morning, first sight i c on da first day of da first week of da last term of my second yr of secondary school...(so long-winded), was foot prints on my table...i was so pissed off lorh...den i went to da toilet to get tissue to wipe those off...haiz...dunno if it was done purposely or accidentally..nah..hu cares..

ms neo asked fer da gal w da longest hair in my class to ans one of her qns...most of my classmates said my name while sum of dem said jazlyn's name...den ms neo asked me to stand up..hahaz...i m so honoured to hv da longest hair in my class...i guess snr atiqah has da longest hair in da whole school...wow! tt's gr8 mann! hahaz..

anw, preparin fer exams...feelin so stressful..todae stayed baq in sch to do werk...i used to lurve homewerks...nw i m juz startin to hate dem lorh...teachers juz load hw lorh...many diff subs n less quantity, i dun mind..cuz got variety...but hw dey load is like many subs n all hv long long essays to write lorh...i think sec one hist was much better...but sec one geog was horrible fer me...sec two history is horrendous but geog is excellent..i think i m changin my mind n gonna opt fer geog nxt yr...i dunno leh...haiz....all in god's hands...

bubbye..

2004-09-03T13:25:00.000+08:00

wth man! u all think wad arh..one person say dis anthr person say smth else n ask me to listen to dem..hu u wan me to listen to? listen..u better gimme da blardie respect fer me..juz like hw i respect u, dun scream at u, dun get pissed off w u or dun tok bad abt u behind ur baq..u better dun do all dis..mind u, i can b worse dan wad i m rite nw..i can behave worse, tok worse n do worse things dan i m doin rite nw..n i m oso a short-tempered person..i m not ur servant maid or a slave to u fer u to order me arnd.. even a servant maid shd b treated w respect..n hu gave u da permission n authority to order me arnd? r u my boss or smth? even if i hv such a boss, i will quit my job i tell u..u jolly well gimme my due respect as ur fellow sch mate/batch mate..nw i really cant b bothered if u hate me, like me or wadeva bull shit! juz gimme my blardie respect...i nvr harmed u.. my acts usually dun harm anyone..most to most i will juz grumble to myself, be sad fer a while, den console myself, or pour out all my anger by tokin to sum one, n forget it..ur insults r all so unprovoked..i nvr tok bad abt u behind ur baq, cuz i directly tell u wad i dun like abt u..u jolly well tell me directly n dun gossip abt me behind my baq..if u cant tell me directly, better juz shut ur blardie mouth n keep dem to urself..i dun wan u to go arnd, sayin bad things abt me n influencin othrs to b against me..n dose ppl hu listen to her, pls have sum common sense n a mind of ur own n think twice before thinkin tt wad she says is true.. n i wun hesitate to apologise if i noe i m at fault..if i dun realise, u can cum n tell me. i give u da privilege to cum n tell me directly..but make sure u say it in a polite way n dun juz start yellin at me..i hv nvr screamed at u..n i m sry fer screamin at u rite nw..but juz remember tt dere is a limit to evry thing, n u r beyond ur limits rite nw..u better go baq to ur limits n not beyond it any more..if i find tt u r beyond ur boundary again..i can tell u tt u r gonna get it..not frm me dun wry..i still respect u..cuz i hv no rites to not respect as i m a person hu believes tt god is inside evry one n evry single soul on earth has to b respected..even animals n horrible creatures..tt's y i apologised fer my use of 'blardie' n fer my tone..n u better learn hw to b humble n understand othrs..dun juz roam arnd like a lunatic..

u hv to win urself in order to b fit to compete w others in da semi- finals of da competition called life..muz learn hw to control ur anger n emotions..dun juz scream at ppl fer no reason n get pissed of w dem..learn hw not to b jealous..n learn hw to understand others, deir emotions, deir health n deir physical abilities..dun any hw accuse ppl of doin things..dun suspect or lk dwn on othrs w out noein tt dey hv strong proofs..evry one is equal on dis earth..even a poor person hu is earnin money by singing n entertaining us at da mrt stations n othr public places, may hv othr inner talents, even tho dey r visually impaired or w any othr disabilities..we still hv to respect dem..learn hw to b generous..all in all, behave like a girl, a mature girl..b a perfectionist..NOTE: A PERFECTIONIST IS NOT A PERSON WHO IS PERFECT BUT WHO WANTS EVERY THING TO BE PERFECT... dun get me wrong..i m not sayin tt i hv all dese qualities..but i hv realised tt i lack sum of dese qualities n i m werkin on dem to improve..n i m askin u to realise tt u lack sum of dese..n TRY to change, like me...even if da change is not obvious, i will still count it as u at least tried n i wun torture u mentally..(like sum others)

okay..sry ppl..cool dwn nivy..y r u screamin like dis? wad happened to ur timidness n a little patience? cool dwn..relax..forgive n forget..ok..let's change topic..

sch was as usually stressful..had aad, orienteerin..got othr things..but as u all noe, i m surffering frm short-term memory..so i dunno wad else happened..haiz..dad plannin to change comp at hme..rite nw in comp lab hvin cs again..

anw, yest had arm-drills practice..my ankle is much more swollen dan usual..n i m havin muscle aches all ovr my body..i reached home yest at 6.00pm..washed my face, too tired to even eat, budden managed to finish eatin..den went to da sofa n slept..aftr 30 mins, my grandma woke me up to go n bathe..den i did as i was told to do so..den came baq n went baq to da sofa again..was plannin on wadta study..den watched tv as it was on n my sis was watchin it..den i watch until i fell asleep..den 11.00 my grandma asked me to go to our bed..den i sleepily went dere n slept again..i only woke up dis morning 5.30..haiz..nw i feel so guilty fer not studying yest..

dis morning i was so sleepy when i went fer morning assembly.. i was juz mechanically movin frm place to place..den dey had oratorical contest..i usually will b very interested in it..but todae, it juz made me feel more sleepy..went fer sci n nth enetered my head, wadeva mrs goh said..she was explainin abt smth all da while n aftr she finished, i asked her da same qn abt wad she was explaining..i was so maluated..haiyoahz...anw, by recess i was alrite..

anw, BELATED HAPPY B'DAE DIANA(27 AUG) N DEAR JIE JIE SABRINA(2 SEP)!

tmr hv CIP n den hv nc..hope i dun hv muscle ache again..
ok..
bubbye..

2004-08-27T13:28:00.000+08:00

alo ppl...

in comp lab rite nw..hvin cs lesson..

long tym nvr blog liaoz..comp spoilt n infected w sum sorta virus..n sum one said tt i m like a drug addict lidat..addicted to da comp..well i make sure i prove dem wrong..dey think i cant live w out comp..well i can..juz tt nw i got nth better to do..

got baq common test results fer maths, sci n d&t..well...i hv dun better n sci n maths relatively as da sci paper was tough..in sci, i got more dan wad i expected but of cuz not satisfied larh..maths was expected..d&t was more dan expected..al in all i hv a bit pof improvement larh..i shd werk harder.. last sat, cuz of my stoopid ankle, i cldnt finish running da orienteerin lorh..i cld hv if sgt paula n sgt sin hui nvr saw me... i wld hv walked, jogged n ran if dey hadnt stopped me..budden my ankle got swollen like xiao when i went baq hme..

dis is a tamil saying:
kaNNinRu kaNNaRa sollinum sollaRka
munninRu pinnokkaa sol..

dere is oso anthr one:
theeyinaal sutta puNNum aaRum - aaRaathu
naavinaal sutta vadu..

da first one means tt u shd tell a person directly abt deir mistakes rather dan tok bad behind deir baqs..da second one means tt even a burn caused by fire may heal in a few yrs, but a burn caused in da heart by words will nvr heal..

so one shd combine dese two together n tell a person abt deir mistakes directly to dem in a polite n unoffending way..n not tok bad abt dem b hind deir baqs..

sum one dun wanna b lieve me rite? well u wld if u hv experience..n pls say it in frnt of me dan tok bad abt me b hind my baq..u hv no rites to do so..u r da one causin all sorta trob n influencin evry one..all cuz of me..if not fer u, evry one wld b ok w me..u r da only one against me n goin arnd influencin ppl..well, listen, i m not ur maid fer u to yell at..even if u hv a maid, u hv to respect her as she is doin werk fer u..n it is v cowardly to go n influence ppl n turn dem against me..u might as well cum n argue w me directly..others may not realise tt u r influencin dem..but u shd noe tt..n i noe tt.. n if u have any personal grudge w me, cum n tok to me directly..n u dun do evrything, pretend u dunno anth n in frnt of others, act v nice to me hor.. ppl hu u r afraid of n hu u r actin in frnt of noe tt u r juz acting..frm now onwards, u can expect me to tok baq to u when u offend me..i m not gonna shut up, listen n keep it to myself..geddit clear..

anw, dis is da lyrics of a song i noe..budden i hv changed dem a bit to suit.......
BRAVO 04!

The star of our future is shining bright
Let us move hand in hand towards that light
We will nurture our talents, develop our minds
As we journey onwards and keep pace with time.

Arise Bravo 04 stand up and walk tall
Be bold in our purpose, be truthful to all
Striving to excel, giving of our best
Never fear or falter when we're put to the test.

In our work and play we'll help one another
For we belong to one platoon in Crescent NCC
So strengthen our bonds, be united as one
And make Bravo 04 second to none.

Arise Bravo 04 stand up and walk tall
Be bold in our purpose, be truthful to all
Striving to excel, giving of our best
Never fear or falter when we're put to the test.

UNITY IS STRENGTH BRAVO 04!

c u all soon..
bubbye...

2004-08-20T13:10:00.000+08:00

hie..

in comp lab rite nw...cs lesson...

BELATED HAP BIRTHDAY HWEE BOON!(aug 10)
sry fer da delay in my wishes cuz i din getta blog...

got a few things to sae..

firstly, i watched india's independance day parade! dey telecasted it in da sun tv fer abt 15 mins...wah lao eh...da commandos juz rawk man! so satt n garang! dis is da first tym i m watchin india's national day parade mah..tt's y i m so damn excited...

secondly, so sweet of my dad rite? he got me a lotta clothes on wednesdae...he was waiting fer me outside da tuition centre..den he said muz go n get good quality jeans, pants, shirts n t-shirts... den we first went to 'Event Hall' in ginza plaza to buy normal pants n t-shirt...den when we were abt to go home, we saw dis shop 'Ohlaho'..den we juz went in to hv an idea of clothes dere n den we ended up spendin like n a half hrs dere...we bought a jeans fer my sis n mum each..n my mum bought anthr shirt fer herself..n den i got 1 3/4 jeans(was persuaded by my mum to b more modern n wear 3/4 pants, i preferred full pants), one full pants(jeans), 2 t-shirts n 2 conventional shirts...so by da end of da day, i had 3 pants and 5 shirts...and only on tuesday i had gotten 2 punjabi suits(tailored) frm my mum...so swit of dem rite? hahaz....

thirdly, my class created a havvock in front of our class room juz cuz dey saw a cricket...i was da first one to c it...smth juz came flying n landed in front of our door n since i was da one closest to da door, i noticede it while tokin to farz...it was smth like free period cuz mrs gam din cum fer cme n we all were doin our own werk...den i told farz n farz told da whole class...den eunice, tess n gang went out to c...den tess brought it into da class! she was hvin it in her hands n den showed it in front of my face n i freaked out can? den aftr much persuasion frm my classmates, she n company went down to da study pavillion n left it dere....haiyoahz...so disgusting....dey r part of nature..budden dey shd b kept at a dist n shd b watched at..we shdnt torture it by pickin it up w out its pleasure....

next, i managed to open my autograph bk usin dear xiao yuan's hair pin..hahaz...lame...i spoilt da lock..i nearly broke it..my key is lost mah...had a nice tym openin it n i spent da whole of my free period doin nth but juz tryin to open it...LAME..hahaz..

common tests results gonna cum baq soon...haiz..n i can only blog when we r allowed to do our own werk durin cs..haiz...

2004-08-19T15:48:00.000+08:00

hie..

got nth to blog, although got so many things to blog..haiz..i MAY NOT be bloggin, goin online in msn or loggin on to frenster at all or tt often due to a few reasons..so ppl, i m sry if i dun reply to ur frenster messages or ur messages on my tag board...n i req ppl notta flood my tag board unless dey hv smth valid to sae..

common tests r finally ovr n htl teacher is still da same way...life is apparently boring, as usual..nth much interestin..but very stressful..

gtg
bubbye..

2004-08-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

alo...

long tym nvr blog liaoz..busy w common tests...

anw, got a lotta things happen dese few days..but too lazy to type evry single one of dem..so da impt news are..

yest was fridae da 13th...n tru enuff..it was a horrible day fer me..got common tests n summore go su many scoldings frm so many ppl..i kept on makin blunders n ended up gettin horrible scoldings frm ppl..wah lao! ppl treat me like slaves can?my grandma at 12.00 midnight, when i was gonna sleep aftr studying fer dunno hw long, asked me to sweep da floor..n i did so...den asked me to hang da washed clothes n i did..asked me to do dis do tt n i did evry thing when since da tym i came hme, i studied only frm 10 to 12 n all da othr while, i was sweepin da house n mopping it lorh! i was so damn pissed off can! haiz..nvm, i shall think of it this way..i m so helpful..i m so reliable to doo all sorta werk..dey all trust me to do da tasks completely n neatly...so i m sooooo HONOURED!

got exemption frm running n jumping activities fer 3 weeks...my tendons n ligament r v badly strained n r a bit damaged..so i v worried abt my orienteerin test..sry eshwaaree..i m givin u too much troub..pls bear w me..

secondly, watched ndp on tv on aug 9..i feel tt it is juz a bigger version n a more honourable version of ncc day parade..so proud tt sis gotta march in ndp! she was da only one frm crescent to march in ndp u noe! so proud to hv u as my godsis! anw HAPPY BELATED BIRHDAY SINGAPORE! 39th b'dae! s'pore shd prosper more!

common tests r not tt bad so far..eng n lit..i think i hv done better dan my othr tests n exams.. i hope i have improved..budden my brain is so saturated n is not takin any othr information..i shd improve my state..

sis tot me electricity n light..hahaz..i think she has refreshed her memory..thankyou sis!

still hv history, science, maths, d&t n htl...muz study harder..my dad's askin me to study harder leh..i m oredi tryin my very best lor..nvm i shd study until i go mad i think..if tt's wad he wants, i dun mind doin tt fer him..

ppl want me to put on a show i can but i dun like to cuz tt is a way of hypocrism..so i wun unless i really hv to..ppl wan me to b myself, i can surely b n i m oredi myself..juz tt ppl dun understand tt dis is my trueself..if i ask further qns, i m surely gonna b hurt..so i shant ask anymore n continue being myself..but i still dunno hw to prove to dem tt pleasin othrs is my trueself..haiz..n im not trying to suck up to ppl...if tt's wad u call suckin up..i dunno wad r sum othr ppl's actions called as..haiz..

my sis wanna join crez nc leh! she says she wanna wear da no 1 uniform aftr watchin ndp..i hope she can join n b one of da ppl hu will bring honour n glory to crez ncc! she says she wanna follow my footsteps..she wanna go n join clementi pri sch n den go to crescent n she wants to take ncc as her cca...dis means tt i hv bin a gd role model to her!

anw advanced HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDIA! tmr is her b'dae...57th b'dae..may u prosper further india..

learnt a lesson frm flowers...flowers nvr live fer themselves u noe..dey bloom n give freshness to da environment n too ppl's mind..dey r used to beautify da environment..indian women keep dem in deir hair..to make dem look beautiful..n when ppl's warm breath is felt by da flowers, dey wilt faster dan dey usually do..n finally when flowers die, ppl juz throw dem away...we all shd not totally b like flowers la..but shd hv tt kinda mindset..tt we shd help othrs n be as useful as possible to othrs...we shd also live fer ourselves..but not totally fer ourselves oso..

htl is so irritatin..budden since my eng is bad, i hv to continue..da teahcer has tamil typing oso fer ca u noe..pls la..got so many types of tamil keyboards n i noe only one of dem...he says muz type da uptlc type of keyboard, tamil 99 keyboard n i noe only anjal key board..n da test is on tuesday lorh..so unfiar fer me as i dun hv tt keyboard at hme to practice at home..haiz...

dis song really gave me encouragement lorh...i hv made up my mind to follow da lyrics of dis song..

ovvoru pookkaLumae solgirathae
vaazhvenRaal poraadum porkaLamae
ovvoru vidiyalumae sogirathae
iravaanaal pagalondRu vanthidumae

nambikkai enbathu vaeNdum nam vaazhvil
latchiyam nichaiyam vellum oru naaLil
manamae oh manamae nee maarividu
mazhaiyo athu paniyo nee mothividu

uLLam endrum eppothum
udainthu poga koodaathu
enna intha vaazhkai endRa
eNNam thondRa koodaathu

entha manithan nenjukkuL
kaayam illai sollungaL
kaala pokkil kaayam ellaam
maRainthu pogum maayangaL

uLi thaangum kaRkaL thaanae maNmeethu silayaagum?
vali thaangum uLLam thaanae nilayaana sugam kaaNum?
yaarukkilai poraattam? kaNNil enna neerottam?

oru kanavu kaNdaal, adhai thinam muyandRaal
oru naaLil nijamaagum..
manamae oh manamae nee maarividu
mazhaiyo athu paniyo nee mothividu..

vaazhkai kavithai vaasippom
vaanamaLavu yoasippom
muyaRchi endRa ondRai mattum
moochupola swasippoam..

latcham kanavu kaNNodu
latchiyangal nenjodu
unnai vella yaarum illai
uRuthiyodu poraadu..

manithaa un mathai keeri vithai podu maramaagum
avamaanam, padu tholvi, ellaamae uRavaagum
tholvi indRi varalaaRaa?
thukkam enna en thozha?

oru mudivirunthaal athil theLivirunthaal
antha vaanam vasamaagum..
manamae oh manamae nee maarividu
mazhaiyo athu paniyo nee modhividu..

nice lyrics rite? those hu dun understand tamil n hu wanna noe da meanin of da lyrics, pls go n ask ur tamil frenz...sry i too lazy to provide translation..hahaz..nidta go n study fer common test..
bubbye

2004-08-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

arlow!

tuesdae...

went fer shooting...hurt my elbow...

wednesday...

went fer shootin finals...disappointed w myself..anw, one person go n criticise me..she say summore! n if da person is reading my entry, pls dun b surprised if i tok baq to u if u criticise me once more...i hv not toked baq to u so far...so pls mind ur werds n dun make me do wad i hv not done...

thurs...

a very boring dae...went fer da brainiest historian contest...den rushed fer physio therapy...da physiotherapist said got new prob pop up...since i sprained my ankle recently 2 wks ago, my tendon has a damage n my original prob was my ligament...so she said i hv to rest my ankle at least fer 1 n a half yrs in order to cur lorh! it is not possible lorh...i told her i hv ncc...den she was like, mebbe go fer nc but dun do da running...hw can tt b possible? so she said evry dae do ice massage to control da tendon's damage n do physiotherapy fer da ligament...she said only aftr i got outta sec sch or aftr jc, my ankle can cure...haiz...

fridae...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST AISH! (aug 6)

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY INDIA (aug 15) AND SINGAPORE (aug 9)!

todae is da 6th yr of aish celebratin her b dae w me..or rather aftr noein me...
celebrated national day...mrs gam n ms seow gave us roses..red fer some n white fer some...todae was mrs gam's n ms nurazlin's b dae too...

mr samat made us stay baq until aftr da sec 1 tablet pc briefin was ovr juz to sae one sentence "2S1, 2S2, 2S3..dose hu hvnt taken deir PFT pls c me now..."wah lao..i was damN pissed off lorh! 45 mins leh...n summore w my tendons torture! it aches wheneva i sit still fer more dan 15 mins lorh...when i sit on chairs, it is not tt painful...i cld hv at least gone fer lit lecture leh...

den changed n went to orchard w aish, malikkaa, farz, kairiya, asyiqin n jean...ate at KFC..den went to do window shopping...went fer da movie "The Village"...at 2.30pm...wah lao..since it was my first tym watchin a horror movie, it was damN scary lorh! but aish n farz said da movie was so stoopid...haiz... i was so scared until i held malikkaa n asyiqin n started crying lorh! malik oso cried...asyiqin was comfortin us...kairiya oso was screamin thruout da movie...den aftr da movie, malik hurried us...so din check wad i left...den when we went to da exit i realised i had lost my wallet lorh! tt was da most horrifyin part of da day...more horrifying dan da movie can? den went baq to da theatre n dey said dey had found it n it was at da 5 th storey...so went dwn n asked dem...n dey asked me a few qns n gave it to me..when dey opened it to take out my ez link card, i think my 20 bucks dropped lorh! it was aish's present money..i lost it! i nvr found it lorh! only aftr reachin hme, i realised it can? i hope i dun lose anymore things...

my whole day spoiled by a dearest person can? i tot no money? hw cum can go dere one arh? i wld not hv bin angry w u if u had directly told me tt u din wanna go w us...i hate betrayal n lies can? i m so disappointed by u...so dis- heartened...n thru out da movie, was reminded of da person...

haiz...nw at home...hv to study fer common test n pack stuff fer tmr...n dese 4 days of hols r like study hols...cant enjoy..nvm..i shall werk hard n den enjoy l8r at da end of dis yr...i can make it...i m gonna do it! at least fer da sake of my parents...n of cuz fer my sis...i shd b a gd role model fer her...

gtg
bubbye

2004-08-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

hie...

thursdae..

wasnt feelin well..wed night, had fever, cough, flu, fever, sore throat n headache...was sufferin v badly..i knew if i go to da doctor, he will surely gimme 5 medicines n at least one day of sick leave n 2 days of exemption frm PE...n den my dad forced me to go to da doctor...i had no choice but to go n da doctor gave all da stuff i had predicted lorh..so thursdae nvr go to school..

fridae...

went to sch, feelin sooo sick.. den hadta leave at 11.15 fer da mobile learning's rehearsal..da minister launching thinggy...so hadta miss D&T n CS... den rushed fer htl..soo boring...haiz..den came home la..

saturdae..

horror! ROD! OMG! so sad...i feel tt i m in a werl of darkness lorh..day n night all of da same darkness..my heart is heavy man...i feel so sad..my snrs of delta 03 n delta 04 all rawk my werl man! dey rawk to da core! i miss dem! cant dey juz stay w us foreva?! u noe i always wish tt dis wld happen...hw nice wld it b if life was like a video tape or CD...when dere r da sad n bitter tymz, we shd b able to forward our life, wheneva we want we shd b able to rewind to our happy tymz...n when dere r sweet memories, we shd be able to pause our livez...i simply wish dis wld happen lorh..budden, unfortunately, dis is so impractical...haiz..

anw, da new encik is encik yi shiuan(dunno hw to spell), my new ncoz r sgt zuraidah n sgt samantha..da future-part-A ncoz r sgt huey huey n sgt yong hui...da future-part-B ncoz r sgt chi hui n sgt fauziah...da future-part-D ncoz r i think sgt raseena n sgt geraldine...

had ROD party...reached home at 11.30 pm...my heart is still tooo heavy lorh..i cant get ovr rod man..i cried da most i think...i started crying when it was da first rehearsal lorh..i din stop crying even when da final rod parade was over..so sweet of snr eileen to make key chainz n give us...n our ex-ncoz gave us post cards n kewt little socks...snr madeline gave us gummies..
thankyou snrs!

sundae...

studies, studies n more studies on sundae...had tuition...did sum home werk...a boring day infact..my cough mixture is makin me feel damn drowsy man...

mondae..

went to school...da day was soo boring.. aftr school had history-skit presentation...den had pft..my pft wasnt tt bad..had improvement frm last yr..except fer my shuttle run..i ran bare-footed, like da others...n den when i was abt to finish it, i heard a crack in my ankle, my ankle gave way n i juz fell, my head facin da ground..my head hit da floor..da werl swirled in front of my eyes...my head was hit very very hardly...started having a head ache n injured my stomach too...den i consoled myself n tried fer da second tym aftr sum rest...da same thing happened n my condition became worse lorh! my ankle guard was of no use...den my classmates came arnd me n den brought me to da side...den finally tried w my shoes on...my timing was quite bad..den farz came n den she said think of mangosteen n my timing improved lorh! hehehez..thz fer sayin da name at da right tym farz!

anw, i dun understand smth u noe...farz had her calf muscles aching immediately aftr doin 6 sit-ups lorh! i dun understand if she did sit-ups or smth lse lorh...wad has sit-ups gotta do w ur legs? anw, take care farz!

i m oso very pissed lorh! tmr have council meeting, rugby, dance assessment, imt shooting practice n htl lorh! which ones shd i go lorh! n obviously it is not possible fer me to b split up into 5 pieces lorh...i wld be glad if tt was possible lorh...or mebbe muz go n get da time-inverter frm emma watson(hermione granger, hw she went fer dif lessons at da same tym)..i think i shd do tt man..i m really sufferin like her man... n i hv to go fer imt shooting practice cuz dis is da first prac i m goin..n day aftr tmr is da final imt test lorh... n den i hv to go fer dance assessment as it is counted in da overall n i m not gonna let dis affect my overall position in da final yr man...n da teacher cant b convinced to change da day...so i oso hv to go fer it...n den rugby hv to go cuz mrs lim still counts excuse letters frm othr teachers as absent n give a demerit fer evry 3 tyms u dun go n i hv oredi missed 2 tym as a result of council meetings lorh...so it is oso a must..n den obviously htl is oso impt...council meetin, erm..ok la..can ask frm fellow councillors..budden hw to manage da rest?! council meeting is at 2.15 most prob..dance assessment is at 2.15 oso...imt shooting, muz fall-in at 2.20 pm...rugby is at 2 to 3.30...htl, muz leave sch at 4 pm..

den wed i hv imt final...den thursdae i hv physiotherapy..da doctor is mad at me as i hv postponed my appointment fer 6 tymz oredi...fridae i hv htl oso i think...can sum one suggest sum solutionz! i m so pissed off n confused! unable to think!

ok gtg
bubbyee...

2004-07-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

arlow..

tuesdae..

yest had no mass run..had 2.4 final..aftr i finished, i got dehydrated n i was really v giddy until i cldnt stand..i wld like to thank all ppl hu helped me! my dearest classmates, my dear pltnmates, sir (mr samat), n my dearest councillors..(dhs, x-dhs n othr councillors)! thx fer u help, care n concern dearies...

had htl..was boring la (as usual)..managed to memorise sum pbl slides..also studied sum history fer todae's test...

wednesdae..

had pbl presentation todae..my form teacher is "soooo damn nice" lorh...she "passed" my group u noe..hw "nice of her"...she said.."i dun care if u all like me or not..u all better suck up to me todae cuz ur marks are all in my hands" i was boilin inside can?blackmail summore...fine..dun pass my grp..fine la..cld hv at least given 10/20..heartless soul..nvm...dis is called F-A-T-E..haiz...anw, better dan getting a ZERO rite? she was nvr satisfied w a single grp can? nw i understand y snr ari said wadeva she said...haiz..snr ari was rite..

anw, a BIG GOOD BYE to freaking PBL! n i m nvr gonna hv dis woman as my form teacher ever in my lifetym..

den left at 12.30 to go fer history test..only me n farz..den went fer lunch at 1.05 pm...met at mini forum at 1.30 pm..had da minister launchin thinggy's rehearsal..den went to canteen..was tokin w charmaine fer a while..den she hadta go..den was askin sakina n shaminah a few maths sums on congruent triangles(frm now on i shall call it da sleepin pill cuz it makes me sleep..)..den dey oso hadta go..den was sittin dwn w apurva, n readin lit novel..we happened to tok abt cricket..din no apurva was as crazy as me(in fact much much more crazier dan me) ovr cricket...den sabrina came baq frm her pft n apurva hadta go...den was readin da novel n den left at 5.15..went fer tuition..da teacher asked me to write 250 werds n i wrote 600 werds..i oso dunno hw lorh..she gave us 30 mins fer 250 werds of compo..n i wrote 600 werds in 20 mins..i think it is full of crapp..i m surely gonna fail tt paper..hahaz...

anw, todae, whole day was feelin so pissed off..but dunno w wad la..even if i noe..i cant sae it here la..yar..n joy to da werld..i lost my voice..kena flu, cough, sore throat n fever..

i still hv history skit to do..my dance project..dance home werk, my own assignments n my tuition werk to do..n tmr hv lit test oso..

anw, todae is snr xiao yun's b dae..HAPPY B'DAE SNR!

okiez..
gtg
bubyee..

2004-07-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

alo..

fridae wasnt tt bad la.., budden morning i woke up at 5.55 when my van cums at 6.05..aiyoah! rushed worse dan i do in ncc can? managed to go earlier dan i go on da other dayz..tt's da irony here..haha..den had sch as usual..aftr sch, htl was boring..

sat was worse..alarm clock rang..at 5.55 am..i switched it off n den slept again thinking tt it was 4.55 am can? den i woke up at 6.55 am n i tot it was 5.55 am..so i slept fer anthr 15 mins..den i realised it was 7.10 am! i was supposed to meet aish at da clementi mrt station's bus stop at 7.05 to go to htl centre in her dad's car fer oral which was at 7.45 am! i was damN late lorh! i was scared tt i wld b late fer oral..den rushed worse dan fri n left hse at 7.15.. went to take a cab..aiyoah! dis one anthr one la..cldnt get a cab until 7.30 am..den finally got one n reached htl centre at 7.50 am..i was so anxious lorh! my anxiety was luckily reduced when i realised i was quite early..

den went baq home, changed clothes n went to buona vista mrt station to meet aish to go to yee lyn's hse..had bravo awards..damN fun man! i was given miss enthu 2004! i nearly puked can? had fun playing water bombs..n had a nice party w ncos n dear pltnmates..yee lyn's hse reminded me of my hse in india..it is so exactly like tt..haiz..home sick again. anw, BRAVO 04 RAWKS MY WORLD MAN!

sun was studyin da whole day la..mostly hist..did sum maths..n den sum science..

this morn wasnt feelin quite ok..i threw-up in sch..my last nite's dinner..den was damN hungry during recess..so ate sand-wich..n den puked aftr recess..den lunch oso puked a bit of dem..aiyoah..n my stomach ache n head ache killed me can?! i think i was hving a migraine..

luckily todae had only 3 preiods of lessons..morn, first 3 periods of english..actually counted as 2 cuz ms goh came only at 8.20 n den she was advising my class fer anthr period..so we did werk only fer 1 period..actually wadeva ms goh said was true..anw, aftr tt, mrs lim din cum fer maths cuz she hadta grade a class' PBL..so no maths..den recess..den hist, miss neo was absent frm sch..so no hist! yay! no hist test todae..i can prepare more! den had chinese period(free period la)..den aftr sch did my own stuff..so sien oredi..decided to go hme at 5.30..hv a sense of satisfaction cuz i spent my day quite fruitfully..so i dun feel tt irritated todae as i normally will be..

one impt quote frm ms goh which i find is very very true.."the taste of success is so sweet tt u wld wanna taste it repeatedly"

anw,
gtg
bubbye!

2004-07-22T18:28:00.000+08:00

hie...

yest ",

da day started w maluation can? morning i was da only one wearin an ethnic costume in my whole class...den eunice din cum..su min was asked to go n replace eunice as eunice was supposed to go fer da costume parade in da monrning at da hall...den su min refused to go alone n dragged me along w her...

den went n asked mrs goh watta do n she grubled here n dere n den scolded us fer cumin at da last min..wad she expect us to do lorh! as tho we wanna go lidat..my whole class forced us to go..no choice wad..din wan my class's reputation to spoil..den on stage, when it was supposed to b my turn, mrs goh read my name as 'navita' n i tot it was sumone else..n summore dere were so many ppl tokin so loud until i cldnt hear wad she was sayin..da echo anthr one..played a trick on my ears..luckily hse nvr sae my class. if not wld hv embarrassed myself like xiao can?

den all da ppl wearin indian costumes were asked to go n i hadta go..i hid behind...u noe smth? me n su min went w out even noein tt it was a contest lorh! we tot it was juz walkin here n dere...hahaz..(L-A-M-E)

den stayed baq to do hw, n den rushed fer tuition..

todae...

dere was no mass run todae..den had sci, den went fer pe..i wasnt takin pe anw, since i m still on exemption frm pe..saw diana, sgt calissa, candy n deir whole class dancin..diana v cute leh.. ;) den had free period n den recess..we hadta go baq to class to clean our class room..den had lit..was late fer lit n hadta explain to miss chan tt we went late fer recess as we were cleanin da classroom..den had eng n den maths...

first maths period had maths test..i sucked at it man..was so damN difficult can? i practised so much! nvm, i feel satisfied as i took my efforts(dis satisfaction wld last only until i get baq da markz la..) den stayed baq to do hw..actually stayed baq fer PBL..dearest grp members 4gotta bring power pt n web page..so dey went to tess's hse while i din cuz i hadta reach hme by 5.45..tess told me it wld take us a v long tym to reach her hse..arnd 3.30 or 4 lidat..den i hv to leave at least at 4.15 frm her hse..so tess said it wld b better fer me to stay in sch n do my werk..den co-incidentally, when i finished my hw n was packin up, saw F&N n her frenz cumin..den left sch..wanted to walk..budden kairiya, jean n farz forced me to take bus w dem..i told dem i wld take wadeva bus tt comes first..den 111 came n i boarded it..den got dwn at commonwealth n took mrt..wanted to take 105 frm c'wealth budden it w;d take a v long tym..so took mrt..

nw at home, aftr a refreshing bath..gonna study history l8r..got test on monday aftr sch.. den hv to practise sum maths, muz study sum science oso..aftr tt muz go n do htl wb, sum xtra exercise la..den muz go n bathe again in order to eat n sleep freshly..hahaz..ok, gtg..

bubbyee!

2004-07-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

so pissed!

i wanted to go fer htl on tym at least todae...i was in da mood of learning evry thing w keen interest...so me n aish decided to go...so we called tt person to go w us oso la..den she sae leave at 4...wth lor..we leave at 4 den we reach dere at 4.50 or 4.55 can? i cant stand da teacher's naggin...dey cant stand my naggin rite..hw can dey expect me to stand his naggin? summore i was in such a gd mood as evrything todae was goin alrite...

i was so kind to let her make her own decisions n cum wheneva she wanted...so we left w out her..den aish dunno go where...so aftr searchin fer aish n since i cldnt find her, i left..wth man..saw tt person at da 139 bus stop n said hi again n she nvr replied...i tot she pissed off w smth else..den understood tt she pissed off w me fer leavin w out her...such a silly reason can? if she pissed off w me fer dis, i hv so many othr reasons to b pissed off w her...many incidents, i asked her to sit at a particular place during free period n she demanded to go to anthr place...den she said, if u wan u go dere n sit..n she said tt she was so nice to let me make my own decisions..n i was so nice to follow her whereeva she wanted to go..

todae, i let her make her own decisions, but she was da one hu din wanna cum w me..well i din force her to follow me..den she end up pissed off w me..wad is dis! she has her rights to make her own decisions n i hv my own ritez to make my own decisionz..well if she pissed off w ani othr chap, i really cant b bothered..but y me? nvm, i m not gonna give up mi self-respect n go n beg at her feet to tok to me..all dese days, she onli knew my nice side..i m oso naturally hot-tempered but i controlled it so much fer her sake...todae she realli tested mi patience..i was realli v pissed off man! i mean what i say! i mean wat i mean! i say wad i mean! i oredi came n toked to u, u din wanna tok to me..well if u understand tt u were at fault, i m always dere fer u as a symbol of our true frenship..dunno if u considered ur frenship w me as a real, true n genuine one..but well, i did...i will still b dere..go think fer urself on hu is wrong..u did dis to me(mebbe purposely), but i did it to u in accident..u cldnt even take it n u r pissed off w me.. i m not sayin tt i m perfect..no one is perfect..u told me my mistakes n i m still trying to correct dem..nw i m tellin u ur mistakes..

my expectations of u: i wld like to make dis clear to u..u expected me to behave in a certain way..in da same way, i oso hv a certain expectations on hw my true fren shd b..last tym when u told me my faults, i din scold u..da nxt morning, tho i was hurt at ferst, i was da one hu came n toked to u n i m da one hu is trying to change myself instead of justifyin my acts further...so wad i expect is, u shd cum n tok to me ferst..i wun mind if u r pissed off in da beginning, i noe hw it feels..but i hope u wun maintain ur self-ego(i dun wanna call it self-esteem as self-ego is smth tt stops u frm apologisin to sum one even tho u noe u r at wrong) n tok to me..i dun expect u to apologise..but juz b normal frenz as we were...n u noe i m more hot-tempered dan u? juz tt i din show it out in frnt of u all...if i start screamin, i dunno hw ppl hu noe me as a naggy n sensitive gal wld react...u had ur self-respect n so u din beg me to tok to u..in da same way, i oso hv my self-respect n i m not gonna beg u to tok to me..juz reflect on urself...

it wld hv bin v easy fer me to say sorry to u n hv a gd frenship w u..but in tt case, i m unfair to both, u n me..in wad way m i unfair to u:i m not givin u an opportunity to noe ur mistakes n correct urself..unfair to miself: i noe i said dis "true frenz r da ones hu accept me as i m" but u din cuz u exepected me to change a bit...n u din give in cuz u werent at fault..in da same way, if i apologise, i m givin in fer smth which is not my fault..

i may not b as matured as u to advise u as i m 372 days younger dan u..wad wld u do if ur younger sis expects u to change?(i noe u will give her a tight slap la) but i hope u wun do tt to ur fren hu is younger dan u...yep...juz think fer urself...

all dese may sound v lame n silly, but as u told me, "altho it is a v small thing, it wld make a big dif if u change"..u r in da same boat as i was..so pls try to change

sry if i hv hurt u or insulted u or scolded u...i wld juz like to re-emphasise: go reflect on urself...

anw, cumin to todae...

nth much la..had music..had a fun tym dancin w my swollen ankle..hahaz..aiyah, den went fer htl l8r la..no mood oredi..my gd mood todae was spoilt by smth..so restless rite nw..

bubbye...

2004-07-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

hie...

sundae...

YAY! i survived thru da parade w out fainting..i din even squat dwn...ENDURANCE AND DETERMINATION helped me succeed...all da way thru! i m so damN happy...

had NCC Day Parade at SAFTI MI...it rox man...as far as i noe, 4 of us cried...msg, sgt anita, kelly n me...msg was oredi emotional n when she saw sgt anita cry, she cried more...likewise, i was oredi so emotional..den when i saw kelly cry i cried more...

we felt so honoured...in front of so many ppl, da ppl cumin in da parachutes, one of dem, carried CRESCENT flag...i clapped like xiao until my hands were numb n red...frm dat moment onwards itself i started crying...n my hair stood up as in front of such a big crowd, da guest of honour, while makin his speech, mentioned about Mahatma Gandhi Ji...WOW!

n da reasons y i cried was cuz when da line "this is where, i won't be alone!" was sung, i tot of da care n concern n company provided by my dearest n most respected encik, msg, staffs, sgts, corporals n my dearest of dearest platoonmates...n i cried...n dis part of da line "dis is my family, dese r my frenz" was sung, i oso cried, thinkin of my platoon's unity n me as a part of da crescent ncc family n i cried...i wish my pltn will remain dis united forever...BRAVO 04! u all r gr8 ppl! i luv y'all! dearest platoon mates! u all rawk to da core man!

my dad was dere on da parade square takin pics while we were marching off...my mum came to da FUP immediately aftr da parade n sabot me..she started takin pics of me n i din realise tt until eshwaaree said...den i covered my face n ran away...

den went hme w my parents in da shuttle bus tt was shuttlin frm da MI to da jurong point...were on our way to da pizza hut n i saw cai hua...toked to her fer a while n den said bubbye to her n followed my parents...had a nice dinner n den came back homw, packe mi bag n was v eager to watch da news...so went to bed at 11.00 pm...

mondae...

todae nth much la..f&n oso nvr cum to sch n i oso nvr c mangosteen...budden had a v hard tym managin apurva man...she was bullying me w yellow hat la...poor thing la yellow hat...anw..yap, so nth much...n v few hw oso..

went hme w badd...den rushed fer physiotherapy...n da doctor has given me a letter fer exemption frm physical activities fer 1 wk as i sprained my ankle on fridae...n nw i m baq hme..rotting....no mood to do hw oso...ferst tym i hv bin so moody n sleepy...fer da ferst tym i felt sleepy during maths lor...was learning abt congruent triangles...i usually feel v interested during maths but fer da ferst tym i felt sleepy...two continuous weeks no rest was...satudaes n sundaes all occupied...mebbe dis sundae i m free...budden may hv tuition...

anw, hvnt started on webpage...my dear grp members la...haiz...

anw...now my foot is inside a pot of hot water, to relieve my ankle's sprain n pain...i cant even stand dis pain...hw on earth cld da victims of kumbagonam sch's fire accident hv tolerated? poorthing lorh!

ok, gtg
bubbye...

2004-07-17T19:15:00.000+08:00

alo...

fridae...

morning woke up damN late lorh! i usually wake up at 5 n dis morning i woke up at 6.40 can..i think i noe y...cuz last nyte, my parents directly went to my cuz's hse as it was her b dae, frm deir work place.so i had to wait until 2 am to get my maths test paper signed n to get my pocket money fer todae...so i ended-up sleeping at 3.00 am.i guess in mi sleepiness, i 4gotta set da alarm clock. so i woke up at 6.40 am lorh! i rushed worse dan i do in NCC, n left mi hse at 6.55, took a cab n luckily, by god's grace, i reached sch at 7.05am...my heart was really thumping very very hard lorh! i was damn scared...summore lat nyte had a dream of gettin booked as i was late...tt was when i woke up...

den had taf run.hadta run 3 rns arnd big carpark.ran two rnds n guess wat happened?! u noe my ankle dere got da permanent injury rite?i sprained tt part again lorh! n it immediately b came v swollen...i din noe hw i was gonna spend my rest of da day...den sumhw managed my way to da council meeting in frnt of da flag pole...n den juz remembered had sci practical plannin test...so had a "wonderful" time rushin baq to class...n den had maths...so sad mrs lim din cum todae...so had sum sums to do n den did our own stuff...l8r went fer recess, den d&t, n den CS ...

mr sem visited us! we all clapped n cheered like mad when he entered...den we all started complaining to him abt our "dearest" form teacher mrs gam...he was lyk "wateva it is still give her da respect as ur form teacher n bear w her", den we said "we respect her but she dsnt repect us" n so on la...den we were released at 1.40pm, slowly managed my way baq to class n den went to canteen....guess wat. my lunch was a sand wich n nth else. den went fer speech day rehearsal...

wah lao! so disappointing lorh! took so much efforts to learn wad i was supposed to do at da prize-giving table n den ended up dey sae, da cert-givin is at 9 plus lorh! initially we were told tt da cert-givin was at da end ...so we tot aftr our hmt oral we can cum baq...aiyoah! now dey said it is at 9 or 9.30...so obviously even if we ask to go fer da oral ferst, n rush baq, we wun b able to reach on tym..so dey r finidn replacements frm sec 3...so on speech day, i will neither b goin fer guard of honour nor cert-givin...all in all, i wun b able to go fer speech day at all...

i hadta do all da sorting out stuff, carrying stuff n so on w my aching, swollen ankle...but no pt la..not gonna go fer final dae...

watched da news! OMG! 80 lives juz gone lidat! i guess u all shd hv heard abt da fire accident in a school in india n 90 lives(latest update) r gone! n dey dun even hospital facilities lorh! dey all r suffering so much n i m here hvin a relatively more comfortable life! i saw da news n i had night mares last night...dey showed pupils all burnt lying on top on one another, abt 15 of dem burnt beyong recognisation! n 15 parents still hvnt gotten deir childrens' dead bodies can?! since dere wasnt any space in da so called hospital, burtn pupils were lying on da ground, groaning in agony! my whole family was crying last nite at 11.00 pm while watchin da news on sun tv...it really melted my heart...in fatc it broke my heart...da pain, da suffering all dose primary 3, 4 n 5 kids wld hv gone thru b4 dying...horrible man! dey hv died such a horrible agonising death. all dese juz cuz dey r poor n da area dey were living was suffering frm poverty..tho dey were poor n deir parents were poor, dey had da hunger to study...n dis was wad dey got as a reward, death! dey paid a penalty of deir lives, 90 lives fer being born to poor ppl...n da gift dey got fer deir eagerness to study despite deir poverty...i shd treasure my life in s'pore...i shd make a big difference in india...i m gonna do it! i can do it! fer MY COUNTRY! india is gonna improve v soon! i b lieve in her, bharatha maadha! jayathi jayathi bharatha maadha, mudha keela, nikilamaatha, varaniratha, natha jana sukithaa, jayathi! jayathi! jayathi! n i hope s'pore wil oso play a part in makin india a better place as s'pore n india r v gd frenz...

saturdae...

anw, todae went fer ncc w my ankle...tot it wld b ok.in da end, it was troubling me n i hadta fall out...den went to mobil, gobbled up mi lunch, n den rushed fer dance class. came hme, washed my face, refreshed miself n went fer dance class in 10 mins...danced w my stoopid ankle, now it is swollen aftr todae's strainin activities...tmr got parade summore...

anw, dance rox! ncc rox! crescent rox! creznc rox!

i asked my whole family to cum n my dad n grandma agreed...so 99.9% dey r cumin tmr to watch da nnc day parade...unless smth realli cocks-up n makes dem unable to cum tmr...i hope nth liddat happens...

ookie dookie, needta go n prepare my uniform, my own hw fer myself to do, n other stuff...

bubbye!

2004-07-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

alo..

anw, todae got baq maths test paper...pls work out dis quadratic equation in order to find out my markz..hahaz..
x squared-39x+380=0, where da higher value is da total marks n da lower value is da markz tt i got! hv a nice tym werkin it out...hahaz

called dad frm sch to tell him mi markz n he said, ask me wateva u want n i will get u by next wk...n den i said no 1) their priceless love 2) the mind to work harder, 3) the heart to accept successes and failures and 4) peace...my dad said, all dese will b given to u..now wad d u want frm da shops tt i can use money n buy? tell me n i said bicycle as sum one had stolen my old one...n dad said tt he will get me b4 nxt thursday...woohoo! thanx dad!

btw, todae kena mood swings like xiao man...one moment was so happie n da other moment was so pissed...was doin hw in sch n den left...came home...quite peaceful todae as i m satisfied w my markz...

gtg
bubbye

2004-07-12T19:30:00.000+08:00

hie...

saturdae...

morning had oral...aiyohz...my conv was horrible...but my pic n reading was ok as da pic was abt smth regardin ncc, war n so on...
den had nc...

had marching...marchin w msg again...rox man! n den had lessons on IFC by kelly n wai man...dey were quite good la... i tell u arh...learning lesson w msg again...rox!!! n den we all had a mock test by msg, n we all turned it into an open-bk test..hahaz...den she made us do squats w our hands on our ears like kindergarten kids lidat...hahaz...she rox!

den our ncos came baq n took ovr...den had marchin...marching rox!
n den i had to leave at 2.30 pm as i had to go fer dance class...
dance was fun! learnt new steps in jatiswaram...gonna finish it very very soon...den aftr tt had a bath...den kena stomach ache sia...i wasnt feeling well at all...i juz went to bed straight away...

sundae...

morning woke up quite early to do my number 3 uniform...luckily i had oredi dun mi collar 3 dayz baq...

den went to mobil to meet pltn mates...den fell in at da bus-stop
aftr sum tym...den went to da SAFTI MI...horrible sia! kena stomach ache sia...den i really cldnt take it...den sum corporals, n mi pltn mates asked me if i was ok n aisyah asked mi to report sick...den ma'am gowri asked mi to sit dwn dere...den when it was almost tym, i went baq to da pltn...den had da ferz rehearsal n i was hving da stoopid stomach ache through out lorh...den cpl zuraidah, aisyah, cpl yi zhen, fengy n sum others asked mi to squat dwn...

den a sir came n asked me "nivetha u ok onot?" i was shocked to daeth man! hw ds he even noe mi name? ppl if dey usually c da name tag, only deir surname will b dere...but in my case my surname is ferst la..but still hw ds he noe tt tt is mi name? i think he saw it during da camp-feast i think...cuz i saw dat sir in camp-feast...anw...he so mean lorh! dunno if he meant to b mean or funni la...he said "last nite u went dicotheque isit? mabok seh..." i was like...OMG! y is he sayin dis n malu-ing me in front of so many ppl? lidat lorh...he said dis cuz my eye balls were rollin badly under mi eye-lids lorh! (smth like professor mad eye moody's magical eyes in harry potter, hahaz...) i was feeling very very giddy la...

den he gave me sum water to drink...n den ma'am gowri oso was giddy n evry one went to her n attended to her...i hope ma'am gowri is alrite...den she brought me to da grand stand n made sgt li ping sit b side me to accompany mi...ma'am is so nice! she rox man! she was da one hu convinced me into ncc! i still remember wat she said while recruiting me "dun wry...i will be dere through out to guide u in ur 4 yrs..."hahaz...she is soooo nice! anw aftr tt staff su ngin, sgt huey ying, sgt anita, sgt xin yu n
sum othr sgts i think, came n asked mi if i was alrite...

n u noe my hair stood up when i saw da crescent flag being carried by da parachute-ppl(my own invention of werd) clapped n cheerd like xiao can...my hands b came red n i lost mi voice...i was so proud, so honoured, so happy, felt da commitment to ncc...
i had a feeling tt my pltn has oso contributed fer da achievement of da best unit...tho it may not b ture or wad la...aiyah dunno la...

n den joined in for da second rehearsal...was quite okay la... den got up da bus n went to redhill mrt station...da bus went past
da area where i live...it was in a walkin distance lorh...budden i cant ask dem to drop mi dere wad...den went all da way to redhill n all da way back to clementi...

anw...i wld juz like to thank all da ppl hu took very gd care of mi n made me feel comfortable...thankyou ma'am, sirs, staff, sgts, corporals n most impt of all...my dearest of dearest platoon mates! i m greatly indebted to u all!

i still had da stomach ache...so was roamin abt here n dere, restless, not noeing watta do...n den at night went fer a walk w my family...n my mum had given two punjabi suits fer stitchin fer me n two fer herself. dey loook da same...uniformity between me n my mum...thz mum! dey hv also bought me anthr punjabi suit n a shirt worn on top of jeans...thz mum n dad!

mondae...

had sch todae...morning recieved my councillor badge frm mr gau. he tried to pronounce mi name properly on da podium...

my week ends were totally gone...so i cldnt do mi history hw...so todae hadta do dem during recess lorh...hurried to go n buy a cheese sandwich n den was eating while doin my hw...farz helped me...b cuz of her, i was able to finish dem juz b4 ms audrey neo came lorh! thz farz! u had prevented a maluation for mi...thz!

den had lessons n den came chinese period...i wanted to go to da study pavillion...budden since had ppl dere, we went to da tables in front of da staircase dere...den rushed fer lunch n rushed home...hadta go fer physiotherapy at 3.20...

reached hme at 3.00, had a bath n den rushed fer physiotherapy...
saw dr benjamin...juz came to noe tt he was da UDI of bukit panjang secondary school lorh! he asked me how i got da permanent injury last tym n i said it was during ncc...so he knew my cca...
todae he asked me abt ncc n ended up tellin me he was da UDI lorh...n den dere was anthr guy hu was in da nxt bed of mine while doin on of da physiotherapy la...

den he said "alo"...i tot he was sec 4 or jc 1 la...den he said "guess mi age?" i said "16 or 17?"...n den he said "wow! i look so young arh? d u noe tt i m 22?" i was like "OMG! really? okay...glad to noe tt..." his name is Khairul or smth lidat...he looked so brotherly...u noe hu eva i c rite, dey seem so brotherly or sisterly to me lorh...den i asked him wad had happened to his knee...he said "soccer" ...den i nodded la...n den i asked him wad he was doin n he said "NS" den my level of respect fer him b came v high lorh..i had a feeling tt i m supposed to maintain a dist w him n cant tok so freely lor...

den he was tellin me tt i shld treasure my sec sch life n i wld hate it when i go jc or anywhere else...he was advisin in da way my elder bro wld advise me if i had one lorh! elder bros r usually
very protective ovr deir sisters...i can only trust oone of my elder cousins to b da typical elder bro...tt is da one hu got state 3rd in india...

den he asked me if i had completed mi part b camp n i said yes...n
den he asked me i was a lancecorporal n i nodded...i asked him wad was his rank n he said none n said tt he juz had joined NS...

den he hadta go n he said bubbye n i said in reply...den now at home...hvta do maths if i m feeling alrite cuz now still hvin stomach ache...

bubbye...

2004-07-09T18:30:00.000+08:00

hie...

GOOD LUCK FER UR ORAL EVRYONE!

morning when i was in my van near sumwhere between tiong bahru n redhill la...i think it is most prob tiong bahru. it was in front of da condo near da tiong bahru plaza...i saw an IMM bus crash into a SENTOSA bus, n tt SENTOSA bus crashed into an SBS bus, bus no 196...dere was dis car in front of dese 3 buses, whose rear was very badly damaged...n da entire of its aluminium body was crushed to pieces...u noe my stomach felt empty fer a moment?! i felt as tho my intestines were out n my empty stomach was churning all around...dere was dis man hu was lying in front of da buses, fully injured...n his whole body was full of blood. dere were sum ppl beside him, prob callin da ambulance as dey were usin deir hand phones(sounds like i m practisin fer my oral as i hv all my interpretations, hahaz...)i prayed tt nth wld happen to tt man lorh...so poor thing. it was a very very serious accident...my van had juz escaped...

i think tiong bahru is an accident prone area...cuz my van oso goes to bukit purmei...n i saw sum glass pieces shattered on da floor of da entrance lor...i gues bt purmei is oso sum where near tiong bahru rite?haiz...

anw...had fun playing w coloured lights in da science lab...den had maths, recess, D&T n CS...den rushed to hv lunch n den had to hurry to htl centre...da teacher arh...i tell ya he is damN sickening can? he told us to finish da whole bk at da last min n i took all da efforts to finish it...u noe wad he did? he was like..."cld hv answered dis in a better way. y is ur sentence structure so horrible?" n so on lorh...it seemed alrite to me n even to my frenz...wat is his prob lorh...den he juz returned my marked bks...but he forgot tt he was juz returning aftr marking...den he scolded me..."y u din do ur correctionz arh? lazy rite?" pls la...he juz giving back, hw he xpect me to do corrections arh? i got magic hand issit? take da bk frm his bag, do corrections n den put back? he called me rebellious n lazy to do my werk u noe?!

i tried my bezt xplaining to him n he wldnt blieve...den i gave up...he din even say sry lorh! so sickening...

n den dis mrs gam anthr one...dis morning made me book 3 of my classmatez fer not bringing thermometers can? mr gau oredi said tt he was gonna get da namez of dose hu nvr bring n gonna give dem a demerite...she still asked me to book lorh! i think dey r gonna kena anthr one frm mr gau...

yeah! tmr got nc! but b4 tt got oral liaoz...den goin fer nc n den hafta rush fer mi dance class...den my dad wanted to go out sum where...den i still hafta do all my hw...he still dare gimme htl hw todae u noe...he is not even letting us hv tym to breathe can? he even asked me, "d u haf interest in cumin here anot?"pls la...if i m not interested y wld i even go dere in da ferz place? haiz...

gtg
bubbye...

2004-07-08T19:01:00.000+08:00

hie...

mondae...

granny, parents advise one by one on da same thing for 5 hrs altogether...i was sittin like a tree trunk on da floor n juz listening...like an idiot...haiz...

tuesdae...

morning had fever n i vomitted at home b4 leaving...so i ended-up hving an empty stomach...endured thru mass run...budden i was a bit giddy...den aftr abt 1 1/2 hrs... had PE n mr samat asked us to run rnd da parade sq 4 tymz as fast as possible n da big carpark 2 rnds in 8 mins...i managed to finish da 4 rnds...budden when i was halfway running to da carpark, my stomach pain increased like xiao n den i was damN giddy...den i juz collapsed on to da floor...ai zhen n farz brought me in front of da music room...saw my pltn mate sri dere...she said since she wanted to b cum a medic...she wanted to take care of me...den she asked me to drink hot milo n i refused...den farz bought sum othr drink n i drank it...den ms sharon goh came n asked me if i was ok...n den she bought me hot water...so nice of her!

THANKYOU FARZANAH, AI ZHEN, SRI, AND OF COURSE, MS SHARON GOH!

den went for higher tamil. da teacher is so irritating lorh! he practically did only 5 or 6 exercises w us in class from our htl work bk...n den he nvr even told us to finish it b4 hols...on da first day of htl in semester 2, he asked us to finish da whole bk can?so irritating! but no choice...hafta do it wad...my eng not tt gd...so muz continue htl...haiz...

den came home n packed bag n den went to bed, skipping dinner...

wednesdae...

no running tt dae...had a nice free period...hahaz...poor F&N! her frenz bullied her by asking her to sit down dere were me n farz were sitting...dey bullied her so much can...nvm..den stayed back n to do antigone acting rehearsal, w all da costumez... den me n farz went to mobil...had a pleasant shock! saw mangosteen! wheee!! she was smiling away...hahaz...so chio! n den came home.

thursdae...

had no mass run...dere was supposed to b a councillor-badge-giving
ceremony...but da rain spoilt it! it alwaes rains at da wrong tym lorh! den had science n yellow hat had da same science period...hahaz...den went for PE....mr samat asked us to run 8 rounds arnd da parade sq for warm up...den we had to run rnd da rotunda...den went for chinese period...i min free period...den had recess...

we had antigone dramatisation...we had to act out...we went to change into our costume...saw F&N juz b4 acting lorh! i went so blur k...den went inside da music rm...n it was our turn to act...i tot juz acting...wah lao..dis ms chan arh...last lesson's actors were not taken pictures of...muz she take photos of us todae? haiz...summore she said she is gonna post dem in first class lorh!she oso said my costume was dignified...looked like an ancient king...hahaz...i din think so lorh! i tot our grp was gonna screw up...budden was actually v nice...tho at first i was nervous, i was ok when we gotta da middle of da play...

finally our play ended and ms chan asked us to pose for a closing up picture...i was creon, farz was antigone, sui ying was haemon, jingnan was ismene n guard, amanda was chorus n ruiling was messenger n guard...hahaz...nice play...had a fun tym...ms chan said we acted well...except for messenger n haemon hu were quite soft la...

den had eng...ms goh sabotached me to tok abt da pic...i had nth to sae abt it lorh! my partner's pic was so easy lorh...den had maths...had maths test at da last period...wasnt tt bad...wasnt tt gd...was ok la...den was stayin back n was doin hw...den was searching fer mi NCOs...cldnt find dem....i hadta tell dem i wld b goin late fer activity as i hv my oral on dis sat...den went n asked mangosteen! she was so nice! so chio! den she suggested sum place to go n find dem...den i went n finally found her...n settled da matter...

anw, strawberry scolded me can? she showed me black face n dao me lorh! nvm...i cant b bothered abt her...hahaz...

went to search for farz aftr getting v fed up n on my way dis mrs gam gimme werk to do in pat n i hadta go all da way to pat lorh! 4th storey leh...aiyoah...den saw farz...FINALLY! den left n went to mobil n den took 132...den aish realised tt she left her plastic bag of council tie, her mom's slippers, her antigone costume n many other stuff...den we went back...i m a nice fren of her's mah...so accompanied her all day way back to da bus stop in da rain, gettin drenched...we walked back...i tried blah blah method fer aish to find her stuff...finally when we reached dere...it was dere! so mi blah blah method werked aftr all! n den took 111, got down at holland drive n took 105...den l8r was rushing to catch 282 but cldnt lor! by juz 1 second! i ran n i slipped, so i started walkin...den i go stand dere in front of da bus...da driver juz ignored me n went lor! den waited fer da next one n now i m at home...gonna bathe fer da 3rd tym fer da day...

bubbye

2004-07-05T10:20:00.000+08:00

hie

fridae...

had normal lessons...den went for workout challenge rehearsal...den had da actual thing...it was our first performance as a pltn in front of da whole sch... for da first performance, it wasnt tt bad aftr all...we got 5th...i m congratulating my own pltn...CONGRATULATIONS BRAVO 04! BRAVO 04 ROCKZ! we oso din hv enough tym to prac...not bad la... den went for htl n den aftr tt came home...changed n went for a dinner at ganges restaurant...it was a b'dae party of my mum's colleague's daughter... den came back hme n set my collar of no. 3 n went to sleep at 1 am...

saturdae...

woke up at 7.00 to prepare my no. 3 uniform...polished my boots... n den ironed my uniform... n den met aish at clementi n went to kallang together fer SYF...i was in fer da first rehearsal...den dey split us up in to two grps...dose hu came fer 6 n more rehearsals n dose hu came fer 4 n less rehearsals...n da second grp was mainly made up of crez i think...we fell in separately... at dat tym i saw all our sch band members cumin...i saw sui ying, jo ee, annabella, amanda, dawn n many others...dey cldnt resist waving to dem...but so sad i cldnt wave back...but feel proud cuz tt is wat we r supposed to do...den dey asked for 6 volunteers...we let da part Cs go...

den dey said we were reserves...aftr we were sent back to da shade...i broke down...my pltn mates all were v sad but i was da only one hu cried n cried a lot...realli a LOT...was so disappointed...den went to watch da syf...aftr evry thing finished...one of da bands tt din win, Bowen's...started showing deir capabilities n were showing deir aggressiveness by playing fast tunes...so touching n saddening... da gals in da first row cried so much until dey had a hard tym playing deir instruments lorh...dey were so red lorh...so poor thing...

den we all walked to kallang n me aish n yee lyn left first...den saw yellow hat in da mrt so close to me...so sad dey got down at bugis...den me n aish got down at clementi n went to macs...had a burger each n had a round arnd da clementi central while aish was waiting fer her dad to cum dere n pick her up...den came home...dad took pics of me in no 3...den went to bed at 1.00am...

sundae...

morning woke up to find myself lying down on my sis's lap...she was stroking my hair gently n was pattin me on mi back...i snuggled cosily against her when it is supposed to b da othr way round...I LOVE MY SISTER!

den had tuition fer 3 hrs...i tot tmr hv sch n packed my bag...juz to realise tt tmr is a holiday as a result of youth day...so sad tmr is a holiday...hahaz...nvm...

anw, got a new ph at home...very keewwt design!it has a radio, clock, alarm, date n it is like standing on four legs?yep...v keewt design!

gtg...bubbye

2004-07-02T10:28:00.000+08:00

dis is a song taught in my sister's childcare centre...although it is taught for nursery kids, we as grown-ups, have a lotta things to learn frm it...dis song is actually dedicated to Sri Sai Baba...dis is how it goes:

take a lesson from the sun
who shines his light on everyone
all the rain that falls on
every single shore.

no distinction of our races
all the colours of our faces
nature's gifts are there
for all men; rich or poor.

love all
serve all
understand that love and peace
is what we need

love all
serve all
in every single thought,
word and deed.

bear all and do nothing
hear all and say nothing
give all and take nothing
in return.

love is: giving and forgiving
self is: getting and forgetting
serve all in the
spirit of your love.

love all
serve all
understand that love and peace
is what we need.

love all
serve all
in every single thought,
word and deed...

yep
bye

2004-07-02T08:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NCC DAY!YAY!

todae is nc day...budden my second nc day was commemorated w a silent drill...b cuz of da rain...so sad...anw NCC is 103 yrs old todae...morning my van was late...we were waiting for one of da gals 4 a v long tym...so i got out of da van in da middle n wanted to take a taxi...i did so...i still ended-up reaching sch late...

new teachers...not tt much...i was juz made clear abt hu r my new teachers.haha.sci we hv mrs goh...not ms lee anymore...den our form teacher oso changed...not ms audrey neo animore...now is ms seow...she is oso our music teacher...den PE we hv MR SAMAT...PE is gonna b a horror for me...he made my class mates run 16 rnds round da parade sq n 2 rnds in 2 min 20 sec. me n kel weren't running cuz we were in no 3...hist is ms neo...

we have new COs...ma'am anna cheng n sir lee boon keng...n da same old two COs sir chan boon leong n ma'am goh...ma'am goh is my eng teacher n ma'am anna cheng was my form teacher n geog teacher last yr...sir chan boon leaon mebbe my D&T teacher...hahaz...so 3 of my COs hv taugh me, r teaching n will b teaching me...

anw rehearsal yest was extra tiring...i had to miss two impt things...i had changed my dance lesson frm sat to wed for da sake of rehearsals n syf parade...den yest i had to cancel it to stay in da parade...was standing beside yellow hat..den we left at 6 n i reached my tuition centre at 7 when my class was at 6.15...but i managed to catch up.

den came back home at 8.15 om...bathed n started preparing my no 3 uniform...was damN tired...my toe with da missing nail hurt like xiao can...n den da bee sting oso hurt a lot...i oso got 3 blisters on my left foot...went to sleep at 11.30...

todae was a v nice day...wearing no 3 uniform...anw juz heard tt NAPFA test is on da 3rd week of july...haiz...no wonder mr samat is training us so much. n den had antigone meeting until 2.45...left sch w kairiya, farz, aish n jean...saw mangosteen at da bus stop! den saw asyiqin approaching...i asked her to join us...she is v nice n kind...had a nice tym tokin w her...now at home...

anw new tym table is so boring...esp mon...hv 3 periods of eng lor
last semseter we din hv any 3 periods except for creative arts n homec...but last yr we had...buddun we had 2 periods of eng den recess den eng again...tt was better as we had a break...den hv, hist tt day lor...all days r so sleepy...i hate da new tym table...so boring...i m trying my best to stay awake during class hrs...

anw 1st week of sch is so stressful...i had five rehearsals to face on the first day of sch.:
- council investiture rehearsal
- ncc day commemoration(in sch) rehearsal
- workout challenge(aerobics) rehearsal for youth day
- ncc day parade(at da SAFTI military institute) rehearsal
- SYF rehearsal

on top of all dese, i had to finish my dance theory hw, music hw, the 3 leftover hol hw, stoopid htl hw, 3 tuitions to go, filing of all tamil ws, assignments given by my parents n finally assignments given by myself to myself(LAME but essential to improve)...now i m a bit relaxed...
ok
gtg
bye

2004-06-30T12:45:00.000+08:00

OUCH!

a bee or smth liddat juz stung me lorh...my whole hand started to bcum blue n is swollen now...luckily my granny noes da ancient way of relieving ppl frm poison...she sucked it out n now my hand is juz swollen..but is damN painful lorh! i hv a prickin feelin...blood is oozing out...my grandma says my hand will be less swollen or not at all by tmr morning...

anw got a lotta things to sae...

todae was a tired dae...had lit n eng den went for PE in council tee...damN hot man...we had to do 20 continuos burpis n had to run 2 rounds...dear mr samat la...mrs heng so nice to aish's class...councillors did not hv to do pe lorh...nvm...den changed to sch u n went for rehearsal...

den had a break...den went to help ms goon in da MPR...den had to help sec 4 to arrange chairs...budden cpl zuraidah asked farz n me to guard da front door to stop ppl frm goin thru dere...saw all my fav ppl...dey all looked at me so weirdly...cuz i was in my tie...

investiture was so touching...esp da handing ovr ceremony...den went to dine w da guests...den at da end of it, our ex-DHs called us and bid farewell to us lorh...i cried...dey made me feel more touched more n cry more as dey came n hugged me lorh! nicole gave me a tissue to wipe my tears...in juz a few mins, DHs changed into ex-DHs...haiz...dis will b da same way for ROD... :'(

den rushed to go for NC...budden unfortunately by da tym we went to join, da rehearsal finished...den rushed for htl aftr workout challenge practice for 15 mins...

da teacher...may i juz noe wat is his prob? he blabber at me when i was one of da 3 ppl hu has bin updating my things regularly lorh!stoopid!so frustrated...cant i get a break? hols got hw, sch re-open first two days got so much tamil hw lorh!

gtg
bye

2004-06-29T10:40:00.000+08:00

hie...

sch re-opened...so excited todae...

first day of sch todae was a nice day except for four things...

good things...

got council tie todae! i think i look like a nerd in it...i m spoiling da beauty of da tie...ppl wld hv had a heart-attack when dey first saw us in it...hahaz...

saw F&N n she had direct eye-contact w me....haha...sounds lame...
den had da same freeperiods as F&N...todae's recess was w yellow hat n F&N...

den F&N's fren acknowledged me first u noe todae?! muahaha...F&N wld b jealous if she hears dis(as though she wld)8-x(rollz)... den saw mangosteen n F&N practising or smth...dey were shocked too cing me in council tie...

anw i managed to finish all my hw except 3...hahaz...so happy...

got new form teacher, miss audrey neo...she is quote suitable for our class...strict while strict n fun while fun...she is oso our history teacher...budden she only replaced mrs rama n not mrs gam...i wld hv bin happier if she had replaced mrs gam...mrs rama wasnt tt naggy...she was juz negligent abt our class...

bad things...

sum ppl spreadin rumours tt i m fighting ovr sumone in her blog... when i m actually not! listen ppl! i only care abt ppl hu say da fact abt me...may it be positve or negative...shld be the truth...hu cares abt ppl hu r trying to put an unnecessary blame ovr me, n making up new stories n spreading rumors!

next, sumone i noe took photo of sum one n is refusing to show me...fine lorh! think wad...i m dying to c her photo...anw she agreed to e-mail it...if she dsnt...i dun lose anth...i can alwaes ask her for her photo...she wun refuse(most prob.)..
i hope mangosteen din get angry...i apologise on deir behalf...to her...anw nxt yr i hv to survive w out cing dem...

thirdly, todae had council investiture rehearsal tt reminded me of dem stepping down...so sad...tmr i guess my eyes r gonna b full of tears...

fourthly, sch juz re-opened todae n i m cocked up w so much stuff lorh! tmr hv investiture, workout challenge n higher tamil...den wed got physiotherapy(i m gonna postpone it to sum othr day, cant afford to miss lessons), den got sum rehearsal, either nc day rehearsal, or safti rehearsal or syf rehearsal....den hv to rush home for dance class at 4.00 pm...den 6.00 got tuition...den thursday morning got nc parade most prob., den got sum rehearsal, safti or syf, not sure...den fri morning got work out challenge final day n den aftr sch muz rush for higher tamil...aftr dat muz rush back hme to go for music class at 6.00...den sat got syf final dae i think...den sundae got tuition...in between all dese stuff i hv to complete my one readers' journal review, one tamil story bk review n tamil power point...haiz...

general...

da music teacher is v slow for my pace n dsnt take interest in teaching me music...he exepcts me to sning at da very very very exact 'swarasthaanam' lorh! i m not an expert wad...tho he may think he is...n i oso cant manage my time cuz got htl b4 tt...n den i may oso hv a lotta hw...n i m a person hu hates punctuality cuz i want early werk...so i usually try to finish my hw on fridays...n todae we asked ms goh to give us more prac...so we may hv loads of eng hw...so i m quitting music class...i can survive w my present knowledge of classical music n my grandma can teach me bajans too...so yep...tt's mi final decision...

memories...

last yr...dis tym...me, farz n 3 othr of my classmates volunteered to go for da investiture...n den quite sum tym aftr investiture, 5 of my class mates had bin selected to bcum junior councillors...when we were confirmed junior councillors, sgt calissa, nicole n dorcas brought us to one of da classrooms in da futura block n were toking to us...we had intro session...n tt was da tym when dey said "where r 1S3 councillors? better maintain discipline in ur class arh..." lidat lorh...we all were v quiet...now we r juz da opposite during council meetings...den aftr few days, we had a council camp...it was really fun...though da second day of da camp, saturdae is unforgettable...it is da day i learnt a lesson in my life...haiz...precious moments...i will nvr get dem back.unless sum miracle happens...

okie...
gtg...
bubbye...

2004-06-27T05:37:00.000+08:00

hie...

thursdae:

went for syf rehearsal...i wasnt luckie enough to join in da marching frm da beginning...i was kep as a reserve...i realli was so disppointed n really wanted to cry...i willed myself to join... my will brought me luck...at da last rehearsal of da day, i was asked to join in! da thing wasnt tt bad la...tho it was longer dan nc day parade rehearsal...

came back hme n did sum hw...poor aish was sick tt day...GET WELL SOON DEAR!

fridae:

farz shld hv reached melacca yesterday...HAVE A NICE TIME IN MELACCA FARZ! i think dis will b ur unforgettable n most enjoyable holiday...or rather most enjoyable part of ur june hole 2004...

morning felt v feverish...den when i checked my temp. , it was 38.5...but i din care la...i had flu n cough oso... den carried on w my hw...n when i tried to type da tamil thinggy, it wldnt cum...i was so frustrated....

den went for music class...i think i m gonna stop music class....da teacher dsnt take interest in teaching me...i dun need tt kinda teaching.... i can survive w my present musical knowledge...

den l8r came hme at 7.30...i forced my dad to go n play badminton w me...tt was where da trouble started...i was so fed up w all my hw...i was filled w fury...until i endep-up playing badminton for 3 whole hrs...i forgot my dinner oso...i oso forgot i was supposed to prepare my uniform for todae...i vent all my anger on da game...i smash her smack dere....den ended-up, i spoilt 5 shuttle-cocks....den came home, had a bath n den ate my so called dinner at 11.30 pm...den i went to prepare my unifom n i finished it in 1 hr... den went to polish my boots n finished evrything by 1.30 am...den went it sleep....i slept at 3(i think i m suffering from insomnia)...

todae:

I HATE MYSELF!
morning felt v weak n feverish...was coughin like xiao...went for nc...my hand was trembling since morning... den had PT...she said we shldnt report sick... i din dare go against her words...or rather, it is tt i hv so much respect for her...

throughout my part a life...i had only reported sick during pt for 3 or 4 tymz...but in my part b life so far, i hv reported sick almost evry activity, almost evry PT...is it da PT is tougher, or i give up more easily or my health is seriously deteriorating? i m confused...i m scared if i m a total disgrace to my pltn...my pltn mates can endure y cant i? m i a disgrace to nc?

i usually do 40 at hme evry dae...budden todae aftr da first set...my hand trembled more n den when we stood up, i juz was abt to faint when sum spec. came to my rescue...she brought me sum where n all i noe is tt i was lying down sum where...den when i was conscious enough, i realized i was at da corridor....n my hands were trembling so much...such a nice PT of 5BX 45,40,.35 n i missed it!

i din dare report sick...i respect her so much...n when i saw deir faces so angry, i was more frightened n in tt fear my hands trembled more...da moment i nearly fainted, i had sum sorta nightmares man...i was really freaked out n sweating like xiao when we were resting, b4 i nearly fainted...

aisyah was such a nice ic todae...she was so caring towards me...so concerned...haiz...so lucky to hv such a nice pltn mate...

l8r, i was ok, juz tt my hands were still trembling but i cldnt control it...den my NCOs asked me notta join in da marching... den mam goh asked me to go home...

strawbErrY is so kind to me...she is so caring...haiz...

i miss todae's rehearsal...haiz...

aish is still not ok...hope she gets well soon...

l8r i m forcing myself to go for dance class....i dun care...i die oso dun care...i faint oso dun care...dis was what i was telling myself todae during PT...i die, faint oso dun care, dun report sick...tt's y i nearly fainted...but i din report sick! :D

i hope i can at least dance well...

bubbye...

2004-06-24T03:05:00.000+08:00

i m supposed to eat boiled veggie n raw tomatoes n eggs according to dem dis morning...i lurve veggie but now i hate dem as dey ask me to eat dem in a certain way, which is by boiling...i shall follow dem n eat it n den end-up puking...or mebbe even b4 i eat dem i may puke blood n die...haiz...

yest i think my tym was v nice...i found my lost readers' journal term 1...i usually dun lose things...so...i managed to keep it up...

i search n den came to sit in front of da comp...sumone hu seldom cuz online came...smth very happie happened... it was mangosteen n i chatted w her! she is so nice! although i was scared of her in da begninning....i m less scared of her now...

so happie! tmr got parade rehearsal...budden dunno abt sat cuz got councillors' investiture rehearsal oso....dunno which one to go...cuz investiture is on da first tuesday aftr sch re-opens...n hopefully dis sat can go for dance class...i really died w out it last sat as a result of parade rehearsal...nvm...i shall c wad i can do...

still hvnt managed to do tamil hw...planning to ask extension n muz show da htl teacher da list of hol hw we hv...at least if he has a heart...he wld give us extension...

gtg
byeez

2004-06-23T02:20:00.000+08:00

so pissed off!

hvnt even woke up, sum ppl at 6.30 am, came to my bed, woke me up n started advising me lorh! wth lorh! n summore dey dare tell me i shldnt b so short-tempered blah blah blah...n i dun tok b4 brushing my teeth...so was trying v hard to scream back to da person...dey can show all deir temper on me larh...when i tell dem dis den dey wld say, cuz u r my daughter...so i hv all rights to do tt...but if i show my temper on dem arh....dey muz scold me back one u noe...i oredi was so damN irritated cuz of da comp...cant load power pt n cant load tamil fonts...dey say re-install ur comp den load evrything again...n my projects r due next wk...one of dem due tmr...my tuition's work...so i was so irritated n dere dey go shooting so ridiculous n silly qns at me...how dey expect me to react? i asked dem to down load for me dey say it is my prob...wat is dis lorh..so sickening!

during school days...i noe if i open my mouth to tok...dey will try to find sum faults or anthr n will end up quarrelling...so i juz dun tok at all...go to one of da two rms...sit down dere...study...do hwk...use da comp for a while n den eat den sleep...tt's it...now arh...my dad purposely moved da comp frm da rm to da hall...n he says i shld tok more w my family members...n yest...it so happened tt i was forced to tok in tt kinda irritated situation...den end-up...getting all sorta scoldings n all silly qns being shot at me...den when i tok back...dey scold me more...when i shut up dey say i dun react to anth n dey say tt i m disrespecting dem....i tok dey got prob...i dun tok dey got prob...wad dey expect me to do?!

but ppl hu read dis pls dun mistake me tt i dun respect dem at all...i do...if not i wun b staying here anymore...i wld hv bin dead long long ago...anw...dey r still my relation...so no choice...i shall juz shut up n act like a dumb person...as though i hv no feelingz...i m numb...i m in a coma state lidat...haiz...

bubbye...

2004-06-22T11:00:00.000+08:00

hie...

got lots n lots of things to share w u...dunno if hv da tym to blog it in one entry...it will be according to my situation...

saturday...

went for ncc! went for parade rehearsal...my boots' heels came off lorh! it kept on slipping me off while marching...n da ppl marchin w me arh...deir legs all long long...dey marched so fast tt i had to run to catch up w dem...juz imagine how awkward it wld hv bin to look at tt scene...ppl marching...one teeny weeny person running n spoiling da whole thing!haiz...my hair stood up when da ncc song was played by da band while we were marching lorh! i nearly fainted fer abt 6 to 7 tymz lorh...budden...my pride n honour in marching dere overwhelmed my giddy feelings n i tried my bez to get distracted frm da giddy feeling...den came home...but now i wish i had juz dropped down dere, dead...i wld hv bin da luckiest person hving such an honourable death lorh! death while hving a parade rehearsal...hahahaz...dying while marching in no. 3...wow!

sundae...

took my own sweet tym to wake up...fer da ferz tym i hv slept longer dan 7 am lorh...den went to science centre, to da omnimax theatre dere n watched two movies...WHALES n TOP SPEED...v nice movies...budden...da movies were v fast...n i became giddy n got a v bad head ache...so a pleasant experience turned out to b a painful experience...den went to boat quay fer lunch...i cldnt b lieve it lorh! my mom wanted to go to an indian rest...but i wanted pizza...but i din say it out...den end up...all da ind.rest. dere were closed...so we had no choice butta eat pizza...hahaz...den went to c da smaller merlions dere fer da 3rd tym...since now it was in a slightly dif location...it was nice... den went fer a 45 min ferry ride dere...aftr dat went to look arnd esplanade...went to c a roof terrace...was reminded of my 4-storey bungalow in my mothr land lorh! i m seriously home sick lorh...den came home at 11 pm...

todae...

went for souveniur making for council thinggy todae in da morn...we did it in da D&T room...den went for eye appointment l8r...my dad came n waited at da bus stop...den l8r met him n went to da eye-centre...wah lao...waited for 3 whole hrs u noe! dey realli tested my patience lorh! luckily i had brought my story bk dere, so was readin it...den now at hme...but dis is so ridiculous lorh! we reached dere at 2.30 n we left dere at 7.00 lorh! anw...da doctor said my eye-sight has gotten worser...but if i dun wan glasses den it is okay...but if it gets a bit more worser...den compulsorily muz wear glasses...now he asked me notta wear my old glasses n has given me eye-drops, but a dif one frm da previous one...

my sister has been so nice to me fer da past 3 days lorh...she evry thing oso...i wanna sleep w nivy akkaa(means elder sis in tamil), i wanna eat w nivy akkaa...nivy akkaa dis nivy akkaa dat...hahaz...feeling so happie...

actually i wanted to write a lot othr things...budden...v lazy to type la...

hahahaz...

bubbye...

2004-06-19T11:05:00.000+08:00

c la...i consider dis as a bad omen which means tt my death is nearing me...dis morning...met w an accident lorh...tt's y i went late for activity todae lorh...i woke up only at 7 when i was supposed to wake up at 6...den ended-up takin taxi to sch...near ghim moh...anthr car juz crashed to da taxi in which i was in lorh...

juz came back from music class...tmr got nc n dance class...i m juz living for a few things...firstly, for smth more dan my life...a millenium gift of mine, my dearest sister Nikhila...she is my millenium gift as she was born in da yr 2000...she was supposed to be born on 1st Jan...budden was given birth to by emergency caesaerian on Jan 3rd...next,my life, dance which represents lord nataraajar(lord shiva); my breath, music which represents goddess saraswathi; my soul, studies which also represents goddess saraswathi; my interest, NCC...n of cuz to fulfil da dreams of my parents...which is also sort of included in my studies...yah...dis is da very simplified meaning of my life...or rather the reason for me still enduring to live...

bubbye

2004-06-18T05:00:00.000+08:00

went for physiotherapy...hahaz, so funni...treatment for a dead body...haiz...hvnt started on tamil hw...dead body doing hw, isn't it v funni? i m a burden to my parents oso...i asked my mom to cum n leave me at da rehabilitation centre in NUH cuz i dunno da place...den my mother said cuz of me she is v tensed...it seems tt she had a meeting todae...den i said nvm den...i will go by myself...she said i m a big nuisance to her...my own mother says i m a nuisance to her...den how can i expect my leaves, flowers, nature n others to support me n be affectionate towards me?haiz...c la...as i said...i m a burden even to my own mum...haiz...

l8r muz go for tuition...hahaz...tuition for a dead body...doing phrase book entries now...stoopid comp no microsoft power point! haiz...i managed to download tamil fonts frm internet...onli den did i realise my comp no power point...so dunno how to do da soopid projects...ooppssss!!! i hv no ritez to scold other things stoopid...cuz i myself m a stoopid person sitting down here being a waste...haiz...

bubbye...

2004-06-17T12:15:00.000+08:00

viLaiyaada ithu neramaa?
en vinaiyaalae padum paadu
athai solla varum poathu
viLaiyaada ithu nerama?

kaLaithean jenmam eduthu
saLathaen poruthirunthu
uLamaara unai naadi
unai paarkka varum poathu
viLaiyaada ithu neramaa?

puriyaatha puthiroa nee
aRiyaatha kalaiyoa
parigaasamoa enmael paRithaabam illaiyoa
kuthiraiyin mael iLavarasi nee
varuvai endru ethirpaarthu
vazhi meethu vizhi vaithu
vazhi paarthu varumboathu
viLaiyaada ithu neramaa?
-Nivy-

You think you know the real me
But not really
You see no one knows the real me
Not one, only me

On the outside
Im happy and joyous
But on the inside
Im suffering, alone.

People know the me I want to be
Not the real me
The fake one, the one I display
For the whole world to see.

The real me, I keep locked up
In a cage, in the back of my mind
No one can ever see her
She's wild, not quiet...

I can never let you know
Who I really am
I find it easier, not to let people in
For I fear I will be abandoned

Everytime I let people in
They see the real me
They do not like her
They run, terrified, so you see
No one can ever know the real me.

-Nivy-

ppl nvr noe, how hurt i m...though dey can comfort me, i dun really get comforted...i m hurt as a result of my own actions...but it isn't entirely my fault...how can i express? i can only open my heart, which is possible only after i die...but it will juz be full of blood, veins and arteries...only my true frenz noe wat is really inside my heart...i hv lost my heart n soul...i m juz like a dead body roaming about the world, being a burden to da earth...to the goddess of earth, Bhumaadevi...anw, my life will end when it is fated to end...i can't go against da god's laws n schedules...i can't change my fate...i juz realised tt...i shall wait for my end happily...

but i wish to achieve smth b4 i leave...i wld at least luv to fulfil my dearest parents' wishes...although dey seem v scary in my eyes...dey r still my parents...i oso juz realised it...i wish to be a gd daughter, a gd grand daughter, an excellent sister to my dear yonger sister nikhila, a gd niece, n of course...a gd fren...dear frenz...i m really sorry if i hv hurt any of ur feelings...n thank yoiu for being dere whenever i needed u all...i juz hv a strong feeling tt my life is gonna end very soon...so i wld like to take dis opportunity to apologise to evry one for all my mistakes n troubles created...

gd bye...

2004-06-16T10:30:00.000+08:00

FINE la!...evry thing oso muz blame me one la...evry thing has a limit lor...so i screamed back...dey all arh...small thing oso my exaggerate...evry thing oso anxious...gonna play badminton later...gonna vent all my anger in it...i wld hv nvr played liddat b4...! luckily was chattin w flowers...flowers advised me n convinced me...if not i was on da verge of doin smth tt i m not supposed to do...but flowers is a v nice person...only for her sake i apologised when i wasnt even at fault...
BYE!

2004-06-16T06:40:00.000+08:00

alo...

yesterdae, made a cake, chocolate fudge...though oven wasnt working, i tried making it in microwave...n surprisingly it turned out to be soooooo spongy man...hahaz...all my family members took da risk of tasting it...*+,...dey all said it was wonderful lor...last tym when me n farz tried makin it at my hse in microwave, it turned out to be a cookie...hahaz...

yesterdae, chatted w CALcIum...she cheered me up soooo much juz by using LEavEs name man...i myself was so surprised abt my total change in my mood lor...i oso dunno wat LEavEs has done to affect me sooooooooo much lor...nvm...

todae went to school for PBL...managed to sorta finish power point...had a nice lunch in da church w tess n rui ling...todae later muz go for tuition...

while coming back frm school, i saw a baby n it winked at me lor!!!!! sooooooo keeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwt!da baby wanted me to carry it lor...den i did...it was so nice to carry...hahahazz...

gtg
bubbye